Welcome. Almost done with these. Now we in the week leading up to Thanksgiving. The holidays are very much upon us. How was your week. Mine was sad...
1. It happened a week ago well after I had put up my post we had put Rocky to rest. I didnt think it was gonna happen like it did so quickly. But it was time and it was sad. Saturday last week we said good bye to our beautiful cat Rocky. Life is just sad without him now. Jackie roams the house howling in her cat voice daily several times a day. I spend most days denial about him being gone it doesn't seem real. Now his ashes are ready and soon they will be with us. He will be home. Watching him go to sleep broke my heart. I just want him back. I miss Rainbow and now I miss Rocky. Not the same pain as 2 years ago I was in but not a fun one either :( oh Rocky we love you and miss you SO MUCH!
2. Church was extra beautiful because of the pain. I just wanted hugs so many. Most just said sorry and gave me hugs as much as I needed. I filled up on hugs and prayers and love so much love. Its hard but so much. Thursday we had our last study for 6 weeks although our group joked about meeting up once maybe during the break I think it would be fun to do an exchange of gifts. Unsure. But last time otherwise for 6 weeks :( hugs love and fun.
3. No gym last week. Too drained and sad Monday and not able to on Friday. I did do two walks Tuesday and Thursday both in the morning. I love my walks. I always do. I'm tempted this week to do THREE walks maybe just maybe.
4. Tuesday I went and got my feet looked at first time ever as a diabetic its important. My feet are just fine :) but the pain is not fine :( so I am seeing a regular doctor on the 30th hopefully get some medicine to helped out my neuropathy pains cause they are zero fun ugh.
5. Friday between my getting ready for work I had my second therapy session by phone of course. I talked about my 3 sets of anxiety which was the prime issue I had since we last spoke. I'm unsure how helpful the session was. It left me kinda disappointed as its only 30min and left no time for my depression. Like how I wanted to kill myself and considered it on Wednesday. I am grieving I am in pain and I am depressed too. I'm looking into some stuff for me on the side past all this. I dont speak to her for 3 weeks. And I still have my appointment in two week for my psychiatrist hopeful for medicines I am sure I will get some. 99% sure yup.
Have a happy thanksgiving. See you on the other side one more of these for this month. Then onto Christmas season and birthdays we go. 1 month till I turn 42 yahoo! God bless you :)
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