The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 3rd 2021)

Welcome to October. How on earth are we now just 3 months left of this year? Crazy talk! Well hope you had a good week! Mine was okay...

1. Work busy this week but I didnt work 5 days I only worked 4 :) SO there is that. Nothing changed much since our meeting. Idk even why we had one. They still leave us alone they still take us they still do what they gotta do. I need to get a new job idk when but soon. I do not want to be past there past this holiday season this will be my last I vow for that one.

2. Gym did it twice. We did it on Monday & on Friday. Fun. Love my gym time. Also did two walks this week. I wanted to do another couple like Tuesday and Friday but did not happen. Oh well I tried in my heart I tried. 

3. Church was fun one last time at the seabird. It was beautiful. If it wasn't so hard to find parking I would keep going there. But we are on to our new place next Sunday woohoo. And we get to be there for up to 3 years. So I am hopeful that we will be out of there in our own new building way before that. Yup. I love my church. Friends I missed came back. So happy :) Thursday got to go to my little study group. I will never stop wishing we could just all meet together. Why oh why. But I also love the ones I am with and I am thankful that God provided a way for me and my ride to attend again and again and again. Next week our first food meeting not Word of God meeting so that will be fun. I haven't ever done one. I will forever be sad I didnt try to do this when I had the BIG group in 2019 and 2020. I was gonna do it once and then covid hit we went online and it never happened :( 

4. Grandmas birthday was Wednesday. Grateful my job gave it to me off. So we blew bubbles to heaven. I still miss doing our balloons. But yeah we do this instead. We also went to Dunkin Donuts before we did that for no reason at all. 16 years since she last celebrated and been gone for 15 years. I still miss her so much and I cant wait to see her in heaven one day soon. 

5. Tuesday I had my deep cleaning for my dental appointment fun stuff. Not really. I am grateful not as bad as I thought and I didnt lose a crown or filling for real yo so glad. I come back in 3 months to keep this up and I better keep it up and not need more than a cheaper visit. Yes. Hopeful I can pay for it on my own not have to use my credit card. I got my first of 6 neck therapies on Thursday. It was then that I noticed my neck moves better and less pain. I think the injections are working thank you God just slowly and taking their time. Which means come November I can kiss my workmenscomp good bye with a good mind and know it will be okay. I cant get my shoulder therapy till sometime in November I made it so dang complicated by switching to True Care for no reason. So I can make an appointment but till I am officially back with them at my other place I cant get it approved. And then my insurance has to run it and well I think it could be end of November before I see them for real again :( 

Well that was a busy week. This week not so much. But hey thats fun for next time. Have a blessed week. God bless you. See you next weekend!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 26th 2021)

 Last week in September for real. Sorry this is late kids I got busy last weekend and that is how it goes sometimes...on time next time fingers crossed!

1. Work this past week busy busy. Yes I worked my full 5 days total. Friday was the busiest. I had to go to a meeting that I didnt technically get paid for. Fun. I had to be at work at 8am when I didnt work till 11am. So 3 hours early. Then our meeting an hour long so she told me dont clock in till 12pm. She fixed it so I still got paid for the meeting but then I worked less therefore I didn't get paid for the meeting. Not a lot was said and I knew not a lot was going to change and not shocking nothing did. Ugh. I'm still tired from that. I was at work and in the area for 12 hours. I killed time 9 to 12 walked got food and just shopped in my store for stuff not much. So yeah work busy same old same old. Heard we getting a raise again cause they killing our bonus checks after December but not seen that yet. Hopeful for next check fingers crossed

2. Church beautiful we at the park this time last week that is. Our place was too busy to park by. Never did church in the park. Whenever they did it I avoided it before covid I had no family and no one but me so I would skip church that Sunday. So we all went. My dear friend is moving to Texas for good and I wont see her till November she is coming for a short visit. So I said good bye cried a bit and took pictures with her. :( did my little small group again on Thursday but its unsure how much longer I can go. My ride doesn't have a baby sitter and so she cant go for 2 months starting this coming week. So if she cant go I cant go. We praying about this. Also need a new place soon to meet as our place to meet is gonna go away. Unsure what going to happen. Giving it to God is all we can do!

3. Workouts did the gym once. Was gonna go on Friday but after me being at work that long and feeling like I dying we skipped ugh. Oh well. I did two walks too Tuesday and Thursday fun times.

4. I did the chiropractor for the 3rd time and had enough money for two more times. Unsure when I coming back. But that happened. My neck is still a mess I am unsure if that injection doing what I wanted and heard it would do again. God has me I just dont get why they dont work like they should with me maybe my diabetes. Ugh. After the chiropractor I got some pains back at the injection site again. After we did the peacocks and it was sad. Sure we saw two babies but one of the twins we saw two weeks ago is gone guess it died or something sadness :( unsure when we going back not this week for sure.

5. My mental health is just a mess I cant get anywhere with my list. Tuesday I had a bad hyperventilating moment when they said at TC they wont let me pay out of pocket. I then tried a list I found online and its all I had left and no one worked out on Thursday. So both days were VERY VERY BAD for me. Thursday last minute I called back VCC and now I have an evaluation on October 12th and then I realized after I made it thats the 2 year anniversary of Rainbows death. I will prepare for it best I can make a list and stuff. But its on the phone or computer and that wont be fun I wish it was in person. I hate COVID so much sometimes. I really do. 

Okay we in October this week crazy. See you all next weekend. Have a blessed week!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 19th 2021)

 Welcome welcome. How was your week. Mine was okay but not so okay too anyways...

1. Worked only 3 days this past week. Yup it was a nice not really little vacation but still not a bad time off too. Ha. Work busy. And I came back after 4 days I was like um yeah. So we have new people two new people!! And some days we have enough people other days we dont have enough. But yeah I had a nice time off work :)

2. Gym did it just ONCE wah. Oh well. We went on Monday. I did a lot of walks this week though. 3 total. One on Tuesday Wednesday and Thursday. Yes I did that was nice. So I miss the gym. Back to twice a week this coming week...

3. Church was beautiful on Sunday. Lots of hugs and love. Sure a few people I love were not there :( but they will be back soon I hope! So yeah I love my church. Thought we done at seabird but we get to come back in two weeks so that is one last time. Thursday began small groups. I'm kinda sad and miss all the other ladies. We got a nice group of 5 total maybe 6 if the other gal comes next week. But I do miss everyone else. So this will be an odd thing all the way till next May ...

4. Friday celebrated my sisters 35th birthday my youngest. I was off work. First me and my other sister did the beach one last time for the Summer. Got a wee bit sunburnt. Then had fun with my sister ate fish and fries bubbles and ice cream.  Happy Birthday little sister.

5. Wednesday was not my funnest day. I went to the doctor haven't seen since my injection two weeks ago. My neck is not better yet. I am not saying its not a bit better. I think its some sorta slow process with burning my nerves. Well we arent there yet. And now wont see him again for 10 more weeks! He wants more therapy so unsure when that will start up. 

ALSO THIS WEEK...

Two things both bad. Tuesday I found out that Palomar will now require ALL students to be vaccinated to come back on campus. Which means I just kissed good bye my radio show for good :( Also Friday the lady that was helping me but not really helping me at True Care pretty much said screw you. So now I gotta start over for my mental health issues at the place in Carlsbad I was avoiding. Its stressing me out so much having to start over after nearly 2 months of trying to get this going. I have forgiven the lady I will forgive her again. She IMO could have helped me more. And she just didnt want to. So she gave up on me and now I am back to ground zero. I want to give up but several things keeping me going: I promised my good friend I would get help, I promised myself I would get help no matter how hard it is is, I know God wants me to get help still AND I have several supportive friends and more because I didnt tell them all yet that are rooting for me and praying for me. So I really just cant just give up. I want to to but I am not going to. Just so hard and so exhausting doing this back to zero again :(

Well have a nice week. This one I work all my days next week and the following time off will get me down to 4 each week. But we have a raise coming I think for work so that should help maybe. God bless you till next time see you then :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 12th 2021)

Good morning. What a weird long week its been so much happened. I might give this another few points this time as a bonus beware. We had a weird thunder and lightning storm on Thursday night. Pretty crazy and cool! I loved it! Glad for no rain. But yeah it was pretty awesome God is so awesome. I stand in awe of God and storms like this remind me of who I serve and love forever. :) 

1. Work is busy busy. I worked 40hrs this past week I haven't done that in a while. Which was super nice and great no complaining. Well I can complain. Last weekend was painful. Labor Day painful. It was busy as crap the whole weekend 4 days ugh. Only suck of the week came Monday our usual Chickfla trip ruined when they closed 2 hours before we got there :( well 2 hours early but an hour before we got there  :( :( drive for nothing. 

2. Church was great of course. I am grateful a few came. Was sad though cause most everyone was down an hour from here camping or doing a day trip. I could not travel down there for just that. I mean if I wasn't working. Maybe I should have worked harder to not work. But then talking my sister into going down there would have been painful too. Some days I wish I drove so much and then I remind myself all the work to get into driving and go back to living like I am... so will be glad this week back to regular church again :)

3. GYM did it twice Monday & Friday. Monday I felt like death and we got there late so we barely there. Friday I felt funky too but not same reason. Not much of a workout each time. But there you go. Walks I did them both on Tuesday & Thursday there you go. I love me walks. Both in the morning not in the evening. 

4. Tuesday was my dads birthday. Yes we did go out to eat with him. Not to some fancy place but this little restaurant I went to once before with my good friend months ago. So that was that. It was a fun time. Then I discovered someone had got my debit card info and had to report card fraud. Zero fun btw zero. Thank God I got it resolved and taken care of yesterday I got both my new card and my money back. But sometimes evil people suck and people who steal really do suck ugh.  Thursday went to the peacock place had fun saw 3 babies total which was a big blessing. Yes it was. So there you go!

5. Its been 10 years since my sister and me moved back to California. I think I spent a good several months without saying it upset with God. Because God did bring us back for reasons at the time I didnt get. I was never allowed to get a job there and if I had maybe we would still be there. I am unsure hard to say. I have a blessed life in oceanside so much good has come from our move back. But at the time forced to live back here with our parents was not an easy pill to swallow. We had been free for 4 years and the only way I wanted to maybe move back was on my own or married not back with our parents. 10 years later I dont think I will ever move back out again unless I get married. California is way too expensive and I dont see me ever leaving the state again. But there you go. Reflections 10 years later.

BONUS

6. Yesterday marked 20 years since 9/11. I cant help but recall so much. I will never forget that day. How I found out first from my mom from the bus driver for my sister. How we watched the tower fall while I in government class at school. Then we had chapel where we cried and prayed and worshipped. And cancelled classes. I went home and watched tv a lot. I watched the news a lot those days on repeat all the time. So much pain but so much togetherness as a nation. We came together. I thought the rapture would happen very soon and for a while was really into those groups that try to predict it. But you cant btw. I went on a mission trip in May 2002 and got to see ground zero, so much pain and loss and spread Gods love. I will never ever forget 9/11. You can be I wont ever stop recalling. But a good half my life time now its hard to believe its been that long. Wow

This week will be a bit more busy and a bit not. I am not working much actually more about that next week. Another birthday, doctors appointment and we begin our fall bible study. Well have a blessed week everyone!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 5th 2021)

Welcome to September!! This month has so much going on birthday wise I mean haha. My dad, my sister and my grandma (in heaven). Fall is coming wow crazy is that. Other things too. What are you excited about this month?

1. Church was beautiful Sunday. I prayed for lots of hugs I got lots of hugs. Some hugs several from same people NO COMPLAINING! These arms of mine were made for hugging. I am extra sad we are not gonna all be together next Sunday. Some are going camping including our pastor and his wife and my dear friend. Some other might go too. I am split. I mean if I was going I would miss everyone from church not there. But since I'm not going I am gonna miss everyone going to it. I gave more hugs then usual. I love my church. We are just about two weeks from beginning small groups I am unsure if I will do them but shall see. I'm gonna try them out once at least I think...

2. Work busy this week but not as much. Only worked 4 of my 5 shifts due to my procedure. And my co worker is sadly away for someone dying soon :( so yeah work is busy busy. I am glad to work more hours. I am hopeful after next week when I only work 3 times on purpose they keep giving me 40hrs a week!! Oh yes please please please. 

3. Gym did it ONCE this week ONCE sadness. Oh well. At least we went. Only on Wednesday before my shift at work. I did two walks Tuesday night and Thursday morning. I felt like crap Tuesday night I should not have gone I guess. But Thursday was a good walk :) 

4. Barely getting anywhere with my issue with my insurance. On Tuesday I had an appointment I cancelled because now I am with TC not VCC. So I am now moving my records over to TC as my permanent doctor. I had a good run with VCC since 2013 till now. Oh well. I am working with my insurance to hopefully get my paperwork sent over that my insurance will cover my appointment on October 5th. Ugh. 

5. Monday I had my latest injection. They burned my nerves in my neck to prevent pain. It will take up to two weeks so I should know by time I see doctor again that it did or didnt work. I am praying it does work oh please. So that was on Monday. I am still in pain and healing from it. Ugh. So just praying its worth it. 

Well there you go. This week is less stuff but our first of two birthdays. Labor Day. And life going on. God bless :)