Welcome. This is barely squeaking in for a September post IT IS THE LAST DAY OF THE MONTH!! I am being honest here this year has been one trial after another. Holding my head above the water it is scary how much has changed in my personal life. I hope the last 3 months will be kinder but at this point its all up in the air who knows!!
1. Went to the GYM twice last week. Not bad not bad at all! Trying to keep up and do something workout like DAILY since my disease. Not easy as I still have my bad knees and I am still fighting this cold/cough. But I will keep going cause you know I do pay for it... and I don't mean pay for it pain wise after ;)
2. School this week I am back! I skipped all last week. But I am back now. English is going okay I truly need to be writing more for my creative writing class. Speaking of which as October approaches I realize NaNoWriMo is coming and I haven't even begun to brain storm for my new book idea. I was thinking of going back in time and doing a third book for my duke and duchess in time series. Maybe their kid goes back in time? Its a stretch but its an idea IF NOTHING ELSE! My show 5 went pretty good. Compared to two weeks back when it sucked big time. So yeah Show 5. This semester is flying by. I have just 9 more shows to go cause I skipped that one week. Yup
3. We went to the Safari Park one last time on Friday the 28th. I will miss going to the zoo & safari park. But truly we cant afford to do this again till I get a new job! At least! Last time when it ended in 2014 we took yes 3 years to get them again. We had fun saw all but the baby elephants which is a bummer. But that park is huge and we were both exhausted and it was closing time. But got to see the rest I wanted to see. Yes for sure! I will miss you Zoo & Safari Park but I am hoping for a miracle and us being able to come back again next year!! It was so fun.
4. My Grandmas 106th birthday was yesterday. We sent a balloon to the sky. Our tradition since 2009 we took a break one time I believe in 2012 and it felt so empty. So we keep doing it and won't be stopping anytime soon. This time at Guajome Park near our house. And of course our 3 silly balloons got connected up in the tree and as far as I know they will die there in a few days so there is that...But still fun. After my sister went to go do something with a friend me and my mom hung at the park and got a ton of bird pictures. I think I am a bird. LOL and so is she! Bonus! ;)
5. I am still dealing with the total shock and sadness of having diabetes a week later. Its a day by day thing for me. My blood sugar is a mess. I am still working on getting enough snacks going and such. I am supposed to have 5 or 6 small meals a day. I over did the sugar on Friday and then on Saturday I didnt eat enough in a small period and ended up having such a bad sugar drop I was shaking badly. I often wonder how I will die and now I wonder if it will be this eventually. Sure it might take 15 plus years but its a possibility. I know this much: God is in control, there is a reason a purpose in this and in the end despite HOW HARD IT IS TO SAY GOOD BYE TO ALL I LOVE IN SUGAR! I know this world is temporary and this is another thing I am letting go of. I am just hoping and praying in my new life in heaven and when the earth is re done I will get to enjoy my sugar again if we eat that is. And all that I am losing. God is slowly taking my grips on this life off my hands piece by piece. I don't love sugar as much as I love God but it was one of my top things and now it is slowly and surely going away. Long with a new lifestyle I didnt chose didnt ask for and is beyond new for anyone in our current family. I will not admit to a lot of people I have this. I am ashamed I think I feel like I both caused this and deserved it. Horrible as that is I am still dealing with this new death. And its now 6 months since my job died too. This year! :(
Well have a great week everyone. My week plans to be less exciting more the norm. Might rain this week thrilling. Not really but hey whatever. See you all in October. Have a good one. God bless you all :)
Saturday, September 29, 2018
Sunday, September 23, 2018
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 23rd 2018)
Welcome to Fall!! How are you doing today? My week was kinda less exciting but still I did stuff so that is good I guess. Cant believe we are almost through September and now in a new season. Crazy stuff
1. Monday celebrated my youngest sisters birthday she turned 32. Didnt do a lot. But did stuff. I gave her my toy I had bought back at BRU before they closed. And she loves it!! Later had dinner at The Habit and then dessert at DQ. Sat in the Harbor for dinner. Then back home. Happy Birthday
2. Tuesday went to my cousins baby shower so I skipped my show. Oh well. The shower was far away but fun. There almost 3hrs the shower should have been 2hrs but went till almost 3hrs in. Oh boy. Still had fun and glad we went :)
3. Wednesday I went to the doctor and got horrible news. I was going for arthritis I thought the worse I would walk away with was bad arthritis news. I had looked at my blood few days after it done and it showed I could have diabetes. But I thought they would re test me I thought I had to fast. It said online that more test might be needed. Instead my visit turned into Diabetes 2 which I have now. For life. I'm still in shock now. I feel like someone died. My sugar my chocolate my life is in shambles now. All cause of a disease that affects a lot more people then you might know. I am on 2 new meds. And I have to be careful on how much sugar I eat. It means getting rid of my favorites and just trying to be okay. When I am not really okay with it :(
4. Skipped school Thursday I am sick actually cough and cold. UGH. I hate being sick and its coming on around time of all the rest. Yup sick again. I haven't been sick in months and I tried to fight this off. I kinda failed.
5. Did a small workout at home on Thursday walk and bike. I am aiming to do a workout in some form unless I will be walking a lot every day rest of my life. However long or short that is. To help my diabetes and my arthritis. To help me.
Hey in the end if I get to lose weight that is great but I truly miss my chocolate and sugar :(
Well have a great week everyone. Not much time left this month. Have a good one everyone. See you all next weekend! Just 2 more of these this month to go....
1. Monday celebrated my youngest sisters birthday she turned 32. Didnt do a lot. But did stuff. I gave her my toy I had bought back at BRU before they closed. And she loves it!! Later had dinner at The Habit and then dessert at DQ. Sat in the Harbor for dinner. Then back home. Happy Birthday
2. Tuesday went to my cousins baby shower so I skipped my show. Oh well. The shower was far away but fun. There almost 3hrs the shower should have been 2hrs but went till almost 3hrs in. Oh boy. Still had fun and glad we went :)
3. Wednesday I went to the doctor and got horrible news. I was going for arthritis I thought the worse I would walk away with was bad arthritis news. I had looked at my blood few days after it done and it showed I could have diabetes. But I thought they would re test me I thought I had to fast. It said online that more test might be needed. Instead my visit turned into Diabetes 2 which I have now. For life. I'm still in shock now. I feel like someone died. My sugar my chocolate my life is in shambles now. All cause of a disease that affects a lot more people then you might know. I am on 2 new meds. And I have to be careful on how much sugar I eat. It means getting rid of my favorites and just trying to be okay. When I am not really okay with it :(
4. Skipped school Thursday I am sick actually cough and cold. UGH. I hate being sick and its coming on around time of all the rest. Yup sick again. I haven't been sick in months and I tried to fight this off. I kinda failed.
5. Did a small workout at home on Thursday walk and bike. I am aiming to do a workout in some form unless I will be walking a lot every day rest of my life. However long or short that is. To help my diabetes and my arthritis. To help me.
Hey in the end if I get to lose weight that is great but I truly miss my chocolate and sugar :(
Well have a great week everyone. Not much time left this month. Have a good one everyone. See you all next weekend! Just 2 more of these this month to go....
Sunday, September 16, 2018
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 16th 2018)
Sorry this is late! I was busy yesterday so I am getting it up on time but it is still late. How was your week? MINE WAS BUSY! And it continues. This week I will be busy busy till Friday & Saturday will get a break!
1. Monday went to the doctor in the morning got my blood drawn and physical. Then set up an appointment next week for my knees to get them checked for arthritis. I am like a walking time bomb for issues. The older I get the more I get them. I won't be 40 till next year but my hand full of growing issues has me looking to Jesus and being thankful every day I am alive. Later on Monday we went to the GYM For pizza done a week late due to the holiday last week. And did a small workout. I was happy I did a real workout then paid or it later. So there you go.
2. Tuesday had my show 4 at the radio station. It was a disaster idk why everything went wrong. Last week good this week not so good! Class okay this week. My creative writing one we turned in stuff on Thursday. But this free class that is so free its just a fun weird class I didnt mind holding on to even if I am super tired from twice a week up early. Yup.
3. Friday we went to the Zoo probably for the last time. Got a late start. I wanted us to get 6hrs full. We ended up not arriving till 1. So we were there about 5hrs since we still in the zoo at closing. Good news is I saw my hummingbirds and we saw penguins and a few other animals. Not a lot of monkeys or my meerkats. But we MAY and I say it MAY come back on last day our passes good on the 28th. And we doing the Safari Park one last time on the 24th. Hard to believe its been a year. Last time we had passes was 2014 so it took 3 yrs to get them again. Hopefully next time won't take so long. It would be awesome soon as I get a job to get them again I hope by next year! Especially since the bigger hummingbird exhibit will be open :)
4. Saturday went to Universal first time back since May. It was super hot as it was at the zoo but much hotter I believe so. It was not that crowded but due to the halloween thing the park closed at 6. Somehow we still got on the rides we wanted most of them. But not more than once. Never saw show either. We acted like we had time and then we didnt. So that is why too. But still had fun. Just exhausting doing two days of insane in a row like that. Sadly won't be back again till at least November
5. Well the 12th marked 7 years since we moved back to Cali. Its hard to believe its been 7yrs. Time truly does fly in the end. I just am thankful for the little things and big. Mourn the losses and move on. While I may never fully understand why we had to move back like we did. I will continue to grow and change and maybe someday soon I will actually move out again.
Well full week done this continues it. See you all next weekend. Till end of month I am glad for lots to do. And maybe just maybe October will bring the job I have been trying to get since our store closed in March. God bless you all as always.
1. Monday went to the doctor in the morning got my blood drawn and physical. Then set up an appointment next week for my knees to get them checked for arthritis. I am like a walking time bomb for issues. The older I get the more I get them. I won't be 40 till next year but my hand full of growing issues has me looking to Jesus and being thankful every day I am alive. Later on Monday we went to the GYM For pizza done a week late due to the holiday last week. And did a small workout. I was happy I did a real workout then paid or it later. So there you go.
2. Tuesday had my show 4 at the radio station. It was a disaster idk why everything went wrong. Last week good this week not so good! Class okay this week. My creative writing one we turned in stuff on Thursday. But this free class that is so free its just a fun weird class I didnt mind holding on to even if I am super tired from twice a week up early. Yup.
3. Friday we went to the Zoo probably for the last time. Got a late start. I wanted us to get 6hrs full. We ended up not arriving till 1. So we were there about 5hrs since we still in the zoo at closing. Good news is I saw my hummingbirds and we saw penguins and a few other animals. Not a lot of monkeys or my meerkats. But we MAY and I say it MAY come back on last day our passes good on the 28th. And we doing the Safari Park one last time on the 24th. Hard to believe its been a year. Last time we had passes was 2014 so it took 3 yrs to get them again. Hopefully next time won't take so long. It would be awesome soon as I get a job to get them again I hope by next year! Especially since the bigger hummingbird exhibit will be open :)
4. Saturday went to Universal first time back since May. It was super hot as it was at the zoo but much hotter I believe so. It was not that crowded but due to the halloween thing the park closed at 6. Somehow we still got on the rides we wanted most of them. But not more than once. Never saw show either. We acted like we had time and then we didnt. So that is why too. But still had fun. Just exhausting doing two days of insane in a row like that. Sadly won't be back again till at least November
5. Well the 12th marked 7 years since we moved back to Cali. Its hard to believe its been 7yrs. Time truly does fly in the end. I just am thankful for the little things and big. Mourn the losses and move on. While I may never fully understand why we had to move back like we did. I will continue to grow and change and maybe someday soon I will actually move out again.
Well full week done this continues it. See you all next weekend. Till end of month I am glad for lots to do. And maybe just maybe October will bring the job I have been trying to get since our store closed in March. God bless you all as always.
Saturday, September 8, 2018
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 9th 2018)
Welcome to the second one of these in September. Last week was a bit more dull compared to the week before. I still did stuff but had more time off more days free and more time to sleep in WHICH I NEEDED! Plus my sister dropped her early class on Tuesdays meaning now unless she works I will be going in a bit later on both Tuesday & Thursdays.
1. Yesterday marked 14 years since our cat Patches died. While Patches for sure my sisters cat she was more than that. Sister to my cat, our first cat since my sister got hers first and then I got mine two days later I got her sister. We lost her for reasons I don't fully understand still. When you get a pair one will need the other more than the other one will need them. Well my cat was the needy one and hers was not. (In our current 2 Jackie is for sure the independent while Rocky is for sure the dependent one.) I always think of her dying as it was day after my dads birthday. I try to not mention her death anniversary even if I recall it. After all Maggie that we got to replace her for my cat Princess died for reasons we don't get almost 3 years ago! Miss you Patches. I hope we see you both in heaven again someday.
2. School this week. I was falling asleep my English class on Tuesday not cool. But more awake on Thursday really. My show 3 was great for radio I was super happy how it turned out. When we do our air check I will for sure if given the choice pick this one. I am all for that! So we are through week 3 just 13 weeks to go GULP
3. Monday was Labor Day we decided to go to San Diego to celebrate dad and my sisters birthdays early. We saw the light house and the statue. Then rushed back to the zoo. Only to find out that they lied to us and the humming bird thing closed at 6 (got there at 6:30). So now we are going to go this week on Friday. Our passes expire at end of the month and we want one more time at each park. I hope we can do the safari park too unsure but we will try!
4. Friday was dads 70th birthday. I cant believe my parents are so up there. It is scary. Its that time of life where you don't know when you will not have them. But I am praying for them to be around at least another 10 plus years. I think they can. Unsure if I will be. You never know when you are the one to go. Just saying. But yeah happy birthday. I didnt do much with him he kinda just had dinner with mom while I watched my sister for them for a few hours.
5. Did the GYM this week just one time on Thursday. I had taken arthritis meds so I was able to workout and not be in pain till later on. I paid for it but hey its necessary. I also made appointment Monday for the doctor to get my blood work done check for things and also to ask about my thyroid and my knee. Fun times! Not really. Been avoiding what should be done. In the end I will only find out what I am supposed to find out.
Well thats all for now. This week will be MUCH more fuller! We recall 9/11, I have school, doctor, the zoo and MAYBE universal on Saturday. Yup. I am happy for whatever happens. Shall see. Till next weekend have a good one. God bless you as always. Stay cool since our temps went back up again Fall is not ready to come yet....
1. Yesterday marked 14 years since our cat Patches died. While Patches for sure my sisters cat she was more than that. Sister to my cat, our first cat since my sister got hers first and then I got mine two days later I got her sister. We lost her for reasons I don't fully understand still. When you get a pair one will need the other more than the other one will need them. Well my cat was the needy one and hers was not. (In our current 2 Jackie is for sure the independent while Rocky is for sure the dependent one.) I always think of her dying as it was day after my dads birthday. I try to not mention her death anniversary even if I recall it. After all Maggie that we got to replace her for my cat Princess died for reasons we don't get almost 3 years ago! Miss you Patches. I hope we see you both in heaven again someday.
2. School this week. I was falling asleep my English class on Tuesday not cool. But more awake on Thursday really. My show 3 was great for radio I was super happy how it turned out. When we do our air check I will for sure if given the choice pick this one. I am all for that! So we are through week 3 just 13 weeks to go GULP
3. Monday was Labor Day we decided to go to San Diego to celebrate dad and my sisters birthdays early. We saw the light house and the statue. Then rushed back to the zoo. Only to find out that they lied to us and the humming bird thing closed at 6 (got there at 6:30). So now we are going to go this week on Friday. Our passes expire at end of the month and we want one more time at each park. I hope we can do the safari park too unsure but we will try!
4. Friday was dads 70th birthday. I cant believe my parents are so up there. It is scary. Its that time of life where you don't know when you will not have them. But I am praying for them to be around at least another 10 plus years. I think they can. Unsure if I will be. You never know when you are the one to go. Just saying. But yeah happy birthday. I didnt do much with him he kinda just had dinner with mom while I watched my sister for them for a few hours.
5. Did the GYM this week just one time on Thursday. I had taken arthritis meds so I was able to workout and not be in pain till later on. I paid for it but hey its necessary. I also made appointment Monday for the doctor to get my blood work done check for things and also to ask about my thyroid and my knee. Fun times! Not really. Been avoiding what should be done. In the end I will only find out what I am supposed to find out.
Well thats all for now. This week will be MUCH more fuller! We recall 9/11, I have school, doctor, the zoo and MAYBE universal on Saturday. Yup. I am happy for whatever happens. Shall see. Till next weekend have a good one. God bless you as always. Stay cool since our temps went back up again Fall is not ready to come yet....
Saturday, September 1, 2018
The Weekend 5 actually 6 (Sunday, September 2nd 2018)
Welcome to SEPTEMBER! I had to urge just now to listen to Earth Wind & Fire on Youtube for the song September haha. How was your week last week? Mine was 100% EVERY day almost and I was going crazy!! And freaking exhausted. But I made it out. And this week is back to more mellow.
1. My poor dog. I took her to the vet on Thursday. I guess she has a build up for wax in her ears and unsure on her eyes. Either way she had issues enough to make me concerned but taking her in was not easy. Just did a drop off on Thursday before school and got her well my parents did later on in the day. She still on meds for a week poor baby girl! I need to get to my doctor appointment my yearly check up. Maybe next week we shall see I am trying!
2. Monday had the job fair been looking forward to since Hobby Lobby put up signs. It freaked me out because I thought for sure I was supposed to have this job. That is what I thought. A Christian company and if they took me on and kept me because it wasnt for sure then I would have a job, Sundays off. Its a hobby store too. Yes they hiring on the spot. But not me because of my schedule. Even if I had dropped my creative writing class which I really don't want to do that they wanted me to have OPEN availability all week long. Lame. So I would have still had radio and I refuse to drop my show. I love my show. I am gaining work experience I do not want to be in retail forever and been trying to get a real job and career with school if you could it almost 20 years next year! So yeah. They are opening in a few weeks and said they will be hiring again. I am supposed to also check back. So I filled out an app and left :( Then the day got extra crappy from there. Everything kept going wrong. I cried a whole lot. Jesus got me through it but it was harsh. I would be okay with one bad thing till another came along. Melt down by the library when my food fell in a puddle was my low point. Anyways Monday no fun this time I really hated you Monday. I am still praying for a miracle if I am supposed to be with HL it will work out and I won't have to try hard because it will work out. But it won't work out for a few more week so got to keep looking till then.
3. School is busy but I dropped my online art 100 class. It was not a ton of homework but enough to take my time. My radio one isn't just my show I have online stuff and in person stuff. So that is taking time. And I am supposed to be working my writing for my creative writing class. The class is pretty easy but I still have to write stuff to turn in every few weeks. And show up to most of my classes. My radio show went good this time around. Better then last time at least. Just 14 more shows to go. Having fun as always. And so far the online stuff isn't too harsh but its enough. Long as I keep 6 units and tech my English is 4 so I will end with 7 this time I should be okay.
4. Friday went to Legoland with a lot of people. My sister got passes to let my cousin in and her husband and their two kids our 2nd cousins. Then my cousins husbands parents came. And my parents came. At one point there was their family 4 plus 2, me and my sister and my parents so a total of 10! But my sister had to work and my parents had to leave to get my sister from school. With 2 bad knees I just broke off from the rest and hung out in the cafe market up at the top of the park. I rode two rides and that was enough. I rested and waited then when my sister off we had dinner with my cousins before they headed back to Orange County. A fun but long day!
5. Did our last ever bird thing yesterday. I am super sad! I just got into these things and was hoping to keep going even when I do get a job. I began going with my mom in May so been going steady. But the guy who runs it is being asked to leave so they don't know what will happen but if they do Saturday mornings it might not be for a few months or who knows. So we got our fill of birds and sad to say good bye to them all :(
BONUS time! Extra day added too much happened....
6. September 1st marked 7 years since our drastic quick exit from AZ. Its hard to believer its been 7 years. While it seems like it has been it doesn't too. Time truly flies as you get older. I Look back in sadness from that. I was sad at how fast we had to move in 10 days. How much we lost. While I still have no idea why were supposed to move back here. God has kept us going and I know it will work out and in some ways it has already. Us going to school for free, me getting more career experience, little things make it worth living here. I am still hopeful one day soon I will have enough money to be able to move out again but in California the expensive state unsure if that will happen unless I have a very good job! Till then I keep living best I can.
Well have a nice week everyone. Mine like stated won't be too busy. See you next weekend!! God bless you as always :)
1. My poor dog. I took her to the vet on Thursday. I guess she has a build up for wax in her ears and unsure on her eyes. Either way she had issues enough to make me concerned but taking her in was not easy. Just did a drop off on Thursday before school and got her well my parents did later on in the day. She still on meds for a week poor baby girl! I need to get to my doctor appointment my yearly check up. Maybe next week we shall see I am trying!
2. Monday had the job fair been looking forward to since Hobby Lobby put up signs. It freaked me out because I thought for sure I was supposed to have this job. That is what I thought. A Christian company and if they took me on and kept me because it wasnt for sure then I would have a job, Sundays off. Its a hobby store too. Yes they hiring on the spot. But not me because of my schedule. Even if I had dropped my creative writing class which I really don't want to do that they wanted me to have OPEN availability all week long. Lame. So I would have still had radio and I refuse to drop my show. I love my show. I am gaining work experience I do not want to be in retail forever and been trying to get a real job and career with school if you could it almost 20 years next year! So yeah. They are opening in a few weeks and said they will be hiring again. I am supposed to also check back. So I filled out an app and left :( Then the day got extra crappy from there. Everything kept going wrong. I cried a whole lot. Jesus got me through it but it was harsh. I would be okay with one bad thing till another came along. Melt down by the library when my food fell in a puddle was my low point. Anyways Monday no fun this time I really hated you Monday. I am still praying for a miracle if I am supposed to be with HL it will work out and I won't have to try hard because it will work out. But it won't work out for a few more week so got to keep looking till then.
3. School is busy but I dropped my online art 100 class. It was not a ton of homework but enough to take my time. My radio one isn't just my show I have online stuff and in person stuff. So that is taking time. And I am supposed to be working my writing for my creative writing class. The class is pretty easy but I still have to write stuff to turn in every few weeks. And show up to most of my classes. My radio show went good this time around. Better then last time at least. Just 14 more shows to go. Having fun as always. And so far the online stuff isn't too harsh but its enough. Long as I keep 6 units and tech my English is 4 so I will end with 7 this time I should be okay.
4. Friday went to Legoland with a lot of people. My sister got passes to let my cousin in and her husband and their two kids our 2nd cousins. Then my cousins husbands parents came. And my parents came. At one point there was their family 4 plus 2, me and my sister and my parents so a total of 10! But my sister had to work and my parents had to leave to get my sister from school. With 2 bad knees I just broke off from the rest and hung out in the cafe market up at the top of the park. I rode two rides and that was enough. I rested and waited then when my sister off we had dinner with my cousins before they headed back to Orange County. A fun but long day!
5. Did our last ever bird thing yesterday. I am super sad! I just got into these things and was hoping to keep going even when I do get a job. I began going with my mom in May so been going steady. But the guy who runs it is being asked to leave so they don't know what will happen but if they do Saturday mornings it might not be for a few months or who knows. So we got our fill of birds and sad to say good bye to them all :(
BONUS time! Extra day added too much happened....
6. September 1st marked 7 years since our drastic quick exit from AZ. Its hard to believer its been 7 years. While it seems like it has been it doesn't too. Time truly flies as you get older. I Look back in sadness from that. I was sad at how fast we had to move in 10 days. How much we lost. While I still have no idea why were supposed to move back here. God has kept us going and I know it will work out and in some ways it has already. Us going to school for free, me getting more career experience, little things make it worth living here. I am still hopeful one day soon I will have enough money to be able to move out again but in California the expensive state unsure if that will happen unless I have a very good job! Till then I keep living best I can.
Well have a nice week everyone. Mine like stated won't be too busy. See you next weekend!! God bless you as always :)
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