Welcome. To think this is my last blog update before I turn another decade really hits me. So much has happened since I turned 30. I have lived in so many states. I feel like I should dedicate an entire set of these to things for the past 10 years. I think below you will find just one of my of 5 is going to be about that. Enjoy! See you all on the other side of 40!! Yikes!!
1. Work is just killing me. I am wondering why I am at this job. Its been a full year since I got there on the 10th of December although I was half hired around the 6th. They are cutting everyones hours. That used to be like oh that sucks but we were still getting them in our department because we are short handed as is. There are hardly any of us NOT ANYMORE! This past week and next week too I dont work on Saturdays. And the week after the new one a Friday. With Christmas around the corner and me pulling in 21 or 22 hrs the last two weeks before that is pitiful and sad. I need a new job. My true goal of 2020 one of them as I made none this past year is to get a new job for real! I cant live on less than 40hrs a week I can't live in less than 30. This is KILLING ME! I am just glad my last big check I set aside my Christmas/Birthday money. And with that bonus I can still have fun for my Birthday. Because if I had waited things would be SO DIFFERENT!! Ugh.
2. GYM did it just once. We were going to do it twice. My sister had a bad car accident last week on Sunday so she couldn't do the gym as usual on Monday my first Monday in weeks where I not working till 8 or 7 at night. Sorry to my sister glad she didnt die! So gym just once.
3. Last show was great at school sorta. I am so sad. I am also concerned I might not be able to come back at all the Spring. They warned me that I cant get financial aid for a year but then I still got it? Now I am unsure. School doesn't start till end of January. I have about a month to figure out what is going on with them and call them and just reason with them. I need to know if I can just pay for the one class. I would rather pay for that on my own somehow then not get my radio at all. I am unsure. God has got this I gave it Him. I just need to pray and act in faith. He is in control!
4. Began my pre birthday celebrations this week. Thursday I did this bird thing with my mom she's been telling me about. I got to meet a bunch of parrots and hold them and feed them. And one gave me a bad bite but it okay now. I had so much fun! I have always wanted a bird and maybe one day in like 10 years haha I will adopt one from there or some place else. At least it will out live because they live a very long time. I miss Rainbow so much 9 weeks past. This would be my last pet if we get one. On Thursday that night I also went to see Jumanji 2 it was very good. Different but good. Had a good time before at Islands for dinner. Next week more fun for my birthday. Just work 3 more times before I turn 40.
5. The night before I turned 30 I cried. I was not married, I was living with my sister in TN. I had no kids. We still had all the pets minus my hamster. So 5 pets total. Like a zoo. Since then I did an internship, I worked several jobs. I lived in 3 states. TN, AZ now back to CA. I was on tv. I am still in school. I have more gray hairs, more wrinkles and more bags under my eyes. But I look nearly the same. I found out I have PCOS and then Diabetes. I have my body falling apart. Of course the ones we lost since then. Prince in 2010, Maggie in 2015, now Rainbow in 2019. Down to 2 pets. I'm unsure if I can ever move out on my own again. And at this point I am okay with not getting married but if I am meant to I am up for it! I just hope when I wake up on the 20th my eyesight isn't gone like they said it would be. The doctor last year said I could be okay till I am like 43. Here is to my 40's. Wow its coming fast!!
Well that is all for now. cant believe how fast we coming to the end of the year. Life is so short. Love your friends and family. Follow God. And please know that nothing is promised but that you will one day wake up in heaven or hell. Make sure its heaven with Jesus. God bless you all!!!!
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