The Weekend 5 (Sunday, May 19, 2024)

 Sorry I paused doing these for several months now. I'd done them for years but lost interest and stopped doing them and then it was hard to do them when I had lost interest. I will try to get back into these. NO promises. But here ya go the latest 5.

1. Work has been very stressful this week. Between co workers issues and being busy and super shorthanded. Plus as always they act like they dont care about it and let us deal with each other then when it gets out of hand and someone complains THEN they listen. I just go to work to work and I do love all I work with and that makes it easier and I have 2 close friends out of the few in my group but honestly all the drama makes me feel like high school. And I haven't been in high school in 26 years now since I graduated!! 

2. My radio show is going so well and I am gonna miss it :( I have one more left on the 20th and then nothing for about a month. Yes I will enjoy coming home on Sundays from church to just relax, nap and whatever. But I love my show. And I love my future career I'm working on. My hope for a job outside of retail that is literally killing my body. So yeah this summer I am planning to work on TikTok making myself a name and also getting an instagram going for just my account. Woohoo. Its gonna be okay.

3. Therapy went good. The thing I am amazed is sometimes I go over a month and we dont talk. At first it was hard but now its like thats great. I can still talk about all the issues I am going through and how I am handling them but I do stress I am proud yes I am proud of how far I have gotten. Sure I have bad days like yesterday at work when I full out had very bad anxiety and yelled at a customer in front of others I dont do this. And then I take my pill and am dead tired for 6hrs to follow. But these things are still less. I feel more and I let myself feel more. I talk to my friend at work when we have issues and dont let them just sit there. I am growing as a person. Which is an amazing thing since its been nearly 3 years since began to get help.

4. I dropped a water bottle on my foot 3 weeks ago. And since then it still hurts. The X-ray showed nothing but a swollen toe. I think thats my neuropathy. I do want to get an MRI and plan this week to talk to my doctor who treated my diabetic neuropathy to hear her thoughts and ask for an MRI. I dont know if I need to talk to someone else. But I need help. I will be in retail a good couple more years and this is just killing my body the job itself really is. 

5. Church is beautiful but I dont ask for hugs anymore. I will TAKE hugs but its rare for me to ask for them. Idk why I been doing this for months. Maybe its my anxiety maybe its my depression maybe its something else I am just truly unsure. I still love and care for all them but I just dont want to be that close anymore unless they want it first. I dont want to be so eager to ask for hugs that I need two from every person and write them down in my journal. I dont even journal anymore but I used to do this. Now its like okay I got a few hugs I am okay with that. I dont need them like I used to. Its weird. Maybe I should talk to my therapist about this...

whelp all I could think of. I gotta work on my last show. Have a blessed week. Hard to believe we heading down the last few days of May...

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 29th 2023)

Welcome to the last one of these for the month of October. Its been one crazy month and even crazier we now are just two months left of this year...wow

1. Last Sunday I discovered someone had gotten a hold of my debit card info again been a few years and tried to take money. It was denied and then I had to wait all week and use only cash I got from my bank till my new card came. NOT COOL! I hate this happening. I know it happens but it sucks and unlike when this happened a few years ago when I had at least some idea how this time I am totally unsure :( 

2. Church is wonderful and beautiful and wow we are almost 6 years old on the 5th of November. I love my church I do. But I still miss so many who I met here and dont go there anymore. My life was changed by them and now I hardly if ever see them :( I miss the days when I saw them every week. I love those who are here dont get me wrong just miss a lot those who have moved onto another church....

3. Work has been super busy per usual. My co worker went on vacation on Saturday and I miss her totally completely 100% a lot. Not just her working but as my friend. I have a few co workers I consider actual friends and 2 are in my department and 2 are not. Well she is one of the two and I am sad. She will be back in a week. I am glad she is having fun. But I am totally missing her and she told me before she left and after she'd hugged me and I'd cried some (she doesn't know I cried sniff) that this was how it was when *I* went on vacation because we get each other and how things are. And its sad we aren't that way with all in our team but same time maybe its better this way. Its emotional enough as is for me missing her and my other co workers when they gone for a day or more....

4. Radio show is going well. I do my last Halloween one tomorrow. I will miss my fun month. I love doing my show and I know every show is more experience for me to one day get a radio job. It keeps me on my toes. And I love doing it each week. Even when I lose sleep and time to it its fine it really is indeed. Yes I will be back in the Spring I'm already planning on it :) 

5. Got my final crown on my tooth and its hurting some. Idk if its hurting or the tooth in front of it. I need SO much more dental work then I can do and afford. Its just sad. :( I am glad we are done for now with it but same time I dont like having pain on something that shouldn't be having pain since its a better crown for me who bites down a lot especially in my sleep.

Well have a fun and safe Halloween. I'll see you in November. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 22nd 2023)

 Welcome. Pardon my not doing these for a couple of weeks months even. I got busy and sick and stuff and life just happened. Maybe I will go back and do them again for the ones I missed this is for last week for now best I can do it...

1. Work has been very busy. And stressful. We have 3 new co workers in the past couple of weeks and yet we are stressed out more than ever. In fact more stressed out then when didnt have them. I just didnt think that was possible. But my friend co worker and me agree its worse when they here. I mean I love them I am glad they here it does HELP but also its STRESSFUL. And I cant explain it any other way.

2. Church is so beautiful I love going each week. And I love my family. I still feel disconnected not doing the women bible study. It all has to do with where we live temporarily just been a mess of a few months here. I miss it totally and completely 100% but I know I will be back doing them next year for sure.

3. The house we living in time is coming to an end. We are supposed to move back to our house after 3 months here by the 8th of November. However they have not even come close to finishing and praying they do its very stressful thinking they wont be done. And even if they do get done its stressful how its gonna go with all our stuff just dropped off probably no organization at all and us left to deal with this for months just a couple of weeks before Thanksgiving and a month or so before Christmas. UGH!!

4. I love my radio show no complaints at all. Im enjoying doing Halloween time which I loved so much in 2018 and 2019 and missed since then. My first time back doing this in 4 years wow. So fun!! I am so grateful God allowing me to do this and I know one day soon I will be working for a radio station. Till then I carry on getting experience and having such a fun fun time.

5. Last week and this week dealt with my tooth of two weeks back. I lost a piece of my crown in the back the first one that began my teeth issues in 2020. I have a permeant new one being made that cost a bit more but should be stronger. 2 days after my temporary put in on the 12th it fell out at work. I spent several days till the following Tuesday with no temporary at all. Now since last Tuesday thank God its sticking in there. And Thursday just a few days to get that. Also last week on Thursday I got my 3rd cortisone shot of the year in my shoulder. I had a weird reaction including my right arm turning red and hot on Friday & Saturday the red hot moved to my back below my neck. But now its fine and mostly doesn't hurt. And no I cant do the surgery the doctor so badly wants me to try every time we talk because I dont got the right kind of insurance. sigh. 

Thats all for now. Have a good week. Be safe God bless. Hope to see you next week :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 27th 2023)

Welcome. Its the last one of these in August. Wow that is just crazy. Our family personally have been going through a lot and its just been a hard hard month. And normally I love August. 

1. Work has been busy per usual. New rules old rules and all that jazz. Hopeful we will get help kinda dies. And not getting along with my co workers especially one is just so dang hard. I just cant say how much it is so hard to do this. We are a TEAM. We are all we got. And when we fight its just wrong. And I hate being picked on no matter who does it :( 

2. I am prepping today for my show my radio show begins tomorrow the 28th so more to come about that. I am super excited. Its one of my biggest blessings this year is getting my show back. I know God has good plans for me and this. Or I wouldn't be able to keep doing it despite I will be on vacation in a month and miss two shows. My teacher is okay with it. So yes I am doing it. 

3. Church we missed it last week. Thanks to the tropical storm Hilary. We decided it wasn't a good idea to come at least 20min on the freeway in wind and rain. 5 min is nothing 20 is a lot more than we were willing to bargain with. So I spent my day off from it all sleeping a lot and not much else LOL. Back to it this week so there you go.

4. Went to Coronado on Thursday. Was unsure we could do it but we did. First we went to the old house took care of my birds and my plant babies. Then headed to the beach and then Coronado. The waters iffy and cold so mostly just put our feet in. And enjoyed it all. Then we got ice cream and walked the hotel. And dinner at Island Pasta we love this place 2nd coming here last time was 2021! Yum! Home late but oh well tired is worth it :) 

5. Give it all to Jesus. Thats my advice my last note here for today. On Friday I handed about 5 plus issues I'm dealing with to Him to deal with. I still tend to hold tight to my problems and not let him have them. It doesn't matter that he tells me hand them over. I say not thanks and hold tight. Then I have too much and since I overwhelm easier it just gets to me. And I cry and cry. I was having a bad off day too so Friday wasn't fun but truly giving him it all was the best I could do. I pray friends you know Jesus He is all you need and more than you dont think you do :)

See you all in September. Enjoying a gorgeous evening in our backyard here at our temp house. God bless you all :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 20th 2023)

Welcome to everyone who is not in this storm haha. If you are welcome too. Crazy couple of days here in our house and state.

1. Work has been busy. Especially on Friday and even more on Saturday as everyone so afraid of the storm stocking up on waters and other things like toilet paper and towels. And batteries we ran out of those that worked in our flash lights also all gone. People believe anything. There is being prepared and there is being insane. So there you go.

2. Church was wonderful of course. I love my church. I'm gonna be sad I cant do the study in the fall. I live too far away and I'm not even planning on signing up. There is no point. Who would pick me up? So there is that. Oh well its okay. 

3. My last radio show was nearly perfect. I am so happy!! I made it through this semester with so many trials from not being able to do homework except on my phone to this flood. I cant wait for fall which begins next week. By the grace of God I did it and I get to come back wow God is good. I love being a radio dj :)

4. Thursday we had every intention of going in our pool we still haven't. We went to the beach but it took so long at the old house. Forever. Then my sister got something in her tire. So there went that. We haven't tried our pool out yet and been here over 2 weeks :( its just one thing after another with us! 

5. The one thing that made me happy this week was going back on Friday night to get my succulents from the other house. Even just the babies. I wish I could bring them all. I miss my plants and my birds. I wish I could have them all here. I hate all this much. I know there is a greater lesson in this but idk what it is. The babies are here with me now and I'm keeping them here till we go back home in November. 

Well have a good week everyone. Stay dry and safe. Especially to those in this area having this tropical storm pound them its scary out there. God bless you all :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 13th 2023)

Welcome. Now coming to you from our new temporary house yuppie. How was your week?

1. Church was beautiful as always. So many loving helpful people willing to help us move from our house to the new place. We gonna go on Tuesday but it ended up being on Friday. But we still had help which is a great thing. Yes I love my church ever so much :)

2. Work was shorter as I had to call out AGAIN. Yes thats 3x in the last 2 weeks and all 3 on the same check. I gotta be careful as I am at 4pts. 1 will drop the 22nd. Sucks the other 3 will hold on till next February. Mind you I rarely call out and get points but this past two weeks has been a lot of flood and moving issues and calling out couldn't be helped. Not even if I wanted it to be. I tried so hard to go on Tuesday when we moving in (my sister and me went to the new house for 3 nights before my parents came) but it couldn't happen. Ugh. 

3. Moving sucks. It sucks that we gotta chose what we will have with us for next up to 90 days. And what will be packed up by them. Sure we did pack up stuff on our own but mostly knew it would be them. They showed up on Friday after my parents left and by Saturday night most of the house messy as it was with so much stuff everywhere cause we been here almost 12 years is now packed up and in a pod in the drive way. Its SO HARD! Our room and my parents room and the office those will be done this week. Then they begin work. I have to go back on Thursdays and Sundays to water my plants and take care of my birds. Its not enough. But our new places is 20 plus minutes away in Carlsbad. Its a NICE house. With a pool, spa, can sleep 10 people, me and my sister got our own rooms and I have a bed after sleeping on the floor on a mattress for nearly 12 years. But its just not the same. Bad as the house was, crowded, messy, HOT, we all want to be back there. And now we will have to move back in when they done and all our stuff will be back but we have to set it up again. Even the walls in our rooms including ours mine so decorated. I'll never get it back like it was again :( hate this!

4. My radio show went much better for number 8. Sad just one to go. Trying to be happy I can come back in the Fall. I am just gonna do one more show. Finish up my homework and look forward to coming back whenever I can in a few weeks. It has been quit an interesting return to my love of being a radio dj. Retro 80s Hits forever :)

5. Hard to believe 12 years ago I was saying good bye to my summer internship in Arizona. I loved going to FOX10 news and all it gave me. A love of tv and a love of future jobs. I did that as my only internship with CSB. I'm unsure if they even exist anywhere anymore. But I dont regret my summer doing that. I just wish I could have gone more days and spent more time doing that instead of looking for work. I wasn't supposed to have a job and nearly killed myself for months looking and doing that while interning 2011 summer only to have to move back home in September 2011. Anyways....

Have a good blessed week. Ours is busy busy and such in a the new place. See you next time :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 6th 2023)

Welcome to August. Boy this last week has been nothing that I expected nor planned. Big ugh. Gods in control and that is all I know. Cause its been a long unfun week and it is continuing to this week too... sigh

1. Work isn't as busy as usual. On days I work yes its very busy. Especially Saturday what was that insanity like a holiday. Friday was okay busy. And Monday was busy but not weekend busy. I do love doing happy to help when I can. But I do also hate how short handed we are and how its stressing us all out so much. I didnt work Tuesday & Wednesday due to the flood (more below) so I had a shorter week. Now I have 2 extra points and less pay on my next check :( 

2. Church was beautiful. My very close friend was back after almost a month being gone. I got prayed over by our pastor and his wife, our elder and his wife and my close friend for my anxiety/depression. Mental health matters. This week marked 2 years since I began to finally seek help and began my journey to where I am today. I dont feel different but I know I am doing much better and I am still smiling despite so much crap so I know my medicines are working. Ever changing always going with the flow is me.

3. Thursday went to the beach. First we got breakfast then we traveled a bit to the strand. We went down these stairs and into the water there. It was not easy the stairs and all. But it was nice once down there. Less rocks hardly any and lots of sand. And the water was so warm it was not cold at all. Our heat spell continues. Up and down it does. So yes it was a much needed day off from all the crap we been through. 

4. My show 7 was okay but had some issues haven't had since show 4. 5 and 6 were much better. Hard to believe just 2 more to go. Then comes fall. I'm doing great on my hours and my teacher is way understanding of all my issues even with late assignments I am confident I will pass and be able to do this again in the Fall probably around September. Even my Pastor is a fan of my show :) 

5. So comes the last thing the unfun thing. Monday came home after my long day as all Mondays are. The faucet in our bathroom was making a funny screaming nose on the cold side. It was from the pipes we guessed. Honestly we didnt think it was that serious. My sisters IHS visit was a week away and we wanted to get past that before we worried about this and didnt make that big a deal out of it but my parents knew. Come 4am on Tuesday I was getting up early to clean for the visit before I got ready for work so I was gonna be up at 430. Its 4am and I hear my mom yelling. I'd fallen asleep again with no earplugs I seem to do this a lot on Mondays. I didnt hear her at first over my fan but when I turned it off it sounded like "we need help" and "Bob it wont stop". I opened the door to the hallway to find 2 or 3 inches of water flowing down all 3 areas of the hallway like a little river. The faucet in our bathroom cold side shot off on my dad in the bathroom a good 15 minutes before and they couldn't figure out how to turn off the water. My sister woke up remembering it was out front and got it off. Then we had to clean the water up with towels from my youngest sister and my parents went to Winco for a mop. An emergency plumber coming at 630 to replace our faucet. When this all went down I called out of work it was not happening and went back to bed. While I slept the plumber came and then a friend came and looked at our house took pictures. He said we have to leave our place for up to 6 weeks while they replace the floors and carpets in all 4 rooms now ruined and pieces of the wall it bad. All this from some water. This was a mess he said we had to leave on Thursday. So I called out Wednesday thinking we leaving Thursday I wish I could have just worked there was no point. We didnt leave Thursday. We did find out we have to leave by this coming Tuesday up to 90 days a nice place we finally secured in Carlsbad. Its a nice house. But they will be packing up all our house and when we come back to new floors we will be moving back into our house now. Such a night mare. We have been packing up stuff to take and what we dont want them to mess with so they labeled. But in the end we cant do it all and will end up leaving most to be packed up by then. SO STRESSFUL. Running on little sleep is how I face the week. So here we are. 2 days away. That is how my week went.

Well next weekend in the new house and all. Have a good one. God bless you :)