The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 28th 2021)

Welcome to the last one of these for the month of November. Sorry in advance I took too long to put it up. I got busy and tired oops. My bad!

1. Church was beautiful. I love my church. I love talking to people, hugging people, praying with people. I love how beautiful it is to go there. I might regret the fact I took so long to talk to people at church. But sometimes I think its well worth the wait. Like all good things are worth the wait. I love love love my church :) 

2. Workouts not much. We skipped the gym again for like the third week in a row gulp. With good reason for later in the week... But I did two walks this week Tuesday & Wednesday. Fun times. I love my walks around the neighborhood. Woohoo

3. Wednesday wasn't the best day. I went to the doctor and I was told what I dreaded to hear. What I haven't even accepted almost a week later at writing this. My neck is permanent and stationary. It wont get better! My knee is that since 1999. Now my neck. But God But God can still heal me. He can! He can still heal me. So I know God may heal me. I am unsure if he will fully. But I trust him. And I need to recall this and trust him for what comes next. Either settlement praying for this. And it being a GOOD amount that I can save and put towards the chiropractor in the future. If its open then I must need more care or something else. My co worker said I need to get it writing for lifetime care. They will care for me all my life. Idk why I got this injury Idk why this is what happened. I just know that at almost 42 I now have a forever neck injury :( God help me please and thanks!

4. Work busy but less with no Wednesday. My check wont be so fun next time. But necessary day off. But yeah I survived Black Friday. I survived working. I had some anxiety again but not as bad as it could be. 

5. Thanksgiving began much more fun then usual. With my bonus from work I got me and my sister to do the turkey trot in downtown. What fun! We walked up and down the streets of oceanside including right by the water. And got metals and shirts. Fun stuff. Then came home and cleaned and made food and ate. Wonderful time. A bit tiring but glad we did it. Sure it took me days to recover. But yeah fun time.

Have a good week. See you all next weekend. I vow to actually do this on time from now on but shall see. God bless you :) see you in December!! 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 21st 2021)

Welcome. Almost done with these. Now we in the week leading up to Thanksgiving. The holidays are very much upon us. How was your week. Mine was sad...

1. It happened a week ago well after I had put up my post we had put Rocky to rest. I didnt think it was gonna happen like it did so quickly. But it was time and it was sad. Saturday last week we said good bye to our beautiful cat Rocky. Life is just sad without him now. Jackie roams the house howling in her cat voice daily several times a day. I spend most days denial about him being gone it doesn't seem real. Now his ashes are ready and soon they will be with us. He will be home. Watching him go to sleep broke my heart. I just want him back. I miss Rainbow and now I miss Rocky. Not the same pain as 2 years ago I was in but not a fun one either :( oh Rocky we love you and miss you SO MUCH!

2. Church was extra beautiful because of the pain. I just wanted hugs so many. Most just said sorry and gave me hugs as much as I needed. I filled up on hugs and prayers and love so much love. Its hard but so much. Thursday we had our last study for 6 weeks although our group joked about meeting up once maybe during the break I think it would be fun to do an exchange of gifts. Unsure. But last time otherwise for 6 weeks :( hugs love and fun.

3. No gym last week. Too drained and sad Monday and not able to on Friday. I did do two walks Tuesday and Thursday both in the morning. I love my walks. I always do. I'm tempted this week to do THREE walks maybe just maybe.

4. Tuesday I went and got my feet looked at first time ever as a diabetic its important. My feet are just fine :) but the pain is not fine :( so I am seeing a regular doctor on the 30th hopefully get some medicine to helped out my neuropathy pains cause they are zero fun ugh. 

5. Friday between my getting ready for work I had my second therapy session by phone of course. I talked about my 3 sets of anxiety which was the prime issue I had since we last spoke. I'm unsure how helpful the session was. It left me kinda disappointed as its only 30min and left no time for my depression. Like how I wanted to kill myself and considered it on Wednesday. I am grieving I am in pain and I am depressed too. I'm looking into some stuff for me on the side past all this. I dont speak to her for 3 weeks. And I still have my appointment in two week for my psychiatrist hopeful for medicines I am sure I will get some. 99% sure yup.

Have a happy thanksgiving. See you on the other side one more of these for this month. Then onto Christmas season and birthdays we go. 1 month till I turn 42 yahoo! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 14th 2021)

Welcome to this week. Kinda like last week busy full of stuff. I just can't believe how close we are to the holidays. Thanksgiving is less then 2 weeks away. Then Christmas will be here just.like.that. How crazy!! Stay positive love Jesus and know each day is a brand new start is how we should be.

1. Oh Rocky. I start with our beautiful cat who is dying. I dont know when. We originally planned to put him to sleep on this past Wednesday. But then my sister had bad car issues on Saturday and we canceled on Monday. By Wednesday this week he looks so bad. I dont want him to suffer! But I dont want him gone! And losing him is breaking my heart all over again! So theres a good chance by time I write this next week he wont be with us anymore. He will be with God. And I will be in deep grief again. Not like Rainbow but still grieving. I am so sad :(

2. Church beautiful on Sunday. We at our new place. And friends that I haven't seen in months came back that day. I love my church. Pictures afterwards. Forgetting all things when I walk in church just happiness in Gods house happiness with my family just plain happy. Sadly we didnt get to do our weekly study. I worked hard to get a ride there and last minute they canceled our whole group meeting :( 

3. Work busy. I do not like this extra black friday sales crap. I also dont like that we are so shorthanded and yet we still suffer. My anxiety isn't happy at all ugh. 

4. Gym did it twice. Monday and again on Friday. Fun times. I also got in two walks barely but I did get in two walks. Thursday after finding out about no study I walked really far away for 45min and regrets cause of the pain after that was a lot of walking. Lol. Oh well. 

5. Did chiropractor this week haven't been back in months. She helps me. I just need to go more often I guess. I go best I can. I am glad to get help for my neck. Idk what is gonna happen at the doctor in two weeks. He has nothing left for me. I wonder if he would let me do more acupuncture I might ask him. Otherwise what else is there. Just give up and live with this pain this injury rest of my life? Sigh

Have a good week. See you next weekend. God bless you. Be safe stay positive it will be okay :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 7th 2021)

Welcome to November. Hello! 2 months to go before we done with this year crazy huh.

1. Church beautiful. My good friend surprised me just showed up not telling me she visiting so I was SUPER Happy to see her. Last time at seabird we move on to a new location next week. I also got to go this week to our small groups which was nice. Sure it wasnt the way I thought I would but we did get to go. Yeah. Love my church. 

2. Gym did it just once this week. Sadness. Oh well. But we did go. Also only one walk this week. Double sadness. But had to happen. So yeah about that....

3. Work busy busy. I worked all my shifts this week yes I did. So busy time. Work is busy. Especially on Friday for Black Friday. Will be glad when we past all this extra stuff. Being short handed not cool at all :(

4. Tuesday we went to hang out with my cousin and her son. So we got to go to the zoo in Orange County. We rode the train. He rode a pony. It was a fun little time yes it was. Love hanging out with them.

5. Its been 14 years since we moved from California to Tennessee. How we have changed since we moved away from home to live in another state. It was an adventure getting there for sure. I miss TN it was a great idea to do that move never regret it.

Have a good week. This one wont be as fun as last week. But it will be a good one. God bless you :)