Welcome. This is barely squeaking in for a September post IT IS THE LAST DAY OF THE MONTH!! I am being honest here this year has been one trial after another. Holding my head above the water it is scary how much has changed in my personal life. I hope the last 3 months will be kinder but at this point its all up in the air who knows!!
1. Went to the GYM twice last week. Not bad not bad at all! Trying to keep up and do something workout like DAILY since my disease. Not easy as I still have my bad knees and I am still fighting this cold/cough. But I will keep going cause you know I do pay for it... and I don't mean pay for it pain wise after ;)
2. School this week I am back! I skipped all last week. But I am back now. English is going okay I truly need to be writing more for my creative writing class. Speaking of which as October approaches I realize NaNoWriMo is coming and I haven't even begun to brain storm for my new book idea. I was thinking of going back in time and doing a third book for my duke and duchess in time series. Maybe their kid goes back in time? Its a stretch but its an idea IF NOTHING ELSE! My show 5 went pretty good. Compared to two weeks back when it sucked big time. So yeah Show 5. This semester is flying by. I have just 9 more shows to go cause I skipped that one week. Yup
3. We went to the Safari Park one last time on Friday the 28th. I will miss going to the zoo & safari park. But truly we cant afford to do this again till I get a new job! At least! Last time when it ended in 2014 we took yes 3 years to get them again. We had fun saw all but the baby elephants which is a bummer. But that park is huge and we were both exhausted and it was closing time. But got to see the rest I wanted to see. Yes for sure! I will miss you Zoo & Safari Park but I am hoping for a miracle and us being able to come back again next year!! It was so fun.
4. My Grandmas 106th birthday was yesterday. We sent a balloon to the sky. Our tradition since 2009 we took a break one time I believe in 2012 and it felt so empty. So we keep doing it and won't be stopping anytime soon. This time at Guajome Park near our house. And of course our 3 silly balloons got connected up in the tree and as far as I know they will die there in a few days so there is that...But still fun. After my sister went to go do something with a friend me and my mom hung at the park and got a ton of bird pictures. I think I am a bird. LOL and so is she! Bonus! ;)
5. I am still dealing with the total shock and sadness of having diabetes a week later. Its a day by day thing for me. My blood sugar is a mess. I am still working on getting enough snacks going and such. I am supposed to have 5 or 6 small meals a day. I over did the sugar on Friday and then on Saturday I didnt eat enough in a small period and ended up having such a bad sugar drop I was shaking badly. I often wonder how I will die and now I wonder if it will be this eventually. Sure it might take 15 plus years but its a possibility. I know this much: God is in control, there is a reason a purpose in this and in the end despite HOW HARD IT IS TO SAY GOOD BYE TO ALL I LOVE IN SUGAR! I know this world is temporary and this is another thing I am letting go of. I am just hoping and praying in my new life in heaven and when the earth is re done I will get to enjoy my sugar again if we eat that is. And all that I am losing. God is slowly taking my grips on this life off my hands piece by piece. I don't love sugar as much as I love God but it was one of my top things and now it is slowly and surely going away. Long with a new lifestyle I didnt chose didnt ask for and is beyond new for anyone in our current family. I will not admit to a lot of people I have this. I am ashamed I think I feel like I both caused this and deserved it. Horrible as that is I am still dealing with this new death. And its now 6 months since my job died too. This year! :(
Well have a great week everyone. My week plans to be less exciting more the norm. Might rain this week thrilling. Not really but hey whatever. See you all in October. Have a good one. God bless you all :)
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