Weird. This is the last one for this year and decade. I was just thinking about all that happened to me from 2010 to 2019 so much happened. An entry itself would be a nice review but I cant do it all. Maybe my next entry I will just sum up the gains and losses as one of my 5!
1. I miss you Rainbow. Its 11 weeks of sadness. I miss you so much. I will never not miss you. People think I am over it. They say get another dog. I tell them I dont one. I'm never going to. I miss you every single day. I have cried so much over you. I dreaded the day you left me and now that its here I dread living every day without you. I know there are people who love me and care about me. They try to help me. But I will be sad till I am not any longer sad. And they gotta be okay if I am never fully happy again. I just want to go home I just want to go to heaven badly daily. :(
2. Christmas Eve went to our old church. It made me miss my new church. I love my church. My sister joked she *missed going* and I am thinking missed what? We stopped going years ago. The pastor changed, we stopped going we tired. This was one of many things that caused me to fall away from God. Not going really affected me. SO MUCH. She also didnt want to go. She also didnt want to. Now I have a smaller church where they love me and I love them and I know where I am supposed to be. And its not at our old church. But they have a service and it was not what I expected so I was wondering why I went. I mean sure we got all these free goodies cookies and such I ate way too much sugar I allowed too much. But that was it. For real!
3. Christmas up early. Exchanged gifts. Then went back to bed. I cried at least 4x big amounts. I miss Rainbow so much. It was so hard!! Otherwise we had a good time. Good food. The pies I am glad those done second time. They took FOREVER. Day after got calendars and lots of them. Yikes!
4. GYM last minute did it Saturday. Skipped all week. Did it small thing had fun. Yeah!! I missed you gym.
5. Work still sucks. Very stressful. Working every week now under 30hrs. :( 4 days a week! This is by far horrible. I need a new job. They really shouldn't be doing this to me. Its just not fair to do this to our area short handed us when they need us the most.
That all for now. Stay tuned for a wrap up next time I write. Happy New Year 2020!! Sorry this is late!!
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