The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 25th 2023)

 Sorry there was none for last week. I spent my whole day with the family (more below) after church and once home I just went to bed when I got home. Yup!

1. Fathers Day last Sunday the 19th. It was a fun day for sure. After church we met up at Boomers near by us. And played a nice round of mini golf. We haven't done this as a family in idk how long. And Misty my youngest sister never comes so her in the wheel chair with us was like an adventure in itself. Somehow I won even though I suck at this. I haven't kept score in a while too so there is that. And it was crowded guess all the dads wanted to spend the day with their kids at the mini course haha. After dinner at O's Kitchen ALSO crowded and once we home I crashed in bed way early I beat.

2. There was NO radio show last week on the 19th due to the holiday and the school closed. So I spent this past Thursday prepping for show 2 that will be on the air tomorrow. It might seem crazy to think I spend so much time prepping for these shows. Its insane in the moment but I really do spend hours at a time prepping for each show. And the fact I began all this over again after losing my past information I am now catching up and figuring out things for the show I may have but not necessarily talked about in the past.

3. Church was a great time of course. I love the hugs. I love talking to my special friends and my main friend. I am blessed. I love my church and the love we have for each other. Its been a year since things fell apart and many left that I still miss so much :( But I still love my church and at this point never plan to leave unless I moved away from the area (doubt that will happen but it could)

4. Work busy but not as much as two things: we got a new person a guy and so far he is staying so we have someone else to help us out HURRAY! Also I didnt work Friday. Sadly our main happy to help guy my friend who has been here 8 years leaves this coming week he has a new job and is moving to a new state. Not only are we gonna miss him, its leaving a BIG hole in our schedule with someone else having to fill it so now we need someone else new or someone to be promoted asap to that spot before he leaves very soon. Ugh. This year makes me so sad :(

5. Friday I took off because my Rainbow love would have been 21 and I miss her. I had a meltdown just picking out her pictures on Thursday. So no work on Friday. We had breakfast, then sea world, then this pop cats thing in downtown San Diego, and dinner at Boudin. Long day normally sad God got me through it once more. I miss you my Rainbow always forever in my heart :(

Well this week is a busy but a different kind. Lots to do. See you all next weekend I will try hard even though I got plans after church. God bless you all have a good one :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 11th 2023)

Hello again. Welcome to this. I am doing this now and going to bed asap as I have some big news below about my radio show :) How was your week

1. Whelp after my thing last week saying I wasn't doing the radio show the next day things changed. My manager had emailed me on Sunday night around 8pm and I didnt see his email so I text him next day just you know asking hey why didnt you pick me was it my schedule. He is like didnt you get my email you start next Monday WHAT???? This was before work I was getting ready I nearly couldn't concentrate after that to get ready and leave. I spent most of Monday in smiles at work so excited for this coming back. God is so good and loves to surprise me!! Sure I'm gonna be super tired on Mondays at work after doing this but it will be worth it. I went Thursday and got a little reminder thing about all going on there. And that is so exciting. I was so nervous then so excited just recalling all this all I lost when it closed 3 years ago...

2. Work is busy and getting busier since I will be doing my show. I've told a few people to listen in if they up. I just want people to listen in. I work hard at my job and I love who I work for. Friday was a bit tough with a call out so was glad on Saturday we all here. Our worst day is still Tuesdays for sure. Not just cause I didnt used to work it we just so short handed :( 

3. Church is great and all. Unsure about the new thing the pastor talked to us about. But I still appreciate him and I am glad he is taking good care of us as a church. I miss our studies on Thursdays now Idk when we going back maybe not till end of August...

4. Thursday my sister took our cat Jackie to the vet. She has I guess flea bites she been scratching idk where she getting them from we never see fleas. Lost a small amount of weight. They did a blood draw and forced rabies vaccination on her. She laid around for two days but today finally is okay again. We gotta take care of our baby she will be 15 in a few weeks!

5. The 8th marked 25 years since I graduated from high school. Wow!! I wish we'd done a reunion. Boo we didn't so there is that :( but I did recall it and cant believe its been that long wow I feel so old

Well busy week ahead here. Weather acting up cold windy cloudy rainy and then hot sunny doesn't feel like June at all. Have a good week. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 4th 2023)

Welcome to June!! I had a busy week last week so there you go. May is gone. Wow we half way through the year that is crazy stuff Summer is almost here!!

1. Oh June. June used to be a happy month for me. I loved it. My dog was born on June 8, 1988 but she died December 5, 2001. Rainbow I miss the most was born on June 23, 2002 and died October 12, 2019. This year I have again taken off work and made plans for the 23rd I can never work on her birthday or death day (October falls on a Thursday so I am good on that one!). Patches & Princess were both born sisters on June 28, 1992. Patches died September 6, 2004. Princess died January 6, 2010.  And our final pets Rocky & Jackie born June 26, 2008. We lost Rocky in 2021 and we still have Jackie our last baby. She will celebrate 16 years this month. We are taking her to the vet on Thursday she seems mostly healthy and we praying she lives many more years even if she is all we got. She's still more healthy then her brother was we miss all our furry children MOST born in June (by Maggie she was born in mid July 2004). 

2. End of May marked Memorial Day. It also marked my ex best friends birthday. I cant help thinking about her. We stopped being friends in 2012 shortly after we got forced to move back to California. I loved my friend and I never told her cause back then I didnt say I love you to anyone much especially not friends. I say it all the time now but that took a while to be okay with. Anyways. I am sad still at times I think about our friendship. I thought it was forever we had been friends since 1998. It was a huge lesson learned for me that friendship is fleeting. She also told me I was bitter in 2016 when I talked to her again saying I missed her. That was the last time we really talked. I was bitter and asked God for forgiveness for her and many others. It was the opening God used for me to come back the following year. Bitterness is horrible and I refuse to let it ever rule me again. Anyways happy birthday Deborah. 

3. Work busy as always. I hate being short handed. I hated Saturday most as my good friend co worker called out and I cant ask her why. I believe she was there today and I should see her tomorrow. It made me sad and I kinda got really upset and had to take 2 pills. This coming from thinking I was doing better. Ugh Ugh. I am still thank God clocking in every day on time off on time and making my 40hrs. This coming check I begin to save for vacation I am so excited for that coming up in a few months :) 

4. Church is gorgeous and wonderful. I love going to church. I love the hugs and the love and all the things that help me get by. Talking to my friends after too awesome. I took a long nap and a walk and not much else. My energy gets spent at work and then when Sunday comes I am just exhausted. Sigh

5. So I talked to my psychiatrist on Wednesday she is now changing my depokate dose to twice a day 500 from 250. So now I am taking it in the mornings and its making me so tired. I can switch to doing both at night. Its to help me deal with my anxiety I still have it and also so I wont take my other medicine as much. And yet Saturday I had to take 2 still anyways.... Thursday my therapist we haven't talked in 3 weeks. I had to talk about Michael, my co worker almost leaving and one more thing. She pointed out I have attachment issues that I attach myself to people and literally need to them to live. So I have done that with my co worker for now and that is why its so hard when she almost left me. :( my childhood trauma continues to haunt me so much. I am a mess. 

See you next week. Less this week so there is that. God bless you :) See you next weekend!!