The Weekend 5 (Sunday, January 2nd 2022)

Welcome. New month New year New everything. How was your week? Mine was wet. Cause its been raining so much this past week yikes!!

1. Work busy busy. Worked all my shifts this past week. Sure I had shorter hours but back to norm this coming week. I keep it busy. Best I can. Work is work. Sad to see a co worker been here almost a year is leaving :( and sad to see I am still here but I need to try to not be. I need to try HARDER. This year for sure will be my last.

2. Church was beautiful of course. I love my church so much. I was blessed to pray with my dear friend. I never pray for people and I think I need to be more open to being used and to pray for others when I feel led. So I am praying to do it more often. Yes I am :) I love my church I dont care how often I say it.

3. Workouts not much. But I managed a walk for the first time in over a week. Hope we back at the gym next week. We both feel better. Trying to be hopeful for more walks and workouts too. For real. I love my walks I missed them so much.

4. Had my dental appointment on Tuesday and wont be back till April. My teeth are doing much better thank God! I been trying so hard! I had to cancel my therapy this week :( but I will be back for sure next week. My shoulder isn't happy about this. I pray one day soon for wholeness all that. My mental health has been off the hook bad. My medicine isn't fully working again. Crying and wanting to die. I see my psychiatrist next week and praying I may get an upgrade on the dose if necessary. I dont get why I fell back so hard but I have. And I'm trying to get back up again so much. Ugh.

5. Tuesday we went to the Safari Park. It was fun. Saw the lights. It was freezing and raining. But we had a fun time still. Got dinner at Islands. Then saw some lights lots of cool light was a great time. Made the best of the sour weather.

Well have a good week. Mine not as exciting. But back with my bible study group this week so that is good. And slowly getting more organized and hoping for a good new year. A new me. Lets hope. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 26th 2021)

Welcome to the last one of these for this month AND year. What on earth? Did you know this? We are just 5 days from 2022!!!!! Yikes. How was your week? Busy as mine? Yeah

1. Work busy but not so much as I hardly worked this week. I had Sunday and Monday off for my birthday. And then Christmas we closed. I only worked 2 days this week total. For real. Wednesday & crazy busy Friday. I was super sad to miss our Christmas Eve service but I couldn't call out and didnt have enough extra protected time off to cover if I did call out :( 

2. Church was beautiful on Sunday. All the love being the day before my birthdays. Cards or gifts they are nice. But love and hugs is what I valued and I got lots of them :) even my good friend she said she probably wouldn't come came just for a few minutes before. I think maybe a small reason was for me but she said it for other stuff. I dont care. She was there for hugs and talking a little bit :) So yes love church time. After went to see my friend she's been unable to come back to church for a long time now so we visited for a bit. Then I got some food and drinks and yogurt and went home to chill. Nice day off from work!

3. Didnt do gym again but did one walk :) As for my mental health. My medicine began to work on Wednesday. This was after I had THREE bad days in a row of me crying and wanting to die. Its not working all the way. But it began to work and now I dont cry like at all :) I am so happy!!!! I still feel off and I still sometimes feel stressed and anxious but not like before and for sure not as bad as before too. Thank you God!

4. Birthday this week I turned the big 42! Beautiful day. Got up early. Went to breakfast at Beach Plum. Then went to the zoo got our passes finally renewed. Spent a few hours there just relaxing. Then later my parents came at dark we had fun in the lights. It was a nice day for real. Thursday my good friend from church took me to a store bought me an outfit and bought me lunch all for my birthday. Wow thank you

5. Christmas was crazy cause we made most of the meal this time. Turkey and all. In fact the only thing we didnt make was the gravy or cut the turkey. But rest we did. I made my desserts, yams and helped with the turkey best I could. My sister did the rest. She also helped with my pies. We had breakfast in the morning my dad made that. We opened gifts. Then baked most of the day. Ate later then planned. And bed right after that. I am glad that the holidays are almost done. Exhausting. For real. 

See you next year and next month and all that. In another busy week this week but not like last week. God bless you all :) be safe have fun!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 19th 2021)

 Sorry this is so late I didnt mean to be that lazy again :( So this is going up just days before the next one my bad... how was your week

1. Church was beautiful. Love my church. So much love as I entered my last week before my birthday. So thankful for all the love. :) I love my church family. Hugs and love and prayers.

2. Work busy but not as much. I called out on Friday so there was that. And so I only worked 4 days not 5. Next week is gonna be even less!

3. Tuesday was a super big fun night that I will NOT forget. I was going out to dinner with my good friend from church. She moved to Texas earlier this year and was going back on Thursday. So we planned an early birthday dinner for me her and me. Her daughter couldn't come last minute. So I thought it just us. So we walked into the restaurant she had chosen and shocking was that at the table was a few close friends from church. My friend her husband and daughter. And my very very good friend. All there for me. I was so happy that was a real smile I had on my face as I sat down and it was for me all for me. People DO NOT do this for me. They do not. Others sure not me. So grateful so fun. What a blessed night.

4. Thursday back to work at therapy. Yup. My poor shoulder it really wore me out. But I have to keep going and pray I can get more of this next year since I cant finish the amount the approved. I need as much as possible. Better every day! Friday I talked to my therapist a quick appointment wont talk to her again till January 13th. Was just a check up no my medicine isn't working so that was that.

5. I kinda got sick this week. A cold, cough thingy. I was fighting it for a while to not. My sister got it first and now me. I think its going away. I haven't been sick in almost 2 years so truly it hasn't been fun. I think my allergies kicked up a notch and joined it so I've been battling a cold, cough with allergies. But I truly think I am finally getting better. Yeah thank you God!! So I called out on Friday cause of that. Sadly now I'm at 3 points at work :(

Well that is all for now. See you all next week. Do my best to update this on time by Sunday :) Have a blessed rest of your week!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 12 2021)

This was a busy week for me. But this is up ON TIME! Hurray for that one. Hope you had a great week mine was so full and busy but very good indeed :) I am calling this the weekend 6!

1. Church was beautiful this week. I love my church. So much hugs and love. Its the little things that keep me going and that includes my beautiful church and all the great wonderful people there. I love my church I love Sundays :)

2. Work busy of course. But I called out twice so not as busy as usual. I called out on Monday for my sisters birthday. And then on Saturday for the baby shower. I did you know ask for them off and got denied. So I called out and still did what I was gonna. I dont ask for time off too often and I think its kinda sad when I dont get to some time off sometimes :( I work hard after all and I rarely call out unless I'm sick which is rare too. Anyways

3. Workouts this week not really much. No gym at all due to my sisters birthday. But I did just one walk on Tuesday. It rained but was gone by time I went in the evening. Thursday was raining and Saturday I was so exhausted idk why so I just didnt feel like getting up early to go on a walk so that is why that wen that way...

4. Monday was my sisters birthday. We celebrated by trying out our new Sea World passes for a few hours. Then we joined our parents in La Jolla we watched the seals till sunset then had dinner at Red Robin. No idea what I'm doing for my birthday this year oh boy. On Thursday we continued the fun by seeing the newest Ghost Busters movie. It was super great and I loved it. Do see it especially if you saw the original ones. Not that re make whatever few years ago blah.

5. Saturday I went to the baby shower for our worship leaders wife baby. She also is in the worship band we have a truly blessed worship team a family. Husband, wife and daughter. So yeah it was so fun. Worth calling out for sure glad I went. My mom and me went so that was a first. She usually doesn't come to these things so it was nice for her to get out too. Great time

BONUS

6. I talked to my therapist on Friday before work. I am not putting a lot on this page about it but she is concerned about me and something I almost did...and also wants to check up on my medicine since I been taking it now for just over a week. And I wont talk to the psychiatrist till January. So despite it being practically when I leave for work I'm talking to her quickly next Friday. FYI medicine not working yet. I am still emotional daily crying and having bad lows weekly sometimes several times. So yeah not there yet...

Have a blessed week. This one not as busy as last week. But for sure next week will be. We two weeks from Christmas how crazy is that!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 5th 2021)

Last week was busy this week is busy too. Welcome to the holiday season LOL.  Plus the fact both my sister and me have birthdays this month...yeah busy

1. Church beautiful this week wonderful. I missed a few people :( but had fun with those there :) I love my church. Even though I dont get to do all the things we doing this holiday season I am doing some... So yeah I love my church. Tuesday I also had a phone appointment. I talked to my pastor about a sheet I filled out. All dealing with my mental health. I kinda miss doing this in person doing it by phone was not easy but I did it because the was how he wanted it done plus he doesn't have a current office so no way for us to meet... I am grateful he did this and I have a new sheet to work on too...

2. Workouts. We finally came back to the gym after like three weeks of not coming. Not a long workout but something. Also did only one walk this week sadly not two. I'm sad. Oh well. Love my walks.

3. Work busy this week as always. We speeding towards the holiday season. But yes busy work and short handed too. We doing the best we can! Its how we are! Its my job! Yeah about that. I had a guy who I think was a christen tell me how he gets my job isn't the easiest job in the store its the hardest. He compared me to a construction worker who has a stop sign directing traffic. This is NOT an easy job he says. Its the hardest. He like me cant leave his spot unless replaced, to use restroom to eat or take a break. My job isn't easy its actually hard. And its far more than just checking receipts. I am heading this week towards my 3rd year anniversary. I have ABSOLUTELY not intentions of being here for 2 more years to get my 5 year badge. No thank you! Lord willing gone by next year is my true goal.

4. Tuesday I went to the doctor to check my diabetes but mostly to get medicine for my diabetic neuropathy. Which I did get! PTL. I also went to get more therapy this week for my shoulder my first time in like 4 months. I am so happy to be back! I got new exercises so my arm is still sore but truly I need to get more of this I need to keep going. 

5. Thursday I had my first psychiatrist appointment by phone. I am so glad to say I am going to be on Prozac. I am praying it will help me ASAP. I just am so tired of this so tired of my anxiety my depression the things driving me mad. Gods getting me through this slow process of getting help.

Have a good week. Mine is gonna be busy. God bless you :)