Welcome to the last one in October. Wow! It seems like just yesterday I was planning out my shows for the month and all this halloween stuff and now we are almost to November. October hasn't been the best of months honestly but trying to be okay with it. I still am unsure how this year will end but hopeful for a good last two months!!
1. Diabetes is not fun. I am not kidding. It takes the best of my foods and drinks and steals them from me over and over again. At this point I am unsure if my foot pains or other pains are diabetes or other things as I was dealing with plenty else before diagnosed. Still I take every day with a grain of salt lightly knowing that there is a reason for all this. And in the end I truly don't need to know what it is and seeking to find it out is not the best way to handle my time and stress.
2. School this week show 9 went fine. I have one more show for this month. I am entering a show in the golden mic awards. The thing is I realize I have to do that this week last minute. And next week I have to do another air check. This semester is chugging along slowly and quickly. On top of that my NaNoWriMo is happening soon. so there is that. So yeah school done. English despite having an odd teacher and no structure I learn stuff sometimes about writing which is part of the reason I took the class. I was unsure what I was expecting when I began this class but I am keeping with it no matter what.
3. Did the GYM exactly one time last week. Ugh. But Monday I did a workout at home. I did a 45min walk through the neighborhood that resulted in me injuring again my bad knee. AND IT STILL HURTS! The gym was fun I did it all even weights. Good time for sure even if it at the end of a long day.
4. Church is going great. I am shocked at how fast a year flew by. The next Sunday after this one we celebrate a one year anniversary. Cool! There will be cake that I cant really have. Maybe I will have a very thin piece. Dang it diabetes. But yeah I love my church. I hope we get a building soon but unsure if or when that will happen.
5. Well no UE and no JOB is how I might be ending my October. I know Gods time table is different then mine. But I am screwed either way. I needed a job by beginning of November. That seemed possible when this month began and now it is almost over and that is not gonna happen. Which means I will have no money coming in mid month when my second set of bills come in. It means I will have to rely on my mom and sister to pay them. AND once they do that I am screwed after that. Its not like I have a choice. I am at the end of my credit card with amazon which I was using to buy gift cards so I could buy groceries. I am at the end of my own money totally. I am at the end of my unemployment. I feel like I am at the end of my rope. And there is no hope. But I have to remind myself that God isn't going to fail me and leave me sitting here. I have done nothing wrong to do this. And as long as I have faith and trust and stop looking around me it will be okay. How? I don't know. But I am not going to ask that just keep going. God will get me through this. IN the end that is all I have left and that is how it should be. God getting me through this day by day one step at a time.
Well ran out of things to say. This week more stuff so that good. Gym, school, plus job interview, halloween and NaNoWriMo begins in a few days. Yikes. Have a great week everyone. See you all in November and thus begins the last two months of the year. God bless you as always!!
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