The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 30th 2018)

Last one of these for this month and this year crazy!! 2018 is just about over. And in 1 more day it will just be a memory another trip around the sun. This has been some year so much bad so much sad so much crazy. Lost people and places and things and lives changed. How was your 2018? Are you sad to see it go or glad (like me) for a fresh and new 2019??

1. Christmas was on Tuesday and it was fun. But we did ours so late it already did not feel like the holiday but it was way worse doing it so late Idk what happened. Dinner at like 8 and gifts at like 9. Wow. Crazy we NEVER do this ever. I know my sister worked so we did the gifts late but some how dinner got added in there. Merry Christmas all

2. Per usual day after the day went to the mall got some half off calendars. I did not get as many calendars and honestly did not need as many but it is fine. I also got a few items at Claire's. A new tank top and a new shirt both Harry Potter. All good stuff.

3. Saw the movie Bumblebee on Thursday. It was fun!! First we went to Legoland for the holidays one last time there about 2.5 hours. Not bad just rode one ride and that was that. It all good. Then saw Bumblebee very good movie!! Had a fun time for sure.

4. Work has been busy busy busy. I am still learning a lot and I know I will continue to learn a lot that is how it goes. But 3 weeks in my new job. Got paid the first time this week. Will take getting used to all this will take time. My feet hate my body is exhausted. But other than that I like working a full time job. And will continue to enjoy this long as I have it. And so far that will be as long as I want to stay. But here is to the 90 day mark in a few months

5. New Year New Me. 2019 will be big things like me turning gulp 40! And if family tradition continues me getting glasses wow. But between all that. I think back on this year. My biggest shockers were for sure tied between losing my job & getting diabetes. Also losing people mainly my uncle and my former pastor. That is my shockers of this year. Plenty of good. This job for example is a good thing. Yup.

Well have a great day. See you all as we enter 2019 in style. Have a good week. And a Happy New Year!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 23rd 2018)

Hello welcome to this once again! How was your week? Mine was busy and eventful mostly cause I am busy now all the time! Yup! Oh well isn't this how I needed and dreamt it would be? Busy and crazy once I got a job? Maybe...

1. I worked a lot this past week. I am as we speak working 40hrs a week that includes my breaks!! I am making more than I have EVER made at ANY job. While it seems exhausting working so much and being on my feet so much. I love where I work. I am slowly getting to know my co workers all 288 of them. I am unsure at this point how long I will be here. But honestly I will stay long as I need to. If they continue to give me these hours week after week I can start to save up for things like well anything. I can save for the future. I can and will save. I can begin to pay back debits I got while not working. And I can breath a bit while I have not really in 9 months. SO far I have seen at least 3 people at work I personally know. And a few I know lightly or they know me. Of course I have to let things slide off me. And not roll my eyes as another person asks me if my name is really Holly cause of this time of year. 4x so far in the past few days. But other than that I like my job. I like not working register which was more exhausting then I can tell you for real. I feel like they felt like I needed this I feel like God felt I needed this. So yeah that was my first week of work. I haven't even begun a work diary yet I usually do them by now. If I want to do one I gotta start asap I will begin to forget as time goes on all these days and details.

2. I am getting sick I think BLAH! I am unsure if its a cold or this horrible disease flu my sister picked up and has had for a few days. Either way I am drinking meds and praying a lot this will go away quickly. As a diabetic sick sticks around longer. It messes up my sugar levels. And honestly I cant do what I used to while sick. No soup No OJ. Just sugar free cough drops and hope for the best. I might pick up some less sugar OJ best I can do! Ugh.

3. Tuesday celebrated my birthday early with my family. Went out to Red Robbin and allowed myself to eat and drink my usual. So bad so naughty so not me. But I did it again at Universal my birthday. Had fun at RR. Missed all that. Still working on my lemonade at home and free coffee. Best I can do when I am sick drink or eat things in slow amounts till gone not consume too fast like I used to like all at once....

4. I turned 39 on Thursday. Gulp. I am unsure how my last year in my 30's will be. I can tell you last year when I celebrate 38 I had NO idea what would happen on the way to 39. Mainly job issues, radio lifestyle & diabetes among the many. This year boy oh boy has been a work in a half in itself. But God got me through it. Heres to happy year till I hit 40 and enter the hill the middle age the lump and possibly me getting my first pair of glasses mom said is coming she promises its true in our family. For my birthday went to Universal Studios one last time. with my sisters friends. I broke down for some reason at some point. I wanted to eat and drink things normal again. I was super tired. And I really just broke down. But I am okay now just needed a good cry in a bathroom. Plus overwhelming was so many people in our group and not being able to do things we normally do alone. It has been some year Universal. I will miss you a lot!!

5. On the 19th I recalled my knee injury it has been now 20 years since my knee popped out of place as I got off work at Toys International. 3 weeks in a knee brace. Fired. A lawsuit, therapy for almost all of 1999, operation, won my money, dropped out of school. Come 2000 computer school and back to my VU life change of degree. All cause my knee popped out. God works in mysterious ways. And even now I wonder on things allowed but for some reason they were. All for our own good.

Well there is barely one more of these left for this month and this year. I might do a wrap up somewhere. Till then have a good merry Christmas. And see you all one last time next Sunday. God Bless you all!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 16th 2018)

In the middle of a very long week. How has yours been? It is my BIRTHDAY WEEK! I usually don't celebrate such things but hey why not. Here is to my last 5 days of being 38. And all that comes with it. Yeah for my birthday this week on Thursday. Don't ya be forgetting it!!

1. My former church pastor Mike died on Wednesday. He was 53. I was about to say 'only' but I have been working to train myself to not say this. I read something once that said we say that someone is young when they die (they were 'only' insert age) but who is to say that matters to God? He has a day for us all to die so to say that person was ONLY that age even if it is seems young is wrong. God wants us believers all home with him and one day we all will be. Till then He will keep bringing us home the date we are assigned to die whether that date for us seems young or old in the end to be not here on earth is to be with Jesus forever. Amen. So back to them dying. It is sad though for his wife and two daughters. He's been sick for a while and defined odds. And in the end what got him was what he was fighting to not get. It was still a bit of a shock as he might not have been teaching at church for a while now but they kept acting like and even saying he was getting better. But he looked bad and kept going into the hospital. So truly it was a matter of time. He is happy now we are sad. Sorry for CCOS I am praying for them all!! My parents are very sad too they loved him and were close to him. I didnt know him that well but from what I did he was a nice guy with a lovable smile and a fun attitude and a strange sense of humor. I had this flash back to him back in 2011 my sister and me did the choir at the church for Christmas time. He always had this Birthday Jesus button he wore NOT SMALL very large. He had that on for the Christmas Eve service and came up to thank us all for coming and I think shook hands or something. I mean it was cool to be there and he was a cool guy. Another shell on facebook now someone who died and I was friends with now they are gone. That is my 2nd one too btw yup.

2. My mom keeps saying it doesn't feel like Christmas time. But has it ever? Not since we lost Mike (my uncle) and now things are more changed. My cousins who always came over here or we met up with her some place else in recent years since she married...now has her baby and is not doing Christmas really. So now the last connection we had is gone. No more silly gifts and meeting up or her coming over. I actually miss her being single. I mean truly it would be sad if she was since her dad is gone where would she be living? So she actually needed to be married. But at my age she was married and I have no intention of ever marrying I just don't want to. So there you go. I feel like it too but we press on. I buy stuff with my credit card right and left. My emergency credit card is now the only way to buy stuff till I get paid on the 28th.

3. Speaking of which. I did orientation of my job on Monday. Then Wednesday I came down for training. I went back again on Friday. And yesterday Saturday was my first actual non training day. I trained 1 more hours in the more and then was on the floor rest of the day helping out. Learning the ropes. Despite all this I like my job even if I am not used to it and I am enjoying getting to know Walmart as a company not just a store I shop at for my groceries.

4. School is done for the week. And semester. I am glad but a bit sad. I miss my radio show and even my crazy English class. Unsure what is going on in the Spring. But I am pressing on as always to my future and my career and school too.

5. Gym did it once this week. Only once and only for a few minutes. But still we went once which is good to go I guess. No complaints there. I love they gym even if I was like death and wanted to so not be there.

My last time as a 38 year old. I have to say that this has been an interesting year since I turned this age. Although it might seem like bad right and left. I know God is going to work all this out for my good and He already is. I have a job I have my friends and family. Sure I have diabetes now and foot issues from it. But I am still here. No matter what happens I still am here so there is a purpose for no matter how big or small it is. See you all next week as we speed through holidays and last days of this year 2018!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 9th 2018)

Welcome welcome to another fabulous week on here. The year is surely speeding by quickly now as we come to an end. Crazy. Hope you had a good week!! Mine was rather eventful.

1. School is going by quickly. Hard to believe we are almost done. Show 14 went well. I am slowly getting all my school work done. Just need to write and print up my 6 new poems busy busy. Finish up my stuff for my radio class. Just 1 week to go. Then off till end of January. That is how it goes! I have registered for 3 Classes trying for a 4th then I have to pay too. With what? my credit card but hopeful for money from new job. I did skip on Thursday due to rain and my sisters birthday

2. My sister celebrated her 36th birthday on Thursday. That means we are in the final 2 weeks before I turn 39. Crazy stuff. She didnt do a lot on her birthday. We had a bad rain storm on Wednesday and worse on Thursday. So we had lunch at The Habit. Then saw Fantastic Beast 2 again second time was better then first. Being soaked going inside not fun at all. Glad the rain is gone and for now not coming back again. Ugh. Rain! But yeah birthdays :)

3. GYM once last week on Monday. I wish we could have gone again on Thursday but did not make it. So there is that. But love the GYM time. Yup yup. Glad we have it when we go. Nice when its raining when we go when that is happening. Hopeful to get a way to use my wii again.

4. Went to the Light Parade at the Harbor for a few minutes. Not as much time as wanted and only saw some of it but still had fun. The seals were crazy active where we at. So that made for a fun time.

5. I GOT A JOB!! I saved it for last. Last week I was nearly hired at Walmart. I went Monday to fill out the background check, I passed, so Thursday got paper work for drug test, I passed. My orientation is on Monday. I cant wait to start working again. Sadly it is only seasonal but could maybe not be. I am trying to be hopeful. Working again will be nice. Money will be nice. Paying people back and having money for gifts will be nice. It is after all Christmas time.

BONUS:
6. This week the 7th & 8th marks a year since we were made to leave our house because the fire was coming towards us from Fallbrook. I look back with that as the hand of God grace and moments that were so quietly whispered. It was scary. It was scary to sit at a motel and say God you are good while crying. Cause honestly whether things go great or bad with anyone God is ALWAYS good! But it was not easy. I had NO idea that just about a month after this happened I would face this year and January and another time of saying God you are good while my job was dying with me still inside. I have learned so many lessons from these two. From the fires: God stopped the fire. The news literally said "it was coming towards Oceanside AND IT STOPPED!" From my job I have learned that letting go is not easy but that God sometimes takes things from us because they are keeping us from Him. That is what I learned these past 9 months till now and having a job I begin again soon. In TN one time a tornado our first one in 2008 was coming toward Murfreesboro. The radio said the same thing that the fires did. "it was coming towards Murfreesboro AND IT STOPPED!" Never stop believing God is in control. I known many people lost homes in those fires and fires before then and after. Fire time all the time in California. I just had to believe that we were not going to lose our home and in the end we did not lose anything. I just lost 2 days of work and that was about it. You really do know too what is most important. It is not stuff it truly is people pets and things that cannot be replaced in any ways. Grateful for a year later we have no fires we just had rain this week no fires nothing.

Well that is all for now. This week will not be super eventual but next week there you go. Plans for birthday plans for all that. Glad to say that this year of crazy bad and weirdness is almost done. I am glad I truly am. As always God knows the future and it is in His hands 100% of the time. God bless you all! See you all next weekend :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 2nd 2018)

Welcome to December!! For me it has been an incredibly long not at all easy year. But I am glad we are in the final days. Just hopeful for final moments and know in the end it will all be okay in Gods capable hands.

1. Universal Studios did that on Sunday of last week. We left late and then hit traffic. The park open till 7pm but by time we got there it was after 2pm. We stayed till they closed at 7. But we still had fun! It felt different doing this with diabetes. I held back on my butter beers we each got one mid day and then split one for dinner (normally we each get two). No donut at all. But I still had my fish meal and the snacks we brought. We rode our usual 3 rides: Harry Potter, Minions and the tram ride. Also saw the light show on Hogwarts and I did it as facebook live so everyone could see it & I have it for good. Honestly my iPod and my phone do not have room for videos and will complain if I try to put them on them. This was the perfect solution and I loved the idea. The video is mine sure its only on facebook but I could find ways to keep it otherwise :) After we got a snack meal and then saw my 2nd cousin for the first time in a short visit. LONG day done!

2. Did 3 job interviews this past week. THREE. I rarely get 1 and now THREE. Monday was for Walmart in Vista by my old job. The job was not for me so I was really okay they not calling me back. I am not young I am not fast I could not do that kinda job. Tuesday job at CostCo I am sad about this one honestly. I am unsure why I was rejected 2hrs after I went. But I did try. And maybe will try again in a few months who knows. My winner comes Thursday. My fingers crossed but believe this is it. I will have a job at least through the end of year. Details next weekend when I know for sure but I am 95% sure I have a job soon.

3. School we back! Just 2 more weeks after this one say what!? I have to write a bunch of poems and print them, finish up lots of work for radio and such. My show 13 was fun. I had so much fun. Just 2 more to go :( Unsure when I coming back in the Spring. I am going to try to do a photo class then hope I can get a radio spot between and hope the tv class is not cancelled. It means whatever job I have in the Spring I will be doing same as this year. So end of January back to Tuesday & Thursdays. Just happened to work like that. I need to get back to my photography thing. I am not giving up on radio or tv I wouldn't keep doing classes if I was. But I need a backup and I want to see where the photo journalism thing might take me.

4. Did the gym once last week just on Thursday. I skipped class I was feeling really bad I was unsure what it was that caused it. So we did my interview then gym. Nice trip to Gym. Just sucked I Didnt have really any food before so I felt funny working out while having just had some turkey cheese and nuts. Oh well.

5. Did the bird thing on Saturday. Was cold out. Saw lots of birds. Some not planned. Sad the hummingbird feeders down unsure why :( so less of that for me. I thought last month was my last unsure if this is. I just need to not be working morning at a job and I can still do this on Saturdays. First Saturday of month that is. Shall see. But had fun

Well this week will be busy. Not super but still. And what a long year and semester it has been. See you all next weekend! take care and God bless!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 25th 2018)

Welcome to the last one of these for the month of November. It has been an odd months for sure. Hope you had a good week. And enjoy the last few days this week of this month of thankful. I have been doing the 30 Days of Thankful challenge for years. Usually on twitter sometimes on facebook. Now it just twitter. But I still do it! I am always thankful but for November I show off what I am thankful for at least some things :)

1. Off school this week so not much going on. But that is fine. Job stuff. I had a phone interview with the new Sprouts that opens in January but begins to train in mid December. I am trying to be hopeful but so far no one has called me back. I think the 3 things I had against me kept me from an immediate job interview set up: I don't have open schedule, I don't have a current job and I was rejected by one sprouts already. Whatever. I only know because my sister had an interview same day on phone and got set up for an in person one right away in December. Because she has not what I have. A job, open schedule and not rejected by Sprouts before. In other news of jobs. I applied to a lot of jobs. And on Black Friday made 3 interview appointments. 2 are at Walmart one at the dollar tree been trying to get on that is by us just opened last month. All are seasonal job openings. I need something at this point long as its more than 20hrs a week I need at least 25 even for a month I can save up or at least get presents and pay for bills. Then struggle in January. I am just unsure where else to apply if these don't work out. Dollar Tree is a no go pretty sure. Not only are they only UP to 20hrs a week the manager has to let go some people hired when the store opening. I have never heard of this before. Usually when a store opens those hired on spot or for the opening are kept on not let go like holiday help. Takes me back to 20 yrs ago and my first retail job firing me and claiming I was holiday help when I was never and I knew it and they knew it. 20 yrs flies by sometimes it really does. I am hopeful it will be okay. God has got this. I just need to silence the inner thoughts that want to dwell on what I know and try to figure out what I do not. It is "Trust in the Lord with ALL YOUR HEART and Lean NOT on your own understanding..." Prov 3:5-6

2. Planet fitness did that once last week just on Monday. Almost went on Wednesday but did not. Glad for once sad for only once. Weird as that is. As tiring as it is going and hard we work to get there. Its my only real workout now a days so there is that.... so yeah for gym sad for less. Maybe at least twice next week yeah?

3. Rain we had some on Wednesday night and Thursday some. But it gone by Thursday afternoon. It super short lived. I hope it helped the fires but did nothing for all else. We still in a drought. I heard we gonna get lots of rain this winter but so far nope. I am okay with less rain or a medium amount. Whatever we get we get. Its fine too.

4. Thanksgiving was sad as always. Miss uncle Mike. My sister worked so just me and my parents. Plus here I am diabetic now and cant have all the things I love: rolls, mash potatoes and stuffing. I miss stuffing. I allowed myself a spoonful each night. I had my own other stuff. My goal is another version of stuffing so I can feel better at Christmas. I made 2 pies. Took me 6 hours on Wednesday and they dang good if I don't say so myself. Shocking I thought they both crap but they both good! And not bad on carbs or sugars :D

5. Last week I felt like I was supposed to have a meal with my Pastor. He has asked everyone to meet with him eventually because he is a nice guy and wants to get to know his sheep. So I braved it all and went there and met with him and his wife at our cafe in downtown called Beach Break. I have been there 3 other times before this. Once with my dad for this breakfast he did one with each of us few years ago. A one time thing. I went last year when I was getting tests done for doctor and it was after and my parents treated me. And last time was a month ago for our family thing. This was different. I was not with family. But something made me open up to them. I really liked it and had FUN talking to them. I shared more than I thought I would and it was grown up of me. So not me. Do I do that? I also didnt tell them things I wanted to and had planned out. It came out in weird ways what I had planned. But they nice. And glad they got to hear my story at least part of it. I was sad when it over and nervous before I am so weird! I had built it up for a week too so there you go. But it was nice. Cause I know they care about me and I feel that with very few people. Doesn't help I have no real friends left and not anyone who cares about me or wants to hear from me. Don't get me wrong. But I am beginning to want real friends again and no idea how to make any. Maybe if I showed up for to their womans study or something else. Maybe I could make friends at church. I have never done that before. Its just nice to have people care about me and that was what it was. Nice believers caring about me and my dreams and hopes. God knew I was supposed to be there. I know nudges when I feel them.

well that is all for now. See you all in December!! Have a great rest of the week and month. God bless you all!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 18th 2018)

Welcome! Trying to find stuff to write about my brain is just not in check today! Ha! Oh well. How was your week? Mine was not as busy as the thing I wanted to do we did not do (universal studios trip). But hey it happens maybe end of month. I am HOPEFUL for twice more but maybe only once more before our passes expire on January 5th

1. Gym only did it once this week sadly! We were gonna do it twice and then well things happen with my sister. And that meant things happened and the GYM did not happen. I am happy to go and I went. But it was in the middle of my super long day (see last one). Love the gym I truly do!

2. My sister got a car!!!!! Hers (my uncle who died a year ago's) was dying and it kept having issues. Truly it was cheaper to just get a new car but things had to happen and then did. And thank God now she has a car. Sadly we said good bye to two of her cars this year. She donated my uncles car (other uncle he is still alive) car and then this one. Yeah. But yeah for a car! Cause of this it happened on Tuesday we only did the GYM once this week...

3. Saturday instead of racing to Universal I walked around the block. My sister is dead broke and could not come up with enough $$. I only had enough to pay for my food (hence the issue) cause I am more broke. She is helping me out with a bill and trying to survive so I don't blame her but still bummed. I was looking forward to the trip and now unsure when we can go :(

4. School this week. Tuesday was busy for me per usual and more. Class was okay. And then I went and did my air check. But first my locker got like possessed it was freaky it would not open. My teacher had to come help me and even after he did it still won't open again. I have most of my stuff out of there. I need to talk to them after the break and see if they have any other lockers and if nothing else get them to open up so I can get my random spare stuff. I really up until then loved my locker. Dropping bags off between classes. Now I have nothing. My show 12 went great actually. I have 3 more to go. I am praying for a job so I can register for classes. And despite not wanting to use my last internship on another show I will be doing this in the Spring. In the end THIS is experience too maybe more than I would ever get at an internship with an actual station. I have others I can use too that I hope work. So yeah. Show 12 done. Thursday was fine. I am off this next week for Thanksgiving hurray turkey time!!

5. Saw Fantastic Beast on Thursday night. It was the end of a long day! I went to school. Then took the Sprinter to downtown. I walked to the VCC to get my 2nd set of refills. But before that went to Red Cup and got a sugar free yogurt it was actually yummy! Then after the medicine got I went to the stores and walked back to the Sprinter. Then went to KFC and met my sister at the GYM. After that we went to IHOP big mistake getting those grinch pancakes. I got one and only ate half but the sugar along I was worried I was going to go into a sugar shock. You see I do have sugar daily and carbs but its so much less than before that I could just feel funny. Thank God I was okay. We saw Fantastic Beast end of that day and I walked over 17000 steps!! The movie was okay. I want to see it again to decide for sure. But not bad but not the first one. The first one was good. I read reviews before we saw it and how it was not as good. It was just a lot of subplots that through me in the loops. Too much. I felt like I was watching one of my NaNo books and in the process lost some of its fun from last time. Yup. Oh well. We always have the first one the good one....

Speaking of NaNoWriMo I struggle to get this piece of crap done. I vow next year to be better prepared with better ideas. And to start reading YA again maybe this is why I keep struggling. Either way will be glad to be down with this in a few days ugh. Haha. Well have a great one. This week is kinda busy but not really either. Yup. Happy Thanksgiving early. Be thankful for all you have. I know I am :) God Bless see you all next weekend!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 11th 2018)

Welcome. Unsure how your week was. Mine was busy messy and not as expect for sure. Plus my book writing isn't going so great again... I honestly dont want to do it. I really don't. I don't want to write my book. I just want to crawl in a hole and not come out. And that is for the rest of the month don't make me lol. But I will keep going I will finish even if its crap and makes me want to pull my hair out.

1. Did the GYM twice this week almost a record. I still miss the good old days when I went to the GYM like 3x a week before work. And then I am back to missing my job again that I cant help but think about. Blah days are the worse. But GYM yeah each time I try to do the weights and machines. And now my dad has a membership not the fancy black one but the one that is only for one gym. Unsure why he didnt just do the year of black membership. Minus the $40 in January and $22 a month he can use any gym and use the special machines. But this was more costly. PF is weird. But yeah gym

2. School this week is fine. Our English class which was going nowhere as always suddenly we have to make sure we do all we said we would in our beginning of semester in our packets. The teacher will compare if we did it or not. Have I mentioned while I am learning a lot he has really made me question my poetry writing in general? It has always come naturally to me but its nothing like the kind he does there. So its frustrating. Plus I never and I mean it NEVER edit my poems. Once they done I leave them. Why do I write again? To inspire for fun and all that and maybe one day to publish as a book. But then again I also write crappy novels (see beginning of here LOL). I am frustrated artist aka writer born with a gift that will never be fully understood even by myself. Show 11 for radio was awesome. I mean sure my wifi went nuts and only recorded half in live version but it did record. And the show itself was good. I had a lot of fun no joke

3. Interview at Sprouts I thought went okay did not go anywhere. I got no call and oddly no email saying they decided not to. I am not checking back its just wrong. Also wrong is the other Sprouts I thought I had a better chance with that one and they said they went with someone else with more experience. Can you explain that? Cause I cant I really cant... yesterday marked the grand opening for dollar tree that didnt care to even try to get me on but I will be calling them on Monday. I do not know wants worse about not having a job. Not wanting to apply anywhere or being frustrated when I finally do and getting the run around. Smh why.

4. Book sale on Saturday I went thinking they would maybe have diabetes stuff. I was hoping for cook books, information books or magazine. I saw magazines few months ago. I was excited then disappointed they had NOTHING. I mean it. Not Atkins or even keto stuff. I was sad they didnt have any of that. I got some bird books a few christian books and a few random movies. Oh well I tried I really did.

5. The 7th marked our 7th year in this house sine 2011 and also the 8th marked our 11 years since we moved into our apartment in TN. We were so scared in 2007. On our own no money no jobs no idea what we doing. I want to say this looking back: It was supposed to happen it was Gods will and He was taking care of us. It was just scary stepping out in faith like that. I don't think I have ever since then done anything like that. I miss you TN so much!!

Well I am having a frustrating day. Just found out that my radio show might not go in the spring unless I do it as an internship. Wait what? I have to do at least two classes or my bills will find me out. I only have 1 more internship left unless I do it with the other kind of internship. I am unsure how it works. I am going to be looking into this. I cant register right now as is cause well no job I am broke and I cant keep using my credit card for things! Its gonna be sky high in December and at this point my sister is gonna have to pay for me and her. But I have to believe I will have a job. I have to. I need to keep looking. Not give up and stop being so lazy. Well have a good week everyone. Sorry this is so deep and personal unsure what came over me. My week will be busy for real!! But that is fine too :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 4th 2018)

Oh what a year its been! Welcome to November. How is yours? My week last week was frankly busy!! It always shocks me how busy I a without a job. But I keep so busy even without one some weeks are crazy. Last week yes. Next week and the following probably up till Thanksgiving will be. And thats without a job...

1. The 3rd marks 11 years since we hopped in a U-Haul and headed to TN. What a journey that was. Constant spiritual attacks on our parts. Never fun right. I look back as two things: We were supposed to move it was Gods will & God was keeping us safe even though the enemy freaking hated it! Either way we made it to TN eventually and our lives changed forever. Out on our own. In a state we hardly knew. Way far from home with our babies and everything we owned because we thought we would NEVER come back home again not to move back. Maybe to visit. One thing I wish I would have done different had I known 2011 would happen would be NOT have brought everything we owned with us. We came back our stuff had no purpose coming with us across country twice. LOL. Oh well. We pulled up to our apt in TN on a wish on a prayer and nothing at all we broke and stressed and so glad to be done. Miss you TN love you lots!!!!

2. Did the GYM just once sadly. I wanted to do it twice but things happen. Oh well. The one time was a lot of work. I mean it. I did it all including weights. I need to keep this up few times a week every week to see changes. I miss still how easy it was last year working at the GYM before work few times a week. So gym was fun.

3. School is going okay. This week was crazy busy. Not my creative writing class. My radio stuff. I did my show 10 and it was tons of fun!! It went pretty well once the computer was fixed and the wifi picked up. Then I did my PSA and turned that in. And my golden mic IBS entries. I have HIGH HOPES I will be nominated and then I head to NYC next March. God willing I will win but nominated is cool too! I love my show and I love doing it so if I get something from something I truly enjoy something fun I do then wow more power to me right. I am unsure but we shall see. My mid term is due tonight and I did manager to finish it on time hurray. I do have to do another air check this week and then its pretty much smooth sailing till after thanksgiving break I guess... unsure what else is left. My PSA btw was on diabetes!

4. Had an interview on Wednesday with Sprouts in Encinitas. Not close to home mind you. That city is past Carlsbad. And about 30min from home. But the bus to come back is almost 1.5hours total no joke. I missed my buses and was stuck down there longer than wanted after. I am unsure what will happen. I have an interview this Monday with one by home. I will call back the other one if ours doesn't work out. I need a job but finding time to apply is really bad. I will apply more this week I promise. But now know I will not be able to cover my bills the second half of November :( mom and my sister will be helping me out. I will take a holiday job if I have to at this point anything is better than nothing. I just wish Dollar Tree or Hobby Lobby could have hired me for their new stores. Or why not Petsmart back in April by us? I mean its like why not. I won't question God in the end He has got me just frustrated me and I try not to let it. I'm sick with my diabetes dealing with job issues with it zero fun.

5. Bird at Whelan Lake on Saturday was fun. Got to use a closer up camera lens my mom loaned me hers she has a closer one then that and doesn't need hers. I re formatted my card and had fun taking pictures not bad ones either. Had fun! Unsure if I can keep doing this with a job possible before next one shall see.

BONUS

6. Its November and I am now on top of everything else working on my 11th year doing National Novel Writing Month. Its not easy fitting this in the idea is odd. But I hope to develop it. I wanted to do dragons but instead of just pulling a story from nowhere I am making it a 3rd book for my "In Time" books even if the title doesn't sound like it. Ha. So far I am doing okay...

Well my diabetes is annoying me but trying to deal with it. Missing my sugars still and all that junk. Happy 1 year to my church today!! We celebrate today!! Its been a year since I stepped in here not knowing what to expect but hopeful. I wanted to go back to church so bad after Jesus got me back where I supposed to be. After months of no real church time a church close to home for me it seemed is perfect. Now I cant see myself being anyplace else then this church. Cake today and ice cream and I will allow myself a small of each not much. Gotta be careful. Well see you all next weekend! New time change today too crazy stuff. Have a good one. God bless you as always!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 28th 2018)

Welcome to the last one in October. Wow! It seems like just yesterday I was planning out my shows for the month and all this halloween stuff and now we are almost to November. October hasn't been the best of months honestly but trying to be okay with it. I still am unsure how this year will end but hopeful for a good last two months!!

1. Diabetes is not fun. I am not kidding. It takes the best of my foods and drinks and steals them from me over and over again. At this point I am unsure if my foot pains or other pains are diabetes or other things as I was dealing with plenty else before diagnosed. Still I take every day with a grain of salt lightly knowing that there is a reason for all this. And in the end I truly don't need to know what it is and seeking to find it out is not the best way to handle my time and stress.

2. School this week show 9 went fine. I have one more show for this month. I am entering a show in the golden mic awards. The thing is I realize I have to do that this week last minute. And next week I have to do another air check. This semester is chugging along slowly and quickly. On top of that my NaNoWriMo is happening soon. so there is that. So yeah school done. English despite having an odd teacher and no structure I learn stuff sometimes about writing which is part of the reason I took the class. I was unsure what I was expecting when I began this class but I am keeping with it no matter what.

3. Did the GYM exactly one time last week. Ugh. But Monday I did a workout at home. I did a 45min walk through the neighborhood that resulted in me injuring again my bad knee. AND IT STILL HURTS! The gym was fun I did it all even weights. Good time for sure even if it at the end of a long day.

4. Church is going great. I am shocked at how fast a year flew by. The next Sunday after this one we celebrate a one year anniversary. Cool! There will be cake that I cant really have. Maybe I will have a very thin piece. Dang it diabetes. But yeah I love my church. I hope we get a building soon but unsure if or when that will happen.

5. Well no UE and no JOB is how I might be ending my October. I know Gods time table is different then mine. But I am screwed either way. I needed a job by beginning of November. That seemed possible when this month began and now it is almost over and that is not gonna happen. Which means I will have no money coming in mid month when my second set of bills come in. It means I will have to rely on my mom and sister to pay them. AND once they do that I am screwed after that. Its not like I have a choice. I am at the end of my credit card with amazon which I was using to buy gift cards so I could buy groceries. I am at the end of my own money totally. I am at the end of my unemployment. I feel like I am at the end of my rope. And there is no hope. But I have to remind myself that God isn't going to fail me and leave me sitting here. I have done nothing wrong to do this. And as long as I have faith and trust and stop looking around me it will be okay. How? I don't know. But I am not going to ask that just keep going. God will get me through this. IN the end that is all I have left and that is how it should be. God getting me through this day by day one step at a time.

Well ran out of things to say. This week more stuff so that good. Gym, school, plus job interview, halloween and NaNoWriMo begins in a few days. Yikes. Have a great week everyone. See you all in November and thus begins the last two months of the year. God bless you as always!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 21st 2018)

Welcome to this one and a busy one. Last week I had two things unexpected and not planned. Still had 2 relax days and plenty of excitement. How was your week? Good?

1. Monday I had my job interview with Girl Scouts. I honestly after seeing their adorable small store realized I couldn't do it. Still I went in there on full faith if this was the job God would work it out and I would like it wherever He places me. Well I doubt now its happening. Its been almost a week and no one got back to me. So while the days work, the hours work even the location (so very close to my sisters job) I will keep on trying. The shocker as an interview with the new Dollar Tree manager. We have a new store opening in November by us I mean right by us. Fresh & Easy closed like 3 or 4 years ago. This is 5min from our house. Sadly the manager wanted me to be able to set up the store including working Tuesday & Thursdays when I in school. I was willing to skip class on 2 Thursdays but I refused to skip Tuesdays. I have my show and my class. I can only skip 6 I have skipped 2 already! And I DO NOT want to miss 2 radio shows. Still if he could work around this I would miss church for two weeks. I am willing to do that if I am okay after that to not work till after. I refuse to let ANY job or ANY thing get rid of me going to church not again. NEVER again! I gave him my phone number and he claimed Friday he would call the manager to see if she would be okay if I didnt work every day. He said he would get back to me. He joked another worker could fill in on the days I cant. It all seemed to good to be true. He would call me and get me in the system. They trying to hire another 10 in the next week. I am still hopeful it might work out. But two days later and nothing from him. I called yesterday to make sure they had my phone number correct they do. I am gonna give up for now or ever on new stores. I swear its harder to get a job at a brand new store then one that is established. It seems easier when they hiring like 30 people your odds go up. And yet ever since my very first ever retail job 20 years go THIS MONTH! October 1998 I got my job that ended with me hurting my knee and then suing them. Maybe I am jinxed to never again open a store. They all want full availability till they open then its okay after. Hobby Lobby last month and now this. He said they might hire more after they open. I straight up wanted an answer "How likely that you will do that?" blink blink. Well "it depends on how many stay." In other words sorry kid if you don't get it now you won't get it then. I gotcha thanks and bye. In the end God will bring me to the right job. I just keep stressing. If I don't have a job by beginning of November I won't have enough money to pay my bills mid. And if I don't have one by mid November I won't have enough to be okay even with help from my sister and or mom. God is faithful people are not. God is control they are not. Just please pray for me. I just wish UE hadn't run out like that and I could just be looking for work as I can. Winco new grocery store opening could have been a third interview maybe next week. They called me Thursday I called them back on Friday and she said I will call you in 15min back she never did and not on Saturday either. And that kids is all folks.

2. School is going alright. I did show 8 on Tuesday. And some how before I was able to put together 3 liners due on Thursday. And my manger liked them enough yeah! So that is done. And show 8 was great. English is going well. I Learn a lot. I am getting nervous as we approach mid month and I haven't thought up my idea for my book yet for NaNoWriMo. I actually have just 10 days left to figure this out. GULP GULP. I have never not had an idea I have had crap ideas that drag along and make me want to say good bye world. I have ideas that are great and fly by I don't even struggle. The more busy I am the more easier it is to write them the harder it is to come up with one. Been doing this 10 years now! I began this in 2008 I have always written my novels. 10 plus going strong. COME ON BRAIN!

3. Did the GYM just once last week and only 20min. It was emotional as we ended up at my old gym next to my former job. BRU looks exactly the same. Except its not in business anymore. The store from the outside appears to be open except no cars there no lights nothing. Of course its a dead shell nothing in there. Life stollen from it for 6 months now. Gad I miss it! But yeah Gym was nice but quick sad it our only time. I did a small workout at home but just on Saturday best I could. I need to locate my batteries to start using my wii board again. After the GYM we did this diabetes thing that wasn't what we thought. IT was more like here is a bunch information about how much diabetes sucks and now come pay money to get help to not have diabetes anymore to "reverse" it. We got a free meal from Spaghetti Factory sure but waited for it for 2 hours time we got it my stomach was in knots. And their dressing on their salads at the beginning was like soup IT SO GROSS!

4. Wednesday unexpected we joined my parents and sister and my dads cousins 4 total for breakfast at Beach Break. Sure I couldn't have too much pancakes and took a lot home. I even bought my sugar free syrup. But that omelette was AMAZING. It was and odd thing. But they are family and my family is leaving me in pieces as we get older. So I appreciate family no matter what and who they are anymore.

5. The 18th marks 3 years since our dear sweet Maggie cat went to heaven. I am unsure if I will ever see her again. But man I miss her. I miss her crazy and keeping our room insane. All she had. The worst part of this is we don't know what killed her so quickly. I feel bad we lost her so young and the end of her life was painful and quick. It was just horrible. RIP Maggie

Hard to believe its been a month since I was diagnosed with diabetes. A life changing thing. I am still learning so much and being depressed sometimes too. But in the end the doctors don't control me Jesus does. And that is where my fait lies in Him not them. This week is very little going on and I am pretty sure it won't change. See you next weekend. Have a good one. And God Bless you!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 14th 2018)

Welcome welcome. What a week it has been since I last did an update. How was your week? I wasn't busy but still kept busy. And I am still without a job come 6 months later since my job closed.

1. UE decided to boot me. That was my news on Sunday of last week. I was checking to see if I got paid only to see my money is out. Not only is it out I cant get more. AND my last check was $13 less than my last one. IDK why the following: I didnt pay attention & why they did this. Then I recalled in 2013 last time I had a year of UE. It wasn't really a year. They renewed it half way through. End of 2013 California VOTED yes you heard that right VOTED to cancel out extensions. I had no idea 5 years later I would be in the same situation. So now I have about a month till I am completely out of money. I can make it till mid November. Including all my savings left from my tax return I was trying to not save. I wanna kinda give up on saving. I swear. I was saving $25 a month then I had to stop that when school began for my sprinter pass. THEN they raised the price so all the money I saved all year went to my passes all year. Now the rest of my savings is going away. All $350 is what I will be surviving on once my UE runs out in a few weeks. God willing this won't matter much longer and I will have a job. But at this point I am unsure if I will and when. But God has never failed me and His timing is perfect. A piece of me hopes there is a reason it ran out and I don't have work and this is God showing me that He is in control of the whole situation and a job will appear just in the nick of time. I have been faithful in all this tithing my 10% every two weeks and being the best I can at taking care of what I have. I believe God won't fail me I believe He knows the timing. And of course while this was a true SHOCK to me it was not to Him.

2. Diabetes week 3. My sister just signed me up for a talk thingy next week I will update then. In the mean time I am still learning to live without my beloved carbs and sugar. I admitted a week ago on facebook that I have this. I am unsure why it took this long. I think the shock has gone away and I have accepted it finally so I can move on. I feel bad for my sister too. She refuses to get tested while hoping she doesn't have it. I was shopping with her on Thursday and I am like I am sorry I made you check labels now too. I am like when did this begin. She goes 3 weeks ago. Gulp guilty. You just don't get till you are in this situation how much you eat sugar and carbs and how it affects you. I am still trying to move every day in every way possible. I discover more and more sugarless fun like Russel Stover has some AMAZING sugarless candy. Yum. But I am nervous too. I feel like I'm not losing weight. And that in 2 months my failure will be not getting my blood sugar down my A1C. I am nervous as crap for something that is 2 months away. Did I mention stress is bad for blood sugar too?

3. We had a big rain storm thunder lightning and windy on Friday night. WOW it was crazy. I was back in another state again. I turned off the lights to watch the show for a few minutes till my heart pounded so heart I thought I would have a heart attack. It was so cool. God is so awesome!!!! I loved it loved it. But was glad it over yesterday. I could go outside take pictures of birds and put up the bird feeder cause it cleared up. Stars and all that jazz. So rain is gone now and warmer next week. Welcome to Fall in California haha ;)

4. GYM did it only once last week. We wanted to do it twice like on Tuesday and also maybe three times on Saturday. But sister working and exhausting. I cant keep making excuses though. Maybe twice next week? Maybe!! But yeah love gym. Hate I forgot my shoes at home so I had to wear those slip on ones from Rite Aid that hurt my feet like nothing else especially after they off me.

5. School only there on Tuesday because our teacher lost his father. SO no class on Thursday. I did my show 7 fine as can be no problems it was great!! Followed it up with my air check which was nerve racking but glad that done. I have another one in a month. Lots to fix on my show. And try to submit my best two shows for a possible award that goes on next year in March. I am excited. I hope I win. But going to New York if they pay for it WOW that would be the best!!!! :)

Well that is all for now. In spite of all that my sister paid for us to go to the NKOTB concert next May. Its far away but cant way to see them and a few other great 80s groups in person. Wow. Well have a nice week. I have an interview school picking up refill on my meds the diabetes thing and hopefully gym time. But at least the weather will be behave I think. Till then good day all. God bless you!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 7th 2018)

Welcome to October!!!! How was your week? Hope it was well. Mine was slow but still did stuff

1. School show 6 was actually good for school. Sure I was working no my air check stuff for next week so I almost got late. But yeah show 6 was excellent. I almost might enter this in the contest this month. Maybe shall see! Regular school so that is good too.

2. GYM did that on Monday. Did that and also got pizza that I made last all week. Fun stuff. But yeah that was the only time we did the GYM but oh well.

3. On days after school Tuesday I went to 2 shops. And Thursday I went downtown. I was having an off day on Thursday but still did that. Then came home. So that was my after school fun.

4. Saturday did the bird thing again. I guess its back on and that is cool too. Saw a few birds not a lot but the norm with my hummingbirds too. Even went to the park after and got a few more which was fun.

5. Got in a car accident on Saturday no joke! This is my 2nd time being in one where we hit from the back. Zero fun btw. Also my diabetes and me continue the journey. Best I can I guess.


Well have a nice week. No big plans this one. Hope you all have a good one. See you all next weekend again!!!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 30th 2018)

Welcome. This is barely squeaking in for a September post IT IS THE LAST DAY OF THE MONTH!! I am being honest here this year has been one trial after another. Holding my head above the water it is scary how much has changed in my personal life. I hope the last 3 months will be kinder but at this point its all up in the air who knows!!

1. Went to the GYM twice last week. Not bad not bad at all! Trying to keep up and do something workout like DAILY since my disease. Not easy as I still have my bad knees and I am still fighting this cold/cough. But I will keep going cause you know I do pay for it... and I don't mean pay for it pain wise after ;)

2. School this week I am back! I skipped all last week. But I am back now. English is going okay I truly need to be writing more for my creative writing class. Speaking of which as October approaches I realize NaNoWriMo is coming and I haven't even begun to brain storm for my new book idea. I was thinking of going back in time and doing a third book for my duke and duchess in time series. Maybe their kid goes back in time? Its a stretch but its an idea IF NOTHING ELSE! My show 5 went pretty good. Compared to two weeks back when it sucked big time. So yeah Show 5. This semester is flying by. I have just 9 more shows to go cause I skipped that one week. Yup

3. We went to the Safari Park one last time on Friday the 28th. I will miss going to the zoo & safari park. But truly we cant afford to do this again till I get a new job! At least! Last time when it ended in 2014 we took yes 3 years to get them again. We had fun saw all but the baby elephants which is a bummer. But that park is huge and we were both exhausted and it was closing time. But got to see the rest I wanted to see. Yes for sure! I will miss you Zoo & Safari Park but I am hoping for a miracle and us being able to come back again next year!! It was so fun.

4. My Grandmas 106th birthday was yesterday. We sent a balloon to the sky. Our tradition since 2009 we took a break one time I believe in 2012 and it felt so empty. So we keep doing it and won't be stopping anytime soon. This time at Guajome Park near our house. And of course our 3 silly balloons got connected up in the tree and as far as I know they will die there in a few days so there is that...But still fun. After my sister went to go do something with a friend me and my mom hung at the park and got a ton of bird pictures. I think I am a bird. LOL and so is she! Bonus! ;)

5. I am still dealing with the total shock and sadness of having diabetes a week later. Its a day by day thing for me. My blood sugar is a mess. I am still working on getting enough snacks going and such. I am supposed to have 5 or 6 small meals a day. I over did the sugar on Friday and then on Saturday I didnt eat enough in a small period and ended up having such a bad sugar drop I was shaking badly. I often wonder how I will die and now I wonder if it will be this eventually. Sure it might take 15 plus years but its a possibility. I know this much: God is in control, there is a reason a purpose in this and in the end despite HOW HARD IT IS TO SAY GOOD BYE TO ALL I LOVE IN SUGAR! I know this world is temporary and this is another thing I am letting go of. I am just hoping and praying in my new life in heaven and when the earth is re done I will get to enjoy my sugar again if we eat that is. And all that I am losing. God is slowly taking my grips on this life off my hands piece by piece. I don't love sugar as much as I love God but it was one of my top things and now it is slowly and surely going away. Long with a new lifestyle I didnt chose didnt ask for and is beyond new for anyone in our current family. I will not admit to a lot of people I have this. I am ashamed I think I feel like I both caused this and deserved it. Horrible as that is I am still dealing with this new death. And its now 6 months since my job died too. This year! :(

Well have a great week everyone. My week plans to be less exciting more the norm. Might rain this week thrilling. Not really but hey whatever. See you all in October. Have a good one. God bless you all :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 23rd 2018)

Welcome to Fall!! How are you doing today? My week was kinda less exciting but still I did stuff so that is good I guess. Cant believe we are almost through September and now in a new season. Crazy stuff

1. Monday celebrated my youngest sisters birthday she turned 32. Didnt do a lot. But did stuff. I gave her my toy I had bought back at BRU before they closed. And she loves it!! Later had dinner at The Habit and then dessert at DQ. Sat in the Harbor for dinner. Then back home. Happy Birthday

2. Tuesday went to my cousins baby shower so I skipped my show. Oh well. The shower was far away but fun. There almost 3hrs the shower should have been 2hrs but went till almost 3hrs in. Oh boy. Still had fun and glad we went :)

3. Wednesday I went to the doctor and got horrible news. I was going for arthritis I thought the worse I would walk away with was bad arthritis news. I had looked at my blood few days after it done and it showed I could have diabetes. But I thought they would re test me I thought I had to fast. It said online that more test might be needed. Instead my visit turned into Diabetes 2 which I have now. For life. I'm still in shock now. I feel like someone died. My sugar my chocolate my life is in shambles now. All cause of a disease that affects a lot more people then you might know. I am on 2 new meds. And I have to be careful on how much sugar I eat. It means getting rid of my favorites and just trying to be okay. When I am not really okay with it :(

4. Skipped school Thursday I am sick actually cough and cold. UGH. I hate being sick and its coming on around time of all the rest. Yup sick again. I haven't been sick in months and I tried to fight this off. I kinda failed.

5. Did a small workout at home on Thursday walk and bike. I am aiming to do a workout in some form unless I will be walking a lot every day rest of my life. However long or short that is. To help my diabetes and my arthritis. To help me.

Hey in the end if I get to lose weight that is great but I truly miss my chocolate and sugar :(
Well have a great week everyone. Not much time left this month. Have a good one everyone. See you all next weekend! Just 2 more of these this month to go....

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 16th 2018)

Sorry this is late! I was busy yesterday so I am getting it up on time but it is still late. How was your week? MINE WAS BUSY! And it continues. This week I will be busy busy till Friday & Saturday will get a break!

1. Monday went to the doctor in the morning got my blood drawn and physical. Then set up an appointment next week for my knees to get them checked for arthritis. I am like a walking time bomb for issues. The older I get the more I get them. I won't be 40 till next year but my hand full of growing issues has me looking to Jesus and being thankful every day I am alive. Later on Monday we went to the GYM For pizza done a week late due to the holiday last week. And did a small workout. I was happy I did a real workout then paid or it later. So there you go.

2. Tuesday had my show 4 at the radio station. It was a disaster idk why everything went wrong. Last week good this week not so good! Class okay this week. My creative writing one we turned in stuff on Thursday. But this free class that is so free its just a fun weird class I didnt mind holding on to even if I am super tired from twice a week up early. Yup.

3. Friday we went to the Zoo probably for the last time. Got a late start. I wanted us to get 6hrs full. We ended up not arriving till 1. So we were there about 5hrs since we still in the zoo at closing. Good news is I saw my hummingbirds and we saw penguins and a few other animals. Not a lot of monkeys or my meerkats. But we MAY and I say it MAY come back on last day our passes good on the 28th. And we doing the Safari Park one last time on the 24th. Hard to believe its been a year. Last time we had passes was 2014 so it took 3 yrs to get them again. Hopefully next time won't take so long. It would be awesome soon as I get a job to get them again I hope by next year! Especially since the bigger hummingbird exhibit will be open :)

4. Saturday went to Universal first time back since May. It was super hot as it was at the zoo but much hotter I believe so. It was not that crowded but due to the halloween thing the park closed at 6. Somehow we still got on the rides we wanted most of them. But not more than once. Never saw show either. We acted like we had time and then we didnt. So that is why too. But still had fun. Just exhausting doing two days of insane in a row like that. Sadly won't be back again till at least November

5. Well the 12th marked 7 years since we moved back to Cali. Its hard to believe its been 7yrs. Time truly does fly in the end. I just am thankful for the little things and big. Mourn the losses and move on. While I may never fully understand why we had to move back like we did. I will continue to grow and change and maybe someday soon I will actually move out again.

Well full week done this continues it. See you all next weekend. Till end of month I am glad for lots to do. And maybe just maybe October will bring the job I have been trying to get since our store closed in March. God bless you all as always.

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 9th 2018)

Welcome to the second one of these in September. Last week was a bit more dull compared to the week before. I still did stuff but had more time off more days free and more time to sleep in WHICH I NEEDED! Plus my sister dropped her early class on Tuesdays meaning now unless she works I will be going in a bit later on both Tuesday & Thursdays.

1. Yesterday marked 14 years since our cat Patches died. While Patches for sure my sisters cat she was more than that. Sister to my cat, our first cat since my sister got hers first and then I got mine two days later I got her sister. We lost her for reasons I don't fully understand still. When you get a pair one will need the other more than the other one will need them. Well my cat was the needy one and hers was not. (In our current 2 Jackie is for sure the independent while Rocky is for sure the dependent one.) I always think of her dying as it was day after my dads birthday. I try to not mention her death anniversary even if I recall it. After all Maggie that we got to replace her for my cat Princess died for reasons we don't get almost 3 years ago! Miss you Patches. I hope we see you both in heaven again someday.

2. School this week. I was falling asleep my English class on Tuesday not cool. But more awake on Thursday really. My show 3 was great for radio I was super happy how it turned out. When we do our air check I will for sure if given the choice pick this one. I am all for that! So we are through week 3 just 13 weeks to go GULP

3. Monday was Labor Day we decided to go to San Diego to celebrate dad and my sisters birthdays early. We saw the light house and the statue. Then rushed back to the zoo. Only to find out that they lied to us and the humming bird thing closed at 6 (got there at 6:30). So now we are going to go this week on Friday. Our passes expire at end of the month and we want one more time at each park. I hope we can do the safari park too unsure but we will try!

4. Friday was dads 70th birthday. I cant believe my parents are so up there. It is scary. Its that time of life where you don't know when you will not have them. But I am praying for them to be around at least another 10 plus years. I think they can. Unsure if I will be. You never know when you are the one to go. Just saying. But yeah happy birthday. I didnt do much with him he kinda just had dinner with mom while I watched my sister for them for a few hours.

5. Did the GYM this week just one time on Thursday. I had taken arthritis meds so I was able to workout and not be in pain till later on. I paid for it but hey its necessary. I also made appointment Monday for the doctor to get my blood work done check for things and also to ask about my thyroid and my knee. Fun times! Not really. Been avoiding what should be done. In the end I will only find out what I am supposed to find out.

Well thats all for now. This week will be MUCH more fuller! We recall 9/11, I have school, doctor, the zoo and MAYBE universal on Saturday. Yup. I am happy for whatever happens. Shall see. Till next weekend have a good one. God bless you as always. Stay cool since our temps went back up again Fall is not ready to come yet....

The Weekend 5 actually 6 (Sunday, September 2nd 2018)

Welcome to SEPTEMBER! I had to urge just now to listen to Earth Wind & Fire on Youtube for the song September haha. How was your week last week? Mine was 100% EVERY day almost and I was going crazy!! And freaking exhausted. But I made it out. And this week is back to more mellow.

1. My poor dog. I took her to the vet on Thursday. I guess she has a build up for wax in her ears and unsure on her eyes. Either way she had issues enough to make me concerned but taking her in was not easy. Just did a drop off on Thursday before school and got her well my parents did later on in the day. She still on meds for a week poor baby girl! I need to get to my doctor appointment my yearly check up. Maybe next week we shall see I am trying!

2. Monday had the job fair been looking forward to since Hobby Lobby put up signs. It freaked me out because I thought for sure I was supposed to have this job. That is what I thought. A Christian company and if they took me on and kept me because it wasnt for sure then I would have a job, Sundays off. Its a hobby store too. Yes they hiring on the spot. But not me because of my schedule. Even if I had dropped my creative writing class which I really don't want to do that they wanted me to have OPEN availability all week long. Lame. So I would have still had radio and I refuse to drop my show. I love my show. I am gaining work experience I do not want to be in retail forever and been trying to get a real job and career with school if you could it almost 20 years next year! So yeah. They are opening in a few weeks and said they will be hiring again. I am supposed to also check back. So I filled out an app and left :( Then the day got extra crappy from there. Everything kept going wrong. I cried a whole lot. Jesus got me through it but it was harsh. I would be okay with one bad thing till another came along. Melt down by the library when my food fell in a puddle was my low point. Anyways Monday no fun this time I really hated you Monday. I am still praying for a miracle if I am supposed to be with HL it will work out and I won't have to try hard because it will work out. But it won't work out for a few more week so got to keep looking till then.

3. School is busy but I dropped my online art 100 class. It was not a ton of homework but enough to take my time. My radio one isn't just my show I have online stuff and in person stuff. So that is taking time. And I am supposed to be working my writing for my creative writing class. The class is pretty easy but I still have to write stuff to turn in every few weeks. And show up to most of my classes. My radio show went good this time around. Better then last time at least. Just 14 more shows to go. Having fun as always. And so far the online stuff isn't too harsh but its enough. Long as I keep 6 units and tech my English is 4 so I will end with 7 this time I should be okay.

4. Friday went to Legoland with a lot of people. My sister got passes to let my cousin in and her husband and their two kids our 2nd cousins. Then my cousins husbands parents came. And my parents came. At one point there was their family 4 plus 2, me and my sister and my parents so a total of 10! But my sister had to work and my parents had to leave to get my sister from school. With 2 bad knees I just broke off from the rest and hung out in the cafe market up at the top of the park. I rode two rides and that was enough. I rested and waited then when my sister off we had dinner with my cousins before they headed back to Orange County. A fun but long day!

5. Did our last ever bird thing yesterday. I am super sad! I just got into these things and was hoping to keep going even when I do get a job. I began going with my mom in May so been going steady. But the guy who runs it is being asked to leave so they don't know what will happen but if they do Saturday mornings it might not be for a few months or who knows. So we got our fill of birds and sad to say good bye to them all :(

BONUS time! Extra day added too much happened....

6. September 1st marked 7 years since our drastic quick exit from AZ. Its hard to believer its been 7 years. While it seems like it has been it doesn't too. Time truly flies as you get older. I Look back in sadness from that. I was sad at how fast we had to move in 10 days. How much we lost. While I still have no idea why were supposed to move back here. God has kept us going and I know it will work out and in some ways it has already. Us going to school for free, me getting more career experience, little things make it worth living here. I am still hopeful one day soon I will have enough money to be able to move out again but in California the expensive state unsure if that will happen unless I have a very good job! Till then I keep living best I can.

Well have a nice week everyone. Mine like stated won't be too busy. See you next weekend!! God bless you as always :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 26th 2018)

Welcome to the last one of these for the month of August. This month FLEW by! And happy birthday to my cousin today oh hey! Hope you had a great week. I was trying to just now come up with a 5th thing. You see I did a lot but most of it was school related so there is that... Oh well! I tried!

1. Church was good. We had a guest speaker. He was a radio guy and I was like that is cool! I am glad that believers are in all kinds of walks of life spreading the good news. Just sayin. Harvest Crusade ended last week with nearly 10,000 people saved!! I secretly hope this is the last one and we will be home before next year you never know right. I miss the harvest and actually enjoy you can watch it on facebook live. I swear there are no ends to where FB live goes. You think its just your friends doing crazy crap. But churches and even harvest bring their services (ours included) to everyone who can see it and then share it too!! I share ours you should too if you go. Spread the love the message the promises. This world everyone needs Jesus 100%

2. I love my hummingbirds and I was kind of sad when middle of the week I had a wonderful day SO GREAT I didnt go to bed for hours and only slept 2 doing pictures (I average between 100 & 500 pictures a day and most don't go up but a lot of them do too!). SO our main gal who has been the bully for 3 months got the boot on Wednesday from this orange dude who is now MIA as well. Its so weird! He or she booted her off the main area she disappeared and I miss her singing and her weirdness. I am sure she is off somewhere in neighborhood doing her weird some place else I keep hoping he will come back. She hasn't. The orange dude that kicked her off hasn't really been seen since Thursday. So as of yesterday its just a few birds and no orange bird and no colorful one. I miss her. And the other was okay but now its just like where did they all go? Btw our birds don't migrate so its not that. They just disappear and re appear. So I was glad for a great day on Wednesday and then since then 2 dud days. Yesterday and today. I guess I take too many pictures and I am letting this get to me too much. But it is. I do go for a job interview on Monday for Hobby Lobby maybe I will have a job and this won't matter by next month. You never know! But yeah love my birds

3. GYM did that on Thursday. I was dead tired from two days of school both early times and less hours. I am like I need more sleep but I cant promise honestly if any time this semester I will get more than 3 or 4hrs a night when I am in school. I cant promise it. I know 15 more weeks of this oh boy. So after school I met my sister at the GYM. She only there for a half hour had to go to class she came later then planned and then left. I got like 45min in which was nice. But my poor knees are so swollen. Still they felt better on Friday so really pain or not it helped them. I wish I knew what was wrong with them. I need to call the doctor make an appointment for my yearly physical and get my thyroid tested and then ask about my knees. But yeah GYM time great. Planning twice next week at least!! Tired or not it needs to be done. I still miss my job and going to the gym before work. I used to workout 3x a week at least. Now a days its like 1x if I am lucky 1x a month sometimes yup

4. School is great I think. I like my creative writing class. My teacher is something else. The class has no direction but that is okay too. Show up and write something and turn something in at the end of the semester. I think my radio class will be more work gulp. Online dropping 2 of my 3 and keeping 1. I am brave to do this because between English and radio I will be busy BUT I want to take this art 100 class it has no book required so that is great. Truly the first semester where I don't have any required books. Weird. But yeah

5. Radio show 1 so much went wrong in the first 10 min but it was okay after. Still it flustered me so badly. Plus I felt the lack of 1hr and boy 2hrs flew by. I still had fun I always do. Just 15 more shows. Well 14 doing my cousins baby shower and will be sad to miss one show I have never done that before. But hey I will just find out how far in advance I Need to let my manger know this. Its not my fault they picked during the week and on the ONE day that I cant do it for sure. Any day any time like that would have been fine but Tuesdays why.

Well not much else to say. I have lots to do. I am busy trust me. Birds or no birds. Life keeps me busy. But hey I am alive and things re still here and I am still here. God bless you all. Have a great week and see you all in September!!!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 19th 2018)

Welcome to the almost last of these for this month. Time is flying by. August flew by. July not so much. For real! Hope you had a great week and stayed cooler then us. With fires burning all around us and its just not fun time of the year. Fire season and its early this time too. I am over the heat BUT I WILL MISS ALL THE DAY LIGHT which will go away with the time change and Fall in like a month. Its already happening it gets dark now before 8 and the sun sets around 7:10 now. It used to be 7:30 and not fully dark till 8:15. :( I miss the day light already.

1. Last Sunday after a great church service I came home to clean. I also cleaned on Tuesday before our visit for my sisters social worker. She or he comes every year once a year. And we have to clean like mad. Its fun discovering how much crap you have and how unorganized you are under the heat and pressure. The last two weeks have been pressure for me. I am SUPER GLAD THEY ARE DONE! The weekend before my parents left our sister in our hands for 24hrs and that was not the much fun. And then last week cleaning. I am glad for a mellow last week before school begins.

2. So this week last one before next week which is school this week I write this will be school. I will be there twice a week. I am committing myself to an actual class and then of course my radio show. So Tuesdays will be my most busiest. I will have class then an hour break before my show for 2hrs. Thursdays just class. But that is it. I am still trying to get a job. That is it for in person. I still have at least one or two I want to maybe keep online but unsure on them. I am trying to get more in then just 6 units but I HAVE To do at least 6 units or my school loans will come after me they already are btw truly they are. All cause in the Spring I only took 3units. I blame losing my class I would have kept and then of course I dropped English. And secretly hoped my loans wouldn't know better. THEY KNOW THEY ALWAYS DO! My loans are going to follow me to my grave at this point I am pretty sure I will never be able to pay them off!

3. Last beach trip was on Monday. Went with mom and my sister. Only like 2hrs but it was not bad. I still got major sunburnt including top of my head worse ever ick. My poor balding head with missing hair its like worse. It finally feels better it took several days to heal it just no fun.

4. The 17th marked 1 yr since our uncle died. So the 16th marked 1 yr since I thought I was going to die. We are on track past the year mark on both. I still need to set up my yearly physical. But I rarely tell anyone that I thought I was going to die and my last day was on the 16th. I felt the death on the way and felt it was me. And turns out it was my uncle sadly. We still miss you uncle Mike!!

5. The 16th also marked our last full day in TN in 2007 our first visit. It was the date of Elvis death and we were at Red Robbin and they told us that all these people go up to Memphis for his anniversary. Thats why it was so busy that day. I will never regret TN or our trip our move or anything. That move changed me in so many ways. And one day again soon I hope to move out on my own till then I will live where I am at best I can.

Well have a great week everyone! I am back in school. I am sad about no beach time no free time. I wish I had a job but maybe I will have one soon. I am trusting God. Hard to believe September marks 6 months of UE. Which means I have just 6 months of money left to go. Gulp. But God has got me. Even when I cant see how He will work it out He will. He is faithful He never fails me. I trust my life and dreams to Him alone. Amen. God bless you all. See you all next weekend last one for this month!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 12th 2018)

Welcome to the second one of these for the month. Boy has it been hot here. How is your weather? Ours is hot hot hot and not so great causing lots of fires. Although like a lot of the time fires are usually not just caused by nothing but us humans on purpose or accident. I learned that last year when I was doing the news for my radio show before I had a radio show.

1. On Sunday the 5th my parents celebrated 40 years of marriage by going away for a full night and half a day on Monday. This meant me and my sister watching my handicap sister who is almost 32 but mentally only 2. Boy was that fun. She drank milk and made messes and diaper changes. And I was alone with her a lot. I can see now how much patience it takes to take care of her. And unsure how life will be if something happens to one or both our parents. But they had fun and came back and we off duty hurray!

2. The 6th marked 10 years since my beloved hamster Tinkerbell died and she was the best hamster. She was about 1.5 yrs old when she died while we in TN. I won't forget it. Like usual it happened around a holiday or birthday (parents anniversary). I was alone when I found her. Then we had to bury her. In an old bank box in the wood behind our apartments in the dark. While a storm threatening to come over there. Oh Tinkerbell my silly girl. With her little toys and ball. She had this tumor on her and I used to pray she would be taken soon if she was in pain as it bled sometimes. And I couldn't do anything about it. But she was happy and I was happy with her. And for the short time I Had her I really enjoyed her. RIP Tinkerbell

3. Show 8 was on the 8th. And it was my last show and I'm sad still. I thought I had one more show but I didnt. And so I had to say good bye to my show quickly. It was a good show but it didnt upload on my flash drive so now I might never have a copy of my last show. Which sucks as I am supposed to be picking a show for my teacher and this could have been it. Gulp. Hope its still on there in two weeks when I come back for Fall! After I done my teacher had to cancel my air check so none of that. I got food and waited for my sister to come get me at Panera bread.

4. Tried out this pool in Carlsbad it was fun. They didnt charge us unsure maybe last hour is free? It had a spa the water so warm in the pool and it mostly families not two adults with no kids. The spa was awesome. Tried the splash pad before we left. Then got DQ before heading home.

5. Booksale on Saturday was fun. Lots of books. But like most things since we moved back home in 2011 I have no room to put them in. Plus I keep getting repeat books so I can read them cause at this point I am unsure if I will ever again see my actual books. I wish we had a place to put our books. Even more so I wish I had more energy not time but energy to go through all the boxes in the garage.

Well my knees both are hurting so bad. IDK why but its just not good. And with a visit for my sisters social worker on Tuesday the next 2 days will be busy. Hope for a beach trip one last time on Monday. School begins in just a little over a week. Yup. Fires burning and very hot out. Hello again August. Have a good one everyone. See you all next weekend.

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 5th 2018)

Welcome to August!! And Happy 40th Anniversary to my parents :) Hope you are all having a great 8th month of the year. Hard to believe how close we are to school again and then my life will be different again. Still waiting on God for my job. I faithfully look for work weekly and praying for miracles. Till then I know the right job will come along I am still waiting on the One who holds my life in His hands. Thank you God for taking care of me!!

1. I am a gardener again. I keep trying to be a gardener. When I retired years ago around the time I thought I would be married by now with a bunch of kids and a career I thought I want to garden. Why wait for that? First off I will probably never fully *retire* I will always be doing something. I have ADD I creative and I am crazy so I will never be not working. I have time on my hands. I want to see more butterflies and humming birds. I love my nature time daily God is so wonderful I am so thankful. So why not. So I planted some flowers this week finally. I planted 3 in pots. I got them on Tuesday and I planted them on Friday. I will be planting seeds and also this bed of flowers in the next 2 days. Please work please grow and please bring the birds and the creatures of insects I want to see ;) I put up 2 feeders no birds yet and I think none have used my bird bath. I think I am doing something wrong here. But I still enjoy seeing the birds and the butterflies and the dragon flies. I still am thankful. Be thankful always we are told to do so. I find so much to be thankful for every day I am alive thank you God for every day I am here :)

2. Went to the beach on Tuesday it was fun really. Took us a while to find a beach not too far away this was still like 30min from home. And not too crowded. So we tried this beach out called Fletcher Cove in Solana Beach. Having fun till my sister stepped in these holes in the sand and hurt her poor foot. This was the foot she had injured in 2015. Either way she is still nursing this back to health even now. She had to miss work on Wed because of it. So she had to get it iced that ended our trip. Then 3 people were stung by sting rays right after we out of the water. I looked at in the light of being protected from that which would have been way worse! So sorry for her though. But finally got a beach trip in yeah for that.

3. Show 7 went alright on Wednesday. I messed up several times. Badly. Dead air for seconds. Oh my. After all that after my show over my manager was telling me he likes me show enough to enter it as a specialty show for this college radio thing they do. He wants to enter one of my shows *my best show* which is which one? Not 7 for sure LOL. And then if I win I get an award. WOW!! He also wants to use me for the radio college radio thing they doing far as I understand it. I am thankful that God is blessing me in this area this is not me. I am thankful for sticking it out and watching me bloom. And watching possibly finding a career I can finally do. It will take time and I plan to keep doing this show long as I am allowed to which is 4 times if allowed at the school. I begin my first real one this Fall. I have been doing internships now twice for it till now. I am unsure where I will work in the end or when but I know that I think I have my area I think I have it. About time. Two schools, plus one I am in now. I am not saying good bye to TV chances yet but for now and probably for real I will be saying yes to radio which shocks me. I thought 10 years ago after graduating CSB in July 2008 that TV was where I was heading and radio was a maybe. I still wanted to give radio a shot but took years to even get to where I am now to even try anything with it because I was trying tv so hard. My manager told me he likes my show because there really are not a lot of 80's shows ONLY 80's shows on college radio. That makes me unique. I am unique and so is my show :) If you want to check out 30min of my show go to: http://www.facebook.com/djhollyhobbie

4. Rode the boat with my parents for their anniversary which is actually today when I post this. We have been doing this since 2015! This is my first time doing this not having a job weird right. I usually have to ask for the day off from work. Had fun minus stealing a guys fishing line ugh. And the rules that kept us from sitting on the boat. Its okay my 2 bad knees my sisters bad foot but we tried and still had fun. Flew by. Weird how 1hr flew by and usually it doesn't. It felt way short. We did 2hrs last year and it was too much. Maybe can we just do 1.5 next time haha

5. First Saturday of the month yesterday the 4th means birdie time with mom. Had fun. It was cloudy then sunny then really hot. Still we saw birds we have NEVER seen before. I am happy with that one. Had fun of course just tiring. I was exhausted from less sleep for the boat and then less sleep for this. Took a nap. I love naps but in this heat (we have no a/c) its a killer but this time it was necessary!! So yeah bird time was fun. Next Saturday is a book sale again so yup.

Church was good last week. It spoke to me. I sometimes wait hold that I don't like letting others as in other believers hold my burdens. I think of it as complaining which is a sin and something I am working on with Gods help in not doing. I also don't like making them upset so I rarely tell others my pains and my problems. I tell God I figure that is enough. Sunday was a reminder that we are not only supposed to allow other believers to bare our burdens but we should bare theirs. Then I realized I am a person who doesn't mind baring others burdens while not wanting to do the same for my own. Weird right. I just don't like to hurt people its so hard to explain it. So that really spoke to me. Its okay I am okay with learning these things while realizing I need to change. I come back to Jesus hand it to Him and believe it will be okay. Well have a good week everyone. Less exciting for me but still not doing nothing. In fact still school ends in December I will not have any weeks anymore where I won't be doing something several days a week. See you all next weekend. God bless you all!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 29th 2018)

Welcome to the last one of these for July. Why has this month been so long? Then again now that August is coming so is school and all kinds of fun stuff. Maybe haha!! Hope you had a good week!!

1. Church was good on Sunday. As always it was. Before church was cool too. I was outside doing my quiet time and about to go inside when this hawk that I am sure is the one I saw the week before shows up in our tree. It yells lands and then flies away before I can record it on video. I got one picture of it. Later in the week my mom saw the hawk and also a wood pecker. Crazy. God is so good! I love His creation and I am thankful for each bird I get to see. Not just my humming birds ;)

2. Today marks a year since my PAIN really got bad last year! What a year it has been. That pain began with me going to the doctor pretty much every other week at least once. I had blood test, a physical and all kinds of fun. An ultrasound which showed nothing. In the end my pain had a name PCOS and that was it. I had stomach issues too. Last year was painful. Since then my pain hasn't gone away. But its changed. While last year the pain freaked me out and sent me into a major panic. Now I just trust Jesus even for the new pains and just let Him take care of me. I still don't fully know what is *wrong* with me but its more than just PCOS. Still I am here. Every day I am still here. No matter new pains old pains all kinds of pains. I am still here. So for every day I am here I know I am meant to be here. If this pain is serious or leading to something I am still here. My date is set I am unsure when it is. Most people don't know when their time will come. So I keep trusting Jesus walking forward and keeping my eyes not the only one I truly trust with my pain sickness sin and life. The one who died to free me. If you don't know Him friends I pray you will someday. Life changing for sure which is what it is supposed to be :)

3. Monday was a hot evening and my sister was home for no reason not working. So we went down and got ice cream at Dairy Queen aka DQ. Then we went to the beach by the harbor and even in the evening it was crowded. Took a bunch of pictures and almost got wet. Haha. Had fun!! Came home later then planned but still nice beach trip. Still need to do at least ONE real one this Summer where I get more than my feet wet. Working on it but unsure when. Hopefully before school returns on the 20th of August.

4. Show 6 was done and was fun. If you don't follow my facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/djhollyhobbie I have my first hour live on there. Show 6 was a great time. I had fun with my movies and all that jazz. I had fun. Hard to believe how close to end we are to this. Then back to school and back to longer shows. This time its just 10 weeks (well 9 for me I didnt do it on the 4th of July).

5. Saw Mission Impossible 6 on Thursday evening. Was a VERY INTENSE film no joke! Not as *funny* as the others but still had its humor. I love these films. Ever since the 4th one been really into them. I loved the first one but have not seen the 2nd or 3rd one a whole lot. Unsure why. Different me different time different person back then. SO go see it very good in theaters!

So today marks 4 months since Babies R Us closed for good!! I am still so sad about it. :( I miss my job I miss my co workers. Its to be understandable. Its a broken heart healing thing. I have let it go to God and know it will be okay. I am still waiting for my job and barely living off UE but learning to balance my money again and knowing I cant spend it on pointless junk I don't really need is a very nice lesson I hate living. Gonna just say it. Yup. Its also been a month since Toys R Us closed for good on June 29th. I am sad about that too. Its like I forget and then get reminded again. Just yesterday walking around Target and seeing baby stuff put me into a moment of holding my tongue and breath and walking fast away. I am unsure at this point how long it will be till I am okay with any of this I might never be. It makes me human it makes me normal. And that is okay in the end it truly is. Well have a good week everyone. Mine will be more busy this time for sure. Even with my sister working so won't be doing as much with her several of my days will be full of stuff. God bless as always and see you all in August!! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 22nd 2018)

Welcome! We are speeding our way through July. WOW crazy!! Dealing okay with the heat. Best I can. Hope you had a great week. Mine was tiring as always but I had fun too. No complaints there!! God is good always no matter what happens He is in control :)

1. Went and saw Ant Man & The Wasp again. Same day as the guy coming back for our fridge. Ugh. But hopefully it okay for good for now! Ant Man was good :) and funny still! So yeah for $7 movies. Won't be back again to there for a few weeks at least. Next movie we see Mission Impossible I am unsure where we seeing it but probably at Carlsbad since its where we go for newer films.

2. Show 5 went great at school. I did facebook live on my fan page SO YOU CAN SEE IT TOO! http://www.facebook.com/djhollyhobbie I did it for 45min then followed up with like 5min on Instagram. That is temporary not on there more than 24hrs. But fun. My plans facebook live rest of the semester. Which is coming up fast. So yeah show 5 done and done. I need to work on my commercial and set up a time to do my thing with my manager.

3. Went to the GYM once last week. Sure I was exhausted after my show. I felt like death after 2 days in a row of around 3hrs sleep each. But I still went after my show. Met my sister and had fun somewhat. She took me shopping and that was done finally. So yeah for that. Tired or not I love the gym.

4. Comic Con on Friday. Went for the free area. Almost saw Conan show but decided not to NOT knowing the train came later then the last train we thought. It was not meant to be. Instead we walked round fried in the sun got heat exhaustion and were glad to get our donuts and head home. But yeah for that. Wanted to try to go back today for the show again but my sister works next two so doubt that happening. Today would have been cool IF we inside Hall H they had Fantastic Beast cast there UNFAIR! Its okay I know I will never see Hall H from the inside. People were living outside there in their tents that couldn't get in today. If you get in you live there too. So its awesome to get in I am sure but not so awesome to NOT get in. Like we didnt in 2013 the only time we tried!

5. This week had a mix of reminders. Its been 10 years as of the 20th of July I joined facebook. All for my ex best friend. I was on myspace till then. So many on FB and I got lots of friends fast. What a 10 years it has been. This week marks 10 years since I graduated from CSB I loved my broadcasting school I learned so much about radio & tv. Maggie's birthday was the 17th she SHOULD have turned 14 :( Miss you sweet Orange kitty. Never knew in 2015 she turned 11 and that was her last birthday with us. I planned to have her with us till she was at least 20. And its been 8 years that we moved into our apartment in AZ. Last week I remarked on the move. The move in and getting used to AZ was something else. WE loved AZ it was our desert home for a year plus. But in the end it was our last time out of our parents world for a while unsure when if we will ever move again. But yeah for AZ

Well church was good this week. And had a fun time as always. I ended up taking a nap after and this heat that was not a good thing. We are so close to going back to school while in school its crazy. But it is fine too. Life is good. God is good. And that is the most important thing to live in Gods will and be alive each day while knowing each day I am closer to going home. Yeah. God bless you all. One more of these in July. Till then bye!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 15th 2018)

Welcome Welcome. Slow week for me. How about you? Next week I mean this coming week will be a bit more lively but hey it was still fun right. I love it!!

1. Church was good this week!! We decided to sing hymns like not all of it was but hey. Takes me back to my good old days at the original Calvary Chapel in CM. Then I started missing Pastor Chuck. Its weird how time is when you get older. Days fly by years even more so. But when you really think about it years still feels long ago. That is how it is when you get older. The closer I am to approaching my new decade (Next year) the closer I am to realizing how numbers are just numbers age is nothing. And life is about what you make it. God knows we are are simply dust and time is flow and goes by fast. Like a wisp. We need to realize it to and ask God to help us number our days so they matter for Him! Yeah! Deep thoughts but true ones :)

2. Show 4 was great at school!! Just 5 more to go woohoo! I will have about a week point five break before Fall begins. Yes I know I am applying again. While its a blast doing this weekly I am truly working on my skills and upping them as experience for a future job in radio. I think I could do this. Which is weird cause 10 years ago since I graduated from CSB I thought I was for sure into tv and didnt care as much for radio. Mind you was I greatly disappointed when the school closed before I got a demo for my radio and left with whatever I had and nothing else. SO this is my big chance. I will try to do the TV thing one more time and I am keeping one internship I get one for tv I hope in the future. But for now radio might be more for me! I find the more I do this the more I love it the harder it will be to eventually say good bye. But hey long as I am allowed to come back I will!! :)

3. Went and saw Incrediables 2 again this time at Regal in SM. Its $7 on Tuesdays which is awesome!! Got Rubio tacos before yum. Was gonna do the GYM but time got away from us so only did the movie. I had to come home early for my show and I always get to bed late so why do I bother kidding!! But hey yeah love that film still.

4. Thursday my sister and me went off to the park with my dog. It is the one by us we do it like once a year at least. Fun to look at the water and chase the ducks and such. Saw some geese too they are HUGE compared to the ducks wow. And not so nice but funny from afar. Got slush drinks at Sonic before coming home. Yum

5. Its hard to believe 8 years ago at this time my sister and me were pushing our way across the country. It took us at least 2 extra days to leave TN for AZ. The trip was long and harsh. Different from 3 years before. Different state not going to Cali yet. We went where we were supposed to be. I always look back fondly with AZ. We learned so much about living on our own and not so much. Being closer to home. I got my internship and Mel got her first real job she loved and hated leaving. I used to question the why's like why we had to leave so fast or why I could never get a job. I know God had better plans for us. That is why just a bit over a year later we were forced to move back home. But yeah AZ I Love you miss you a lot. A year after we moved there at this time I was doing my internship still I loved so much and wanted so badly for it to turn into a real job...

Well our fridge was on the fritz for a while. But worse each day. Mainly our ice machine. So a guy came out on Tuesday to fix it. It cost a lot but would have cost more to get a new one. It was a crazy stressful day was so glad when it was over with. And we could safely disappear to our movie that night. Yup. Well have a great week everyone!! I have a few days doing stuff so that is cool. It still hot out but baring with it. My bird bath came I still take nightly and daily picts of my birdies. And love watching them all day long. Still no job but God is good and in control. And one day I will look back and realize why I had to wait so long for a new career to begin. Till next weekend stay cool and God bless you all!! :)