The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 30th 2022)

Welcome to the last of these for October. I can't believe I am saying that. Wow!!

1. Church is always such a beautiful place. I love my church. Even with so many now at others and its hard at times I know I am supposed to be there. I love all my dear family that goes here still and also those who no longer do. Thursday was nice. We are half way through our 6 week study. Its a nice time. I love going. Its a beautiful time to chat and be happy with my family. I love them all so dearly :)

2. Work is busy per usual. I did call out on Wednesday cause I didnt feel like working. I had coverage of money for the hours so that good. Other then that. I am busy and doing stuff. And having attitudes I dont understand and then questioning that. I am like one big over thinker and work is a great place to overthink too much. Ugh.

3. Didnt make the gym again at all. We would have gone Wednesday had I not called out but we didnt. I did take a walk and ride the bike first time in weeks. Wow. So that was nice. Hopefully we can do the gym soon as we can. Its hard to go and harder to not go. If we gonna get in shape we gotta do it.

4. Tuesday after we cleaned we did a nice beach day. It was nearly perfect. Breakfast and the water so low the tide we walked so far in both directions. It was an awesome time loved it had so much fun :)

5. Wednesday I finally met up with my two good friends. This is a first of many I plan to meet up with them again. Soon as our schedules work and such. I learned a lot of stuff that kinda shocked me. I am still not done processing it. Its just a lot and you think you know someone and then this comes along and you are like what. So yeah God has this and me and them but its hard.

This next week is busy busy. Have a good one. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 23rd 2022)

Welcome again here we are. Speeding through this month. This is crazy how fast we flying in this month. That means we have barely 2 months left of 2022 what on earth!!

1. Heat wave. We have a heat wave. Yup. Like SUPER hot on Wednesday, somewhat both Thursday & Tuesday. Ugh. I mean dont get me wrong. I love some warm weather in the fall and it means beach days. But too much heat is just too much ugh no fun. Its making it hard for me to do things when I home like paint rocks, or do anything. So I'm good if the heat goes away until next year I'm fine....thanks! We did have a nice time at the beach Tuesday. It was hot and less rocks. We had fun. I love my beach days I'm gonna miss them when they gone for sure

2. GYM finally got back to it. Just one time. And not even barely 30min. Time we got in there I did like 15min of actually doing it. But we did try so thats good. And yes we did something. We failed at Monday so this was Wednesday before I went to work....

3. Work is busy busy. We still short handed. Like all the time. The stress on top of me is just no fun. I still dont handle it well. I'm doing better no putting me down but boy I still struggle. Mental break downs, anxiety and panic attacks even hyperventilating my idea of a good time is NOT crying in the bathroom on break or after work because work got me so bad I just melted into my emotions. Ugh

4. Church is a beautiful time. I still miss so many. And our temporary pastor I kinda missed him cause we had a guest speaker. I still love my hugs and love. Thursdays continue to be awesome. I love them and they are so short lived but I am just glad we doing SOMETHING after I thought for sure we doing nothing. 6 weeks is better then no weeks.

5. Therapy this week was tough cookie. Last time this time. I cried my eyes out after. I just broke and its okay I know thats okay. Its the process of getting better the process of God healing me the process of letting go. Its not easy man its tough its so hard but God has me I can do everything in Christ strength. So I keep showing up and working on me and I believe Gods healing me. Yes He is PTL

So one more of these before end of month. Crazy talk. Have a blessed week. Stay cool. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 16th 2022)

Welcome friends welcome. How was your week?

1. Work is busy! I worked most of my shifts but Wednesday I had off (more below). So yeah work is busy. We are short handed and it stresses the crap out of me. I want to say I am okay I am not. I try to be and God willing one day I will be totally. I think I'm doing better. Me trying to be proud like my therapist tells me oh boy. I'm trying I promise

2. Church was beautiful Sunday. I love all my friends. Sure I miss the ones who left us but I do love the ones who stayed. And that is what I love most is that I can love them all even when they aren't here if I keep giving it time which I am trying so hard to do so...  Thursday we began our small 6 week fall bible study. Fun times. Love all those ladies. I am glad we doing something. Its the shortest one I've ever done since I began to do them. Its shorter then even the Summer one. But its SOMETHING so no complaints. 

3. Tuesday I needed the sleep I got. Like 12 hours I was exhausted. But boy was shocking that day. We had a big unplanned unknown to us thunder storm. The thunder came first then the rainbows and then the rain. And followed by oh my goodness us losing power for 10min. Scary stuff. But we okay now and its gone. 

4. My mental health has been more better this week. Less struggling like last week. But still some struggles. As we got closer to the anniversary of my dogs death I think my anxiety and my stress got a bit worse. I was glad it was over with and gone. The building is what got me. Lots to talk to my therapist about next week I guess...

5. Wednesday was harsh. Its been 3 years since my beautiful Rainbow left me. I still miss her SO much. Its easier all the time but still so hard. I cried making her rock. I cried putting at the memorial. But I got work off. After we had breakfast we put the rock down and then discovered what the heck someone took hers from last year or moved it. Either way I couldn't find it :( Then after that we went to the zoo for several hours. It was fun exhausting but fun. Got home late. Threw me off doing something on a Wednesday I for sure thought today was gonna be Friday LOL.

Well thats all for now. This week a little like last week but a little not too. Shall see. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 9th 2022)

 Welcome. Making sure I do this ON TIME this week! Goals!!

1. Church beautiful on Sunday. I cant wait for our bible studies to start up and praying I can make it just 6 times come on not that hard right. I love my family even the ones I miss....

2. Work busy. I called out on Sunday due to issues with my back and cyst no fun. I had enough protected. I am sad they wont change my hours even after I talked to my supervisor Wednesday. What gives? Also still waiting for them to approve my time off for next month for harvest crusade. I'm going like it or not just will have to call out if they dont approve it soon. Sigh. 

3. GYM did not on Monday really but did Wednesday before work. Had a nice workout. Trying to break in my new shoes I got in 2020 and still haven't broke in. Trying to get in shape isn't fun but I do love working out just not working out haha

4. Tuesday we cleaned then did the beach. Fun times. It was overcast and the waves mean with the rocks but fun. We MIGHT get breakfast then go to the harbor next week. Shall see. Fall what Fall? Its still sunny and hot here in Cali. LOL

5. Therapy Thursday. I have had a bad week of struggling. So this wasn't but was necessary time for sure. Glad for some ideas. I cant give up I gotta keep going and working and not give up on ME. For real 

See you all next weekend. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 2nd 2022)

 Welcome. So Sorry I skipped this last week. It was a busy week and I felt too overwhelmed to have time to write this too. So this is for September 25th as well. Enjoy

1. Work is busy and feels busier. But its still what it is. Work. I get stressed out. We get short handed yes that is what work is in retail for sure. My first week back after vacation wasn't fun I wanted to go back to AZ. I kinda still do. 

2. Workouts not that much. Some walks. And we went back to the gym finally this last week on the 28th. So that was great. Hope this week we can at least go once or twice more. I love the gym but so hard getting back IN shape.

3. Church is beautiful so much. I love my church. I do. I miss my pastor I miss all that. It breaks my heart so much change but I know God will get me through it day by day He will. 

4. Had my Psychiatrist on the 21st will meet again in November. And my therapist on the 22nd. It exhaust me doing them so close together. Yikes!Working on me isn't easy but I wont give up trying. I went back to my chiropractor on the 28th finally and it helped but my neck pains are not fun and I am unsure why some old pains are coming back sigh.

5. Grandmas birthday on the 29th we went to the beach like we do once a week and we blew bubbles. I miss her so much. No matter how long she gone I shall miss her.

6. This week was so busy I added a number 6. On Tuesday went to a meal to say good bye to my pastor and his wife. Not as many came as planned. I am grateful I was able to do go. I will miss them so much. And Saturday went to a baby shower. It was a lot of fun and I am glad I got off work to go. Yes I had fun indeed.

Have a blessed week. Mine is not as busy. But still so. God bless you :)