Well hello there. Welcome back to same thing we did last week. I mean its like the same thing each week. But things change so I cant say nothing changes. Just not a lot. Okay stuff this week yes but not much.
1. Mothers Day is today. Today it falls on the 10th which is the 14th heavenly birthday for my grandma. This year is hard. We cant do anything for mothers day we usually at least go out to eat and maybe something else. I didnt even bother asking for it off. Cause nothing is open duh. I dont have Rainbow anymore whom I miss so much. My first mothers day without my child. My mom told me I am still a mommy even if my Rainbow is gone :( Then I was wondering if she was hanging out in heaven with my grandma. Then I got all teary eyed and started crying. UGH. In heaven there will be NO tears I cannot wait for that. Being a very emotional person not crying is gonna be a big deal for me. Cause I do cry when I am happy too. But most of the time its not happy tears. Most of the time with me its sad frustrated stressed anxiety or angry tears. They are not happy most of them are not. Miss you Rainbow and Grandma. And sorry mom cant do anything today and I do work too so there is that
2. Monday I went with my good friend to the beach. We walked the strand which is the beach area by us. We walked the whole thing well most of it to the harbor and back to the where we left from. Then sat down talking while waiting for my sister. Spent near 3hrs with her. I love hanging out. I hadn't see her in person in 3 weeks. I cant wait to hug her. I miss hugs so much :( But I do love hanging out. I didnt love the sunburn I got that took nearly a week to go away. This week we might hang out I am unsure. I will check in with her and see. Or just a phone call is fine too.
3. ZOOM only one left. I miss you friends. I miss real church. I miss it. I miss it so much. Every Sunday I cry my eyes out. I get to see and know that people I love are watching too for an hour. Then go about my day and pretend I didnt do it because it never feels like church. It doesn't. I talk to these people I cry for them and some of them are my dear friends so I do love them so much. And I miss them so much. ZOOM is almost done. Then what will I do with my Thursdays? I've been doing church of some sort since last Fall. And truly since last June because I was doing the Summer book thing and took a small break then began the fall thing. I will for sure do it again if they do a women study I will for sure join it! I had fun. I am sad that we have to finish this without seeing each other. But I am praying for miracle. I am thankful for hope. And I believe we are very close to being back at church again. This month I really think we are gonna be. Just unsure for sure till it happens. Keep praying!!
4. Workouts I did 3. 2 were Zumbas I did that on Tuesday a long one and Thursday a short one. On Wednesday I did a wiifit before I went to my short 4hr work shift. And on Monday after that long walk we came home and rode bikes for the first time in years. It hurt like crap and the pain I had was there for days after. I could hardly walk normal. But it takes getting use to. It truly does. I cant wait to get in real bike shape want to hit the bike trail eventually as well :)
5. Work left this for last. I am over it all. The masks, the annoying people, the anxiety it gives me. But God is getting me through this and this is a big lesson for me. I am being force to lean on him like never before or not since 3 years ago. AND I am now leaning on the prayers of my friends to get me by too. God is using them and they are helping me and God is working it all out for good :) as he promised! Yeah God!I am also back to 5 days a week and its not going away any time soon next 3 weeks are 5 day work weeks. I just want church back so I can balance my life. And in the Fall I want my radio show back please
well that is all I can think of. Have a nice week everyone. Stay cool or whatever the weather is. I pray for miracles and things changed more by next weekend. God can do it. GOD CAN DO ANYTHING!!!! God bless you always.
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