The Weekend 5 (Sunday, March 6th 2022)

Welcome to March! Hello! I feel weird I'm writing this on a Saturday and I'm not at work. More below. :) Happy Saturday and Sunday everyone!!

1. Church was beautiful on Sunday. I gave my friend rocks and 2 days later she down to 2 of 10. So I am working on more. I love my friends and hugs and love. Sunday is my FAVORITE day of the week. I love everyone so much :)

2. Work busy this week but less days hurray. I only worked 4 days. I had Saturday off for (see below). Busy and stuff. I'm grateful for breathers like more people and things covered like breaks and lunches. But when there is too many of us it still feels stressful its the weirdest thing EVER. LOL. Oh well. 

3. Tuesday was a great day. I went on a walk with my dear friend from church. I love her so much! We walked by the water this time unlike last time I didnt have to work after. Went in the afternoon low Tide we walked all the way to the pier and beyond and back. I was sure tired. But it was so fun. Blessed refreshing walk with my friend. We cant seem to help doing walks now each time she out visiting. I pray she's here for good soon like she wants to be!

4. Saturday was the memorial for my friend her husband went to heaven in January. I missed her so much. I made sure she got two hugs of love from me. And I gave her a rock I made especially for her. I hope when she finally opens it she loves it. :) 

5. Therapy on Wednesday was okay. I am fooling myself and my therapist. I made myself think I am OKAY with therapy once a month I AM NOT! On Sunday I had my first dip in over a month. I couldn't stop crying and having panic attacks. Then on Thursday I had a HUGE let down that made me cry off and on for hours. I never do this. Twice in one week like this isn't great. So Monday I'm gonna see if I can talk to my therapist sooner then next month. I think I need to go back to once every two or three weeks not once a month. With the medicine it doesn't mean I am fully okay. The medicine is only helping tame my emotional best. Its still there hidden. I have tons of issues TONS OF ISSUES to deal with. I am not doing good still. So yeah about that...ugh mental health is exhausting trying to get it better its so hard when I waited so long. I should have tried this years ago not just last year and being my age :(

Well have a good week. Mine is more normal this time around. Less fun. But I have some plans. God bless you always :)