Welcome to the last one in October. Wow! It seems like just yesterday I was planning out my shows for the month and all this halloween stuff and now we are almost to November. October hasn't been the best of months honestly but trying to be okay with it. I still am unsure how this year will end but hopeful for a good last two months!!
1. Diabetes is not fun. I am not kidding. It takes the best of my foods and drinks and steals them from me over and over again. At this point I am unsure if my foot pains or other pains are diabetes or other things as I was dealing with plenty else before diagnosed. Still I take every day with a grain of salt lightly knowing that there is a reason for all this. And in the end I truly don't need to know what it is and seeking to find it out is not the best way to handle my time and stress.
2. School this week show 9 went fine. I have one more show for this month. I am entering a show in the golden mic awards. The thing is I realize I have to do that this week last minute. And next week I have to do another air check. This semester is chugging along slowly and quickly. On top of that my NaNoWriMo is happening soon. so there is that. So yeah school done. English despite having an odd teacher and no structure I learn stuff sometimes about writing which is part of the reason I took the class. I was unsure what I was expecting when I began this class but I am keeping with it no matter what.
3. Did the GYM exactly one time last week. Ugh. But Monday I did a workout at home. I did a 45min walk through the neighborhood that resulted in me injuring again my bad knee. AND IT STILL HURTS! The gym was fun I did it all even weights. Good time for sure even if it at the end of a long day.
4. Church is going great. I am shocked at how fast a year flew by. The next Sunday after this one we celebrate a one year anniversary. Cool! There will be cake that I cant really have. Maybe I will have a very thin piece. Dang it diabetes. But yeah I love my church. I hope we get a building soon but unsure if or when that will happen.
5. Well no UE and no JOB is how I might be ending my October. I know Gods time table is different then mine. But I am screwed either way. I needed a job by beginning of November. That seemed possible when this month began and now it is almost over and that is not gonna happen. Which means I will have no money coming in mid month when my second set of bills come in. It means I will have to rely on my mom and sister to pay them. AND once they do that I am screwed after that. Its not like I have a choice. I am at the end of my credit card with amazon which I was using to buy gift cards so I could buy groceries. I am at the end of my own money totally. I am at the end of my unemployment. I feel like I am at the end of my rope. And there is no hope. But I have to remind myself that God isn't going to fail me and leave me sitting here. I have done nothing wrong to do this. And as long as I have faith and trust and stop looking around me it will be okay. How? I don't know. But I am not going to ask that just keep going. God will get me through this. IN the end that is all I have left and that is how it should be. God getting me through this day by day one step at a time.
Well ran out of things to say. This week more stuff so that good. Gym, school, plus job interview, halloween and NaNoWriMo begins in a few days. Yikes. Have a great week everyone. See you all in November and thus begins the last two months of the year. God bless you as always!!
Saturday, October 27, 2018
Saturday, October 20, 2018
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 21st 2018)
Welcome to this one and a busy one. Last week I had two things unexpected and not planned. Still had 2 relax days and plenty of excitement. How was your week? Good?
1. Monday I had my job interview with Girl Scouts. I honestly after seeing their adorable small store realized I couldn't do it. Still I went in there on full faith if this was the job God would work it out and I would like it wherever He places me. Well I doubt now its happening. Its been almost a week and no one got back to me. So while the days work, the hours work even the location (so very close to my sisters job) I will keep on trying. The shocker as an interview with the new Dollar Tree manager. We have a new store opening in November by us I mean right by us. Fresh & Easy closed like 3 or 4 years ago. This is 5min from our house. Sadly the manager wanted me to be able to set up the store including working Tuesday & Thursdays when I in school. I was willing to skip class on 2 Thursdays but I refused to skip Tuesdays. I have my show and my class. I can only skip 6 I have skipped 2 already! And I DO NOT want to miss 2 radio shows. Still if he could work around this I would miss church for two weeks. I am willing to do that if I am okay after that to not work till after. I refuse to let ANY job or ANY thing get rid of me going to church not again. NEVER again! I gave him my phone number and he claimed Friday he would call the manager to see if she would be okay if I didnt work every day. He said he would get back to me. He joked another worker could fill in on the days I cant. It all seemed to good to be true. He would call me and get me in the system. They trying to hire another 10 in the next week. I am still hopeful it might work out. But two days later and nothing from him. I called yesterday to make sure they had my phone number correct they do. I am gonna give up for now or ever on new stores. I swear its harder to get a job at a brand new store then one that is established. It seems easier when they hiring like 30 people your odds go up. And yet ever since my very first ever retail job 20 years go THIS MONTH! October 1998 I got my job that ended with me hurting my knee and then suing them. Maybe I am jinxed to never again open a store. They all want full availability till they open then its okay after. Hobby Lobby last month and now this. He said they might hire more after they open. I straight up wanted an answer "How likely that you will do that?" blink blink. Well "it depends on how many stay." In other words sorry kid if you don't get it now you won't get it then. I gotcha thanks and bye. In the end God will bring me to the right job. I just keep stressing. If I don't have a job by beginning of November I won't have enough money to pay my bills mid. And if I don't have one by mid November I won't have enough to be okay even with help from my sister and or mom. God is faithful people are not. God is control they are not. Just please pray for me. I just wish UE hadn't run out like that and I could just be looking for work as I can. Winco new grocery store opening could have been a third interview maybe next week. They called me Thursday I called them back on Friday and she said I will call you in 15min back she never did and not on Saturday either. And that kids is all folks.
2. School is going alright. I did show 8 on Tuesday. And some how before I was able to put together 3 liners due on Thursday. And my manger liked them enough yeah! So that is done. And show 8 was great. English is going well. I Learn a lot. I am getting nervous as we approach mid month and I haven't thought up my idea for my book yet for NaNoWriMo. I actually have just 10 days left to figure this out. GULP GULP. I have never not had an idea I have had crap ideas that drag along and make me want to say good bye world. I have ideas that are great and fly by I don't even struggle. The more busy I am the more easier it is to write them the harder it is to come up with one. Been doing this 10 years now! I began this in 2008 I have always written my novels. 10 plus going strong. COME ON BRAIN!
3. Did the GYM just once last week and only 20min. It was emotional as we ended up at my old gym next to my former job. BRU looks exactly the same. Except its not in business anymore. The store from the outside appears to be open except no cars there no lights nothing. Of course its a dead shell nothing in there. Life stollen from it for 6 months now. Gad I miss it! But yeah Gym was nice but quick sad it our only time. I did a small workout at home but just on Saturday best I could. I need to locate my batteries to start using my wii board again. After the GYM we did this diabetes thing that wasn't what we thought. IT was more like here is a bunch information about how much diabetes sucks and now come pay money to get help to not have diabetes anymore to "reverse" it. We got a free meal from Spaghetti Factory sure but waited for it for 2 hours time we got it my stomach was in knots. And their dressing on their salads at the beginning was like soup IT SO GROSS!
4. Wednesday unexpected we joined my parents and sister and my dads cousins 4 total for breakfast at Beach Break. Sure I couldn't have too much pancakes and took a lot home. I even bought my sugar free syrup. But that omelette was AMAZING. It was and odd thing. But they are family and my family is leaving me in pieces as we get older. So I appreciate family no matter what and who they are anymore.
5. The 18th marks 3 years since our dear sweet Maggie cat went to heaven. I am unsure if I will ever see her again. But man I miss her. I miss her crazy and keeping our room insane. All she had. The worst part of this is we don't know what killed her so quickly. I feel bad we lost her so young and the end of her life was painful and quick. It was just horrible. RIP Maggie
Hard to believe its been a month since I was diagnosed with diabetes. A life changing thing. I am still learning so much and being depressed sometimes too. But in the end the doctors don't control me Jesus does. And that is where my fait lies in Him not them. This week is very little going on and I am pretty sure it won't change. See you next weekend. Have a good one. And God Bless you!
1. Monday I had my job interview with Girl Scouts. I honestly after seeing their adorable small store realized I couldn't do it. Still I went in there on full faith if this was the job God would work it out and I would like it wherever He places me. Well I doubt now its happening. Its been almost a week and no one got back to me. So while the days work, the hours work even the location (so very close to my sisters job) I will keep on trying. The shocker as an interview with the new Dollar Tree manager. We have a new store opening in November by us I mean right by us. Fresh & Easy closed like 3 or 4 years ago. This is 5min from our house. Sadly the manager wanted me to be able to set up the store including working Tuesday & Thursdays when I in school. I was willing to skip class on 2 Thursdays but I refused to skip Tuesdays. I have my show and my class. I can only skip 6 I have skipped 2 already! And I DO NOT want to miss 2 radio shows. Still if he could work around this I would miss church for two weeks. I am willing to do that if I am okay after that to not work till after. I refuse to let ANY job or ANY thing get rid of me going to church not again. NEVER again! I gave him my phone number and he claimed Friday he would call the manager to see if she would be okay if I didnt work every day. He said he would get back to me. He joked another worker could fill in on the days I cant. It all seemed to good to be true. He would call me and get me in the system. They trying to hire another 10 in the next week. I am still hopeful it might work out. But two days later and nothing from him. I called yesterday to make sure they had my phone number correct they do. I am gonna give up for now or ever on new stores. I swear its harder to get a job at a brand new store then one that is established. It seems easier when they hiring like 30 people your odds go up. And yet ever since my very first ever retail job 20 years go THIS MONTH! October 1998 I got my job that ended with me hurting my knee and then suing them. Maybe I am jinxed to never again open a store. They all want full availability till they open then its okay after. Hobby Lobby last month and now this. He said they might hire more after they open. I straight up wanted an answer "How likely that you will do that?" blink blink. Well "it depends on how many stay." In other words sorry kid if you don't get it now you won't get it then. I gotcha thanks and bye. In the end God will bring me to the right job. I just keep stressing. If I don't have a job by beginning of November I won't have enough money to pay my bills mid. And if I don't have one by mid November I won't have enough to be okay even with help from my sister and or mom. God is faithful people are not. God is control they are not. Just please pray for me. I just wish UE hadn't run out like that and I could just be looking for work as I can. Winco new grocery store opening could have been a third interview maybe next week. They called me Thursday I called them back on Friday and she said I will call you in 15min back she never did and not on Saturday either. And that kids is all folks.
2. School is going alright. I did show 8 on Tuesday. And some how before I was able to put together 3 liners due on Thursday. And my manger liked them enough yeah! So that is done. And show 8 was great. English is going well. I Learn a lot. I am getting nervous as we approach mid month and I haven't thought up my idea for my book yet for NaNoWriMo. I actually have just 10 days left to figure this out. GULP GULP. I have never not had an idea I have had crap ideas that drag along and make me want to say good bye world. I have ideas that are great and fly by I don't even struggle. The more busy I am the more easier it is to write them the harder it is to come up with one. Been doing this 10 years now! I began this in 2008 I have always written my novels. 10 plus going strong. COME ON BRAIN!
3. Did the GYM just once last week and only 20min. It was emotional as we ended up at my old gym next to my former job. BRU looks exactly the same. Except its not in business anymore. The store from the outside appears to be open except no cars there no lights nothing. Of course its a dead shell nothing in there. Life stollen from it for 6 months now. Gad I miss it! But yeah Gym was nice but quick sad it our only time. I did a small workout at home but just on Saturday best I could. I need to locate my batteries to start using my wii board again. After the GYM we did this diabetes thing that wasn't what we thought. IT was more like here is a bunch information about how much diabetes sucks and now come pay money to get help to not have diabetes anymore to "reverse" it. We got a free meal from Spaghetti Factory sure but waited for it for 2 hours time we got it my stomach was in knots. And their dressing on their salads at the beginning was like soup IT SO GROSS!
4. Wednesday unexpected we joined my parents and sister and my dads cousins 4 total for breakfast at Beach Break. Sure I couldn't have too much pancakes and took a lot home. I even bought my sugar free syrup. But that omelette was AMAZING. It was and odd thing. But they are family and my family is leaving me in pieces as we get older. So I appreciate family no matter what and who they are anymore.
5. The 18th marks 3 years since our dear sweet Maggie cat went to heaven. I am unsure if I will ever see her again. But man I miss her. I miss her crazy and keeping our room insane. All she had. The worst part of this is we don't know what killed her so quickly. I feel bad we lost her so young and the end of her life was painful and quick. It was just horrible. RIP Maggie
Hard to believe its been a month since I was diagnosed with diabetes. A life changing thing. I am still learning so much and being depressed sometimes too. But in the end the doctors don't control me Jesus does. And that is where my fait lies in Him not them. This week is very little going on and I am pretty sure it won't change. See you next weekend. Have a good one. And God Bless you!
Saturday, October 13, 2018
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 14th 2018)
Welcome welcome. What a week it has been since I last did an update. How was your week? I wasn't busy but still kept busy. And I am still without a job come 6 months later since my job closed.
1. UE decided to boot me. That was my news on Sunday of last week. I was checking to see if I got paid only to see my money is out. Not only is it out I cant get more. AND my last check was $13 less than my last one. IDK why the following: I didnt pay attention & why they did this. Then I recalled in 2013 last time I had a year of UE. It wasn't really a year. They renewed it half way through. End of 2013 California VOTED yes you heard that right VOTED to cancel out extensions. I had no idea 5 years later I would be in the same situation. So now I have about a month till I am completely out of money. I can make it till mid November. Including all my savings left from my tax return I was trying to not save. I wanna kinda give up on saving. I swear. I was saving $25 a month then I had to stop that when school began for my sprinter pass. THEN they raised the price so all the money I saved all year went to my passes all year. Now the rest of my savings is going away. All $350 is what I will be surviving on once my UE runs out in a few weeks. God willing this won't matter much longer and I will have a job. But at this point I am unsure if I will and when. But God has never failed me and His timing is perfect. A piece of me hopes there is a reason it ran out and I don't have work and this is God showing me that He is in control of the whole situation and a job will appear just in the nick of time. I have been faithful in all this tithing my 10% every two weeks and being the best I can at taking care of what I have. I believe God won't fail me I believe He knows the timing. And of course while this was a true SHOCK to me it was not to Him.
2. Diabetes week 3. My sister just signed me up for a talk thingy next week I will update then. In the mean time I am still learning to live without my beloved carbs and sugar. I admitted a week ago on facebook that I have this. I am unsure why it took this long. I think the shock has gone away and I have accepted it finally so I can move on. I feel bad for my sister too. She refuses to get tested while hoping she doesn't have it. I was shopping with her on Thursday and I am like I am sorry I made you check labels now too. I am like when did this begin. She goes 3 weeks ago. Gulp guilty. You just don't get till you are in this situation how much you eat sugar and carbs and how it affects you. I am still trying to move every day in every way possible. I discover more and more sugarless fun like Russel Stover has some AMAZING sugarless candy. Yum. But I am nervous too. I feel like I'm not losing weight. And that in 2 months my failure will be not getting my blood sugar down my A1C. I am nervous as crap for something that is 2 months away. Did I mention stress is bad for blood sugar too?
3. We had a big rain storm thunder lightning and windy on Friday night. WOW it was crazy. I was back in another state again. I turned off the lights to watch the show for a few minutes till my heart pounded so heart I thought I would have a heart attack. It was so cool. God is so awesome!!!! I loved it loved it. But was glad it over yesterday. I could go outside take pictures of birds and put up the bird feeder cause it cleared up. Stars and all that jazz. So rain is gone now and warmer next week. Welcome to Fall in California haha ;)
4. GYM did it only once last week. We wanted to do it twice like on Tuesday and also maybe three times on Saturday. But sister working and exhausting. I cant keep making excuses though. Maybe twice next week? Maybe!! But yeah love gym. Hate I forgot my shoes at home so I had to wear those slip on ones from Rite Aid that hurt my feet like nothing else especially after they off me.
5. School only there on Tuesday because our teacher lost his father. SO no class on Thursday. I did my show 7 fine as can be no problems it was great!! Followed it up with my air check which was nerve racking but glad that done. I have another one in a month. Lots to fix on my show. And try to submit my best two shows for a possible award that goes on next year in March. I am excited. I hope I win. But going to New York if they pay for it WOW that would be the best!!!! :)
Well that is all for now. In spite of all that my sister paid for us to go to the NKOTB concert next May. Its far away but cant way to see them and a few other great 80s groups in person. Wow. Well have a nice week. I have an interview school picking up refill on my meds the diabetes thing and hopefully gym time. But at least the weather will be behave I think. Till then good day all. God bless you!!
1. UE decided to boot me. That was my news on Sunday of last week. I was checking to see if I got paid only to see my money is out. Not only is it out I cant get more. AND my last check was $13 less than my last one. IDK why the following: I didnt pay attention & why they did this. Then I recalled in 2013 last time I had a year of UE. It wasn't really a year. They renewed it half way through. End of 2013 California VOTED yes you heard that right VOTED to cancel out extensions. I had no idea 5 years later I would be in the same situation. So now I have about a month till I am completely out of money. I can make it till mid November. Including all my savings left from my tax return I was trying to not save. I wanna kinda give up on saving. I swear. I was saving $25 a month then I had to stop that when school began for my sprinter pass. THEN they raised the price so all the money I saved all year went to my passes all year. Now the rest of my savings is going away. All $350 is what I will be surviving on once my UE runs out in a few weeks. God willing this won't matter much longer and I will have a job. But at this point I am unsure if I will and when. But God has never failed me and His timing is perfect. A piece of me hopes there is a reason it ran out and I don't have work and this is God showing me that He is in control of the whole situation and a job will appear just in the nick of time. I have been faithful in all this tithing my 10% every two weeks and being the best I can at taking care of what I have. I believe God won't fail me I believe He knows the timing. And of course while this was a true SHOCK to me it was not to Him.
2. Diabetes week 3. My sister just signed me up for a talk thingy next week I will update then. In the mean time I am still learning to live without my beloved carbs and sugar. I admitted a week ago on facebook that I have this. I am unsure why it took this long. I think the shock has gone away and I have accepted it finally so I can move on. I feel bad for my sister too. She refuses to get tested while hoping she doesn't have it. I was shopping with her on Thursday and I am like I am sorry I made you check labels now too. I am like when did this begin. She goes 3 weeks ago. Gulp guilty. You just don't get till you are in this situation how much you eat sugar and carbs and how it affects you. I am still trying to move every day in every way possible. I discover more and more sugarless fun like Russel Stover has some AMAZING sugarless candy. Yum. But I am nervous too. I feel like I'm not losing weight. And that in 2 months my failure will be not getting my blood sugar down my A1C. I am nervous as crap for something that is 2 months away. Did I mention stress is bad for blood sugar too?
3. We had a big rain storm thunder lightning and windy on Friday night. WOW it was crazy. I was back in another state again. I turned off the lights to watch the show for a few minutes till my heart pounded so heart I thought I would have a heart attack. It was so cool. God is so awesome!!!! I loved it loved it. But was glad it over yesterday. I could go outside take pictures of birds and put up the bird feeder cause it cleared up. Stars and all that jazz. So rain is gone now and warmer next week. Welcome to Fall in California haha ;)
4. GYM did it only once last week. We wanted to do it twice like on Tuesday and also maybe three times on Saturday. But sister working and exhausting. I cant keep making excuses though. Maybe twice next week? Maybe!! But yeah love gym. Hate I forgot my shoes at home so I had to wear those slip on ones from Rite Aid that hurt my feet like nothing else especially after they off me.
5. School only there on Tuesday because our teacher lost his father. SO no class on Thursday. I did my show 7 fine as can be no problems it was great!! Followed it up with my air check which was nerve racking but glad that done. I have another one in a month. Lots to fix on my show. And try to submit my best two shows for a possible award that goes on next year in March. I am excited. I hope I win. But going to New York if they pay for it WOW that would be the best!!!! :)
Well that is all for now. In spite of all that my sister paid for us to go to the NKOTB concert next May. Its far away but cant way to see them and a few other great 80s groups in person. Wow. Well have a nice week. I have an interview school picking up refill on my meds the diabetes thing and hopefully gym time. But at least the weather will be behave I think. Till then good day all. God bless you!!
Sunday, October 7, 2018
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 7th 2018)
Welcome to October!!!! How was your week? Hope it was well. Mine was slow but still did stuff
1. School show 6 was actually good for school. Sure I was working no my air check stuff for next week so I almost got late. But yeah show 6 was excellent. I almost might enter this in the contest this month. Maybe shall see! Regular school so that is good too.
2. GYM did that on Monday. Did that and also got pizza that I made last all week. Fun stuff. But yeah that was the only time we did the GYM but oh well.
3. On days after school Tuesday I went to 2 shops. And Thursday I went downtown. I was having an off day on Thursday but still did that. Then came home. So that was my after school fun.
4. Saturday did the bird thing again. I guess its back on and that is cool too. Saw a few birds not a lot but the norm with my hummingbirds too. Even went to the park after and got a few more which was fun.
5. Got in a car accident on Saturday no joke! This is my 2nd time being in one where we hit from the back. Zero fun btw. Also my diabetes and me continue the journey. Best I can I guess.
Well have a nice week. No big plans this one. Hope you all have a good one. See you all next weekend again!!!!
1. School show 6 was actually good for school. Sure I was working no my air check stuff for next week so I almost got late. But yeah show 6 was excellent. I almost might enter this in the contest this month. Maybe shall see! Regular school so that is good too.
2. GYM did that on Monday. Did that and also got pizza that I made last all week. Fun stuff. But yeah that was the only time we did the GYM but oh well.
3. On days after school Tuesday I went to 2 shops. And Thursday I went downtown. I was having an off day on Thursday but still did that. Then came home. So that was my after school fun.
4. Saturday did the bird thing again. I guess its back on and that is cool too. Saw a few birds not a lot but the norm with my hummingbirds too. Even went to the park after and got a few more which was fun.
5. Got in a car accident on Saturday no joke! This is my 2nd time being in one where we hit from the back. Zero fun btw. Also my diabetes and me continue the journey. Best I can I guess.
Well have a nice week. No big plans this one. Hope you all have a good one. See you all next weekend again!!!!
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