Sorry I paused doing these for several months now. I'd done them for years but lost interest and stopped doing them and then it was hard to do them when I had lost interest. I will try to get back into these. NO promises. But here ya go the latest 5.
1. Work has been very stressful this week. Between co workers issues and being busy and super shorthanded. Plus as always they act like they dont care about it and let us deal with each other then when it gets out of hand and someone complains THEN they listen. I just go to work to work and I do love all I work with and that makes it easier and I have 2 close friends out of the few in my group but honestly all the drama makes me feel like high school. And I haven't been in high school in 26 years now since I graduated!!
2. My radio show is going so well and I am gonna miss it :( I have one more left on the 20th and then nothing for about a month. Yes I will enjoy coming home on Sundays from church to just relax, nap and whatever. But I love my show. And I love my future career I'm working on. My hope for a job outside of retail that is literally killing my body. So yeah this summer I am planning to work on TikTok making myself a name and also getting an instagram going for just my account. Woohoo. Its gonna be okay.
3. Therapy went good. The thing I am amazed is sometimes I go over a month and we dont talk. At first it was hard but now its like thats great. I can still talk about all the issues I am going through and how I am handling them but I do stress I am proud yes I am proud of how far I have gotten. Sure I have bad days like yesterday at work when I full out had very bad anxiety and yelled at a customer in front of others I dont do this. And then I take my pill and am dead tired for 6hrs to follow. But these things are still less. I feel more and I let myself feel more. I talk to my friend at work when we have issues and dont let them just sit there. I am growing as a person. Which is an amazing thing since its been nearly 3 years since began to get help.
4. I dropped a water bottle on my foot 3 weeks ago. And since then it still hurts. The X-ray showed nothing but a swollen toe. I think thats my neuropathy. I do want to get an MRI and plan this week to talk to my doctor who treated my diabetic neuropathy to hear her thoughts and ask for an MRI. I dont know if I need to talk to someone else. But I need help. I will be in retail a good couple more years and this is just killing my body the job itself really is.
5. Church is beautiful but I dont ask for hugs anymore. I will TAKE hugs but its rare for me to ask for them. Idk why I been doing this for months. Maybe its my anxiety maybe its my depression maybe its something else I am just truly unsure. I still love and care for all them but I just dont want to be that close anymore unless they want it first. I dont want to be so eager to ask for hugs that I need two from every person and write them down in my journal. I dont even journal anymore but I used to do this. Now its like okay I got a few hugs I am okay with that. I dont need them like I used to. Its weird. Maybe I should talk to my therapist about this...
whelp all I could think of. I gotta work on my last show. Have a blessed week. Hard to believe we heading down the last few days of May...
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