The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 30th 2023)

Welcome. Good bye April you been sweet hello May tomorrow. How was your week? Doing this on time even if it right before bed :)

1. Work has been its usual busy insanity. I am starting to get into the groove of things. Still I hate when Monday ends and once I'm locked into unfun days Tuesday & Wednesday. I shouldn't be so stressed yet as I look upon tomorrow that begins my 3 in a row Idk what is coming either ugh. So yeah works busy stressful and ugly. 

2. My emotions have been so up and down this week. The worst day was Tuesday for work. I was just annoyed by everyone and everything. This was with tons of prayers and even a pill eventually. It just got to me. Idk why. It didnt end and I wish it had but I got by and was grateful for Wednesday. I thought I'd be super stressed but I was fine the whole day and not even as exhausted as I thought I would be end of day. Then come Thursday my worst day yet. It began okay I was in a good mood when I woke up. 7hrs felt nice. I had one of my energy zip drinks and it helped. We cleaned a little then got food at the beach haven't been there in a few weeks. ALL good. Got home the crazy of house life wasn't what made it bad but didnt help. It was when I couldn't go to the study and it was horrible. I know God was keeping me from the study I lost my rides twice. And gave up to crying all day, taking not one but two pills (not at once) avoiding shaving in fears of what I might try and going to bed just feeling like poop. I just was so drained! I hate missing church or studies I rarely miss church and this was my first study that I missed in a long time :( 

3. I did my psychiatrist on Wednesday and now we dropping at least my painful medicine that I felt wasn't helping me at all since January. As of this Thursday I will be free from its evil grasp on me. I am on once a day till then. And I will gladly say good bye on Thursday haha. Friday I had my therapy early at 8am. I had to hide in my sisters car for my appointment. It went good actually better then I thought and quiet (crazy dog next door always bugs the crap out of us barking all the time she not out till I almost done). So both appointments that closed together always are so tiring. So glad no appointments this week at all :)

4. I did a walk on Sunday my favorite evening walks so beautiful and calm. Even if its cooler out I love my walks in the evenings. And then after my bad day Thursday I gave myself a treat a walk which was helpful so I could cry and talk to Jesus and enjoy His creation. I love my walks. We almost tried back to gym this week but didn't happen tis so hard :( maybe next week unsure about this one. Shall see maybe Thursday ha

5. Church was beautiful Sunday. I love my hugs and love and laughs and things. There is nothing like my church time. Knowing I didnt get Thursday in I am great and always value my Sundays. I also love not working coming home for naps, walks and whatever I want to do. Yes I love my Sundays :) 

Have a blessed week. Shall see you next week in May. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 23rd 2023)

Welcome. Two weeks in a row thats gotta be a record :) still haven't gotten back to the ones I missed :(

1. Work this week was shorter and stranger. On Monday I had to leave at 7 not 8 because my dad did a sleep study (that tbh was probably pointless but thats another thing to leave for later on). So I left and it was awkward I had to use 1hr PPTO. But it went smoothly and frankly I am just so glad that its over. I was also off on Friday (more below) so I only worked 4 days. Work has been slow at times. My worst days are Tuesdays & Wednesdays when I do happy to help at least half of my shift or more so. Its so dang stressful. I am just dead tired by end of my shift Wednesday my feet feel like they are bleeding. And thats with me taking sitting breaks when I can between calls.

2. Thursday I did my cortisone injection. It is a private practice. And for that reason I was there 2.5 hrs before I was seen (not 1.5 total) and then after done seen nearly 3 hrs!! Yikes!! The injection is a total BLESSING. I felt the immediate affects as the build up of swollen pain just went away top of my shoulder. Thanks to that and my real pain medicines my shoulder pain is much better PTL. Its just weird I am so used to being in pain so when I am not its just weird. Funny thing is I recently realized maybe because I just paying attention to my shoulder maybe not that my neck doesn't hurt like it used to. I thought that was an injury that was permanent and yet maybe not so. Gods got me. SO I took Friday off to rest. Which was mostly after I got my medicines was me sleeping a lot and icing a lot. 

3. Church beautiful as always. I love my church. I love the hugs and the prayers and the support. I even love how small it is. Yes I love my church Sundays are a blessing. And my first in two weeks before I got to relax after. That means I took a nap and a walk and not much else. 

4. Thursday church time with the ladies was blessed. I had just had my injection so I was feeling that and I was so hot I didnt realize that cortisone is a hormone and that why I so hot. Well after we done and I did miss a lot of ladies not here :( After we done the ladies played for my shoulder. I am not one to do this kinda thing. So doing this was a big deal. I thought it would be embarrassing it wasn't. It was love and I felt so much love surrounding me. Heck they ask again in the future should I need it I would for sure have them pray for me :) 

5. Monday I began my walk with worship that I believe God laid on my heart. I am so tired of falling asleep during quiet time. So I decided to go with this idea. I went on a walk and that is when I did my worship, prayer and quiet time. I went 40min. It wore me out, but because it was my quiet time I didnt have to get up earlier. And hey I got a walk in! I felt it all day at work. I was glad because I was able to just read my Bible and rest done and not fallen asleep. I decided due to how much happy I did to not do the walk on Tuesday & Wednesday. I may try it again in the future unsure see how I feel....

Wow we almost done with this month hard to believe that. Have a blessed week. Mine is busy for sure. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 16th 2023)

Welcome. Sorry been behind on these idk why. But here we are. I finally posted one. Maybe I'll go back and finish the others eventually I guess. How was your week and such.

1. Sunday Easter we had fun. After church went to the Zoo me and my sister. They open till 7. We walked around and even saw some animals we hadn't seen yet at the zoo wow. Really was fun. Had dinner and came home and right to bed. Yes fun Easter He is risen!!

2. Church beautiful I love my church. I love Easter too. We had a lot of visitors praying lots come to know Jesus and keep coming back. I love the hugs and hey I even love wearing my new short dress it super cute and made me feel kinda pretty :) 

3. Work busy busy. This coming week will be less. But this past week busy. I do happy to help so often that its growing on me. But I am still exhausted by end of Wednesday after two days of doing it at least half my shift each time. I am always so glad to be off Thursday I am wore out by that day. Yup. 

4. Therapy going alright. I haven't talked in 3 weeks. I thought I had nothing to talk about but I had stuff. I need to learn to reframe things. I need to learn to not be so hard on myself. Even my therapist says I need to give myself a break grace stop pushing so hard. I wish I was better in this area I'm not. My empathy gets in the way. I am still working on this. Working on me is actually wearing me out. But I know its a good thing and that it will be okay.

5. Thursday also did our group after a week off. Lots of fun seeing everyone and back at it. Only 5 more to go I am gonna be sad. Its been a blessed 7 weeks so far of doing the book of Mark. I love all you ladies so much!

Well no promises to keep doing these weekly but hey we did today. Have a blessed day and week. God bless you all :)

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