Welcome to the end of the world. That is how much things have changed in a week. We went from people stocking up to people thinking the world is gonna end. From a disease that MORE THAN LIKELY WILL NEVER GET YOU! Wash your hands, be careful. But what people are being forced to do is just getting to me. This blog wont be much happy as so much crap happened this week but I will try to keep a positive attitude since good happened too. Just not as much as I wanted!
1. Work this week was busy insanity. Sunday was busy and then it got worse when the world began to end and people were stocking up and such by Friday it was so bad. I had multiple panic attacks in the parking lot and in the bathroom. I was crying several times. It was so busy we beat our sales from last year on Black Friday. Top it off with all the crap with it. Theme parks closing, our hot chocolate race is cancelled, churches are closing unless they are under 250 and even then its iffy what we do there (our church is being extremely cautious) all just till end of March MAYBE. I dont like this. The government now controls EVERYTHING WE DO! Concerts, plays, sports events, even the filming of tv or movies is being postponed all in the name of 'just incase you are sick and dont want to spread it.' While props to the President who is trying to fix things I think we have gone too far. We have scared tacked into everyone that they gotta do this while not proving they really need to. That is my thoughts on it best I can.
2. School was good. Show 7 was good except for issues for my first half hour not working right. And now thanks to the stupid virus scare the school is canceling classes next week including my show for St Patricks Day I was so excited to do! And there is NO promise this will not be the end of the semester should the school *decide* that we are not important they can and might cancel. If they do this I will have to drop my internship and not do any more school rest of semester. I was gonna try to do a few online classes to get me back up to 6units so my student loans would stop bugging me. But I am not doing any sort thing if I lose my show. And if I lose my show I will lose my mind. But looking at it this way I know that is no the way I should be thinking. This show isn't my life its not that important. Its just a fun thing to do while getting experience for a real job. God gave me this and I am pretty sure its not over if its over this semester. But my way of thinking has been kinda messed up with so much being taken from me in the past few days taken from ALL OF US I just cant handle things well at all. So no school for 2 weeks unsure if ever again :(
3. GYM did it three times. But only worked out twice. We worked out on Monday some. But Thursday time we got there we just changed and left again. I had church later and my sister had plans. Church was good. My friend picked me up and all that good stuff. I love going to church. GYM on Saturday another small workout. We tired and my legs both giving me issues. Ugh. So that was GYM this week.
4. Monday I had the best time. My GOOD FRIEND (I am unsure at this point to say best but she is a very good friend) and me went to the Safari Park. We went for 5hrs. The weather was pretty nice. It got nasty later on. But we had so much fun. I loved it. Hanging out, talking. A year ago I only dreamt of having friends again. I had been well deprived of a friend like this since probably back when I hung out with my ex friend back in like 2006? The people at this church the love I have felt and the healing that has taken place is just the only thing getting me by. I just need them all so much. And I am so thankful for all they are teaching me about life and love and trust and such. And my good friend I have trusted her with so much. I have told her so much. She knows a lot just not as much as my pastor knows but a lot. I felt like we are good friends and I pray I never lose her. I need her. I need the people at church so much. Its amazing how a year ago I didnt have this and now I do and I think if I lost it I would kill myself. I'm not joking. NO joke. That is how much they have changed me.
5. 2018 was a not that great year. It began great. I was super excited. My first full year beginning back with God just excited for my adventures. I was doing my first semester of being a radio DJ. But a few weeks into that end of January we got the news. Babies R US our store one of the first 240 or so stores closing. And eventually the whole company. We are coming up this month to 2 years since we closed for good. A job I had grown to love for 4 years. I still miss it. So much bad from that whole thing alone. It messed up my credit cards I had to max out to survive when my bills too much for unemployment and the 3 months when I had none at all. Other notes for 2018: my job at Walmart in December. My first breakfast with my pastor and his wife. I did complete my first ever creative writing class with an odd teacher. I am glad I took it but not what I expected.
Stay tuned next week till my last one of these for 2019. It has been a fun 10 weeks of doing an update for the last decade. I hope by next time I write this things have settled down. I will have NOT done my hot chocolate race. NOT done my radio show. But I pray that everything is simple again my show is coming back and for Petes sack normal is back. But sadly at least till April I fear that will not be. God is in control He has got this. I am not afraid to get the disease that more than likely will kill me. I am trying to just not fear instead the unknown the people that I feel for life and in general the world around me falling apart. Praying we going home soon. Oh please. God bless you all. Stay sane peoples its not easy but JUST STAY SANE IN THIS INSANE WORLD!!
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