The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 21st 2022)

Welcome welcome to another fun filled week.  How was your week? Mine was okay

1. Work is busy busy as usual. But we more short handed, again, so I'm more stressed out. I have been taking my anxiety pills a lot more than usual for me. Like one every time I worked last weekend. And even this week. I am counting down till my vacation we are so very close indeed closer every week for sure :) I did have visitors this week friends that left church I haven't seen some in many months. So happy both Monday & Wednesday for hugs, pictures and lots of talking :) I welcome anyone who wants to come shop and talk to me. It makes my day :) 

2. Church was wonderful on Sunday. So fun and full of life and hugs. I always work hard each Sunday to carry my love of church to me with work. Does it work. Not always. But I do try. So yes I still very much love my church.

3. Did a beach trip on Tuesday after our cleaning. Our mom joined us. We debated but decided on our usual beach. Sadly like 2 weeks ago the rocks were harsh and the tide high. So we got our feet beat up. Yup. But this fatigue is no joke and its not gone not yet ugh

4. I did a small walk on Thursday very tiny. I walked around the block. Took me about 10 min. I walked slow but it still wore me out just like I thought. That didnt make me happy. My fatigue is still so harsh. I cant power walk without having a coughing fit. My fatigue this cough this covid stuff isn't fun almost a month since I got free from it. I will try again next week maybe the same thing just around the block till I get better and can do more like I used to. And I didnt even walk that much just not this little either. Sigh

5. Therapy was good on Thursday. Once again I talked about only one thing but that wasn't my plan. I mean I talked about other stuff but we ended up mostly talking about one of my bigger issues. So deep. I both love and hate therapy all at once. But I will keep doing it long as I need to so that could be rest of my life at this point...

Been so hot in our area. How are you doing? Summer is winding down. I enjoy the light later and will miss it in the Fall. But I could use a bit less heat. Have a good week. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 14th 2022)

Welcome. Hope you had a fab week. Mine was *okay* not much just *okay*

1. Work back to work is busy busy. I began back after two days off. And back we are. With less and less of us again. My anxiety is sky rocketing bad. I am not doing so well. Idk what is happening. Less then 2 weeks till my appointment with the endocrinologist. I look forward to what I will learn till then. I work and I pray and I carry on best I can. 

2. Did the beach once this week. Not a bad time. Sure I got sunburnt again ugh. But yeah had a fun time. Love our breakfast. The beach better this time. And had a bit more time this time too. I love living by the beach. We having a hot summer so beach time once a week is a MUST

3. My fatigue and energy are still too harsh for a walk. I will see maybe next week. I walk around work but its not the same thing. I do MISS my walks. I will see how I'm doing in a week and maybe just maybe begin to walk again. Wish me luck haha

4. Church beautiful on Sunday. Love and hugs. SO much. I love my church. I really do. I am grateful every day I get to go there and everyday God grows me with my church. I learn so much still. I just love it. GOD is SO good!!

5. We are 4 weeks from vacation. I am super excited for this coming up. I need a break tbh from life at home and work. My usual stresses its just no fun. God has me. Its okay. We still taking Jackie on walks and trying to begin to plan plan plan. 4 weeks from today we will be on our way WOOHOO!!

A slow week for me again. I miss book studies they kinda made me week. Sure I have cleaning and beach time but not same time. Yup. Have a good week. God bless you!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 7th 2022)

 Welcome to August. I had a busy week but less work how fun right

1. Worked only Sunday, Monday and Wednesday since I last wrote. I was off Friday & Saturday for stuff. Work is so stressful. Yet for some reason I was missing it on Friday. I think maybe I like to be stressed or something. Or was I just missing my co workers. I think we will go with that. Cause work is zero fun. Some days we have enough up there other days its just me closing which happened twice this week :( Ugh! 

2. On Tuesday after we cleaned a bit my sister and me went to the beach. We didnt get much time but at the same time it was enough. To be beat up by rocks cause thats all on the sand and the tide high. We enjoyed breakfast first yes yum. And even got a wee bit sunburnt. Our first time back since having c*vid. Which isn't gone btw the extras still hang onto me like nothing else. They come and go. Worse and better. Beach was fun. Just wish we didnt get so beat up by rocks! And I love rocks! LOL. After we got dinner at the fish place at the harbor before heading home. But trust me with this fatigue the beach and cleaning exhausted me so much I barely did anything else after I got home. Yawn.

3. Therapy on Thursday. We still dealing with me. I have been SUPER emotional this week. Idk what is causing it. Like everyday I'm crying some. I gotta keep an EYE on this for my next appointment with my psychiatrist cause I dont think this means my double dose of prozac is bad but I think I'm still adjusting too. Then again maybe this is my hormonal imbalance I know I have. Anyways. My last thing I talked to her about and I have decided to talk more in two weeks is verbal abuse that I had as a kid. I knew I was having it happen but I couldn't stop it. I know its affected me as an adult. I wish at times it was just one thing that happened in my childhood it was so much more. I spent so many years running from that without knowing how much my childhood was influencing my adulthood. How many relationships I have probably played a big part in wrecking because of issues I had that I had never dealt with. Working on me will be a long journey. I am grateful for the support of my friends and my sister who keep me going, God always healing me and the courage that comes from God to keep seeking more help. I am not gonna stop and I am gonna work on me as long as it takes. Jesus heal me please. Thank you!

4. Church Sunday was beautiful again. I love my hugs I love my friends. I loved the message it was right on point. I now know an answer that I never knew. If someone says "Why does God allow bad stuff to happen to good people" I will be "cause there are NO good people" and yes that includes every person on earth believers and not. The difference is Jesus paid the price for all and the believers not perfect at all have Jesus standing in the path and changing us. Christians are perfect just forgiven. 

5. So I had Friday off for my parents 44th anniversary. They went out and ate food and had fun. I watched my youngest sister. And later went to my rock thing with the church while my other sister watched my youngest sister. I had so much fun. Such a blessing. Thankful to God I have yet to miss a rock painting I do them every time even if I miss other events church might do. So fun :) Saturday I didnt do much either. Mainly a walk in the evening with my sister and a car drive to get our cat Jackie ready for our trip in just 5 weeks (from tomorrow) I'm counting down to our trip now :) 

Have a blessed week. Mine is more back to normal this time not a lot planned. But I guess that is okay too.  God bless you :)