The Weekend 5 (Sunday, January 2nd 2022)

Welcome. New month New year New everything. How was your week? Mine was wet. Cause its been raining so much this past week yikes!!

1. Work busy busy. Worked all my shifts this past week. Sure I had shorter hours but back to norm this coming week. I keep it busy. Best I can. Work is work. Sad to see a co worker been here almost a year is leaving :( and sad to see I am still here but I need to try to not be. I need to try HARDER. This year for sure will be my last.

2. Church was beautiful of course. I love my church so much. I was blessed to pray with my dear friend. I never pray for people and I think I need to be more open to being used and to pray for others when I feel led. So I am praying to do it more often. Yes I am :) I love my church I dont care how often I say it.

3. Workouts not much. But I managed a walk for the first time in over a week. Hope we back at the gym next week. We both feel better. Trying to be hopeful for more walks and workouts too. For real. I love my walks I missed them so much.

4. Had my dental appointment on Tuesday and wont be back till April. My teeth are doing much better thank God! I been trying so hard! I had to cancel my therapy this week :( but I will be back for sure next week. My shoulder isn't happy about this. I pray one day soon for wholeness all that. My mental health has been off the hook bad. My medicine isn't fully working again. Crying and wanting to die. I see my psychiatrist next week and praying I may get an upgrade on the dose if necessary. I dont get why I fell back so hard but I have. And I'm trying to get back up again so much. Ugh.

5. Tuesday we went to the Safari Park. It was fun. Saw the lights. It was freezing and raining. But we had a fun time still. Got dinner at Islands. Then saw some lights lots of cool light was a great time. Made the best of the sour weather.

Well have a good week. Mine not as exciting. But back with my bible study group this week so that is good. And slowly getting more organized and hoping for a good new year. A new me. Lets hope. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 26th 2021)

Welcome to the last one of these for this month AND year. What on earth? Did you know this? We are just 5 days from 2022!!!!! Yikes. How was your week? Busy as mine? Yeah

1. Work busy but not so much as I hardly worked this week. I had Sunday and Monday off for my birthday. And then Christmas we closed. I only worked 2 days this week total. For real. Wednesday & crazy busy Friday. I was super sad to miss our Christmas Eve service but I couldn't call out and didnt have enough extra protected time off to cover if I did call out :( 

2. Church was beautiful on Sunday. All the love being the day before my birthdays. Cards or gifts they are nice. But love and hugs is what I valued and I got lots of them :) even my good friend she said she probably wouldn't come came just for a few minutes before. I think maybe a small reason was for me but she said it for other stuff. I dont care. She was there for hugs and talking a little bit :) So yes love church time. After went to see my friend she's been unable to come back to church for a long time now so we visited for a bit. Then I got some food and drinks and yogurt and went home to chill. Nice day off from work!

3. Didnt do gym again but did one walk :) As for my mental health. My medicine began to work on Wednesday. This was after I had THREE bad days in a row of me crying and wanting to die. Its not working all the way. But it began to work and now I dont cry like at all :) I am so happy!!!! I still feel off and I still sometimes feel stressed and anxious but not like before and for sure not as bad as before too. Thank you God!

4. Birthday this week I turned the big 42! Beautiful day. Got up early. Went to breakfast at Beach Plum. Then went to the zoo got our passes finally renewed. Spent a few hours there just relaxing. Then later my parents came at dark we had fun in the lights. It was a nice day for real. Thursday my good friend from church took me to a store bought me an outfit and bought me lunch all for my birthday. Wow thank you

5. Christmas was crazy cause we made most of the meal this time. Turkey and all. In fact the only thing we didnt make was the gravy or cut the turkey. But rest we did. I made my desserts, yams and helped with the turkey best I could. My sister did the rest. She also helped with my pies. We had breakfast in the morning my dad made that. We opened gifts. Then baked most of the day. Ate later then planned. And bed right after that. I am glad that the holidays are almost done. Exhausting. For real. 

See you next year and next month and all that. In another busy week this week but not like last week. God bless you all :) be safe have fun!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 19th 2021)

 Sorry this is so late I didnt mean to be that lazy again :( So this is going up just days before the next one my bad... how was your week

1. Church was beautiful. Love my church. So much love as I entered my last week before my birthday. So thankful for all the love. :) I love my church family. Hugs and love and prayers.

2. Work busy but not as much. I called out on Friday so there was that. And so I only worked 4 days not 5. Next week is gonna be even less!

3. Tuesday was a super big fun night that I will NOT forget. I was going out to dinner with my good friend from church. She moved to Texas earlier this year and was going back on Thursday. So we planned an early birthday dinner for me her and me. Her daughter couldn't come last minute. So I thought it just us. So we walked into the restaurant she had chosen and shocking was that at the table was a few close friends from church. My friend her husband and daughter. And my very very good friend. All there for me. I was so happy that was a real smile I had on my face as I sat down and it was for me all for me. People DO NOT do this for me. They do not. Others sure not me. So grateful so fun. What a blessed night.

4. Thursday back to work at therapy. Yup. My poor shoulder it really wore me out. But I have to keep going and pray I can get more of this next year since I cant finish the amount the approved. I need as much as possible. Better every day! Friday I talked to my therapist a quick appointment wont talk to her again till January 13th. Was just a check up no my medicine isn't working so that was that.

5. I kinda got sick this week. A cold, cough thingy. I was fighting it for a while to not. My sister got it first and now me. I think its going away. I haven't been sick in almost 2 years so truly it hasn't been fun. I think my allergies kicked up a notch and joined it so I've been battling a cold, cough with allergies. But I truly think I am finally getting better. Yeah thank you God!! So I called out on Friday cause of that. Sadly now I'm at 3 points at work :(

Well that is all for now. See you all next week. Do my best to update this on time by Sunday :) Have a blessed rest of your week!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 12 2021)

This was a busy week for me. But this is up ON TIME! Hurray for that one. Hope you had a great week mine was so full and busy but very good indeed :) I am calling this the weekend 6!

1. Church was beautiful this week. I love my church. So much hugs and love. Its the little things that keep me going and that includes my beautiful church and all the great wonderful people there. I love my church I love Sundays :)

2. Work busy of course. But I called out twice so not as busy as usual. I called out on Monday for my sisters birthday. And then on Saturday for the baby shower. I did you know ask for them off and got denied. So I called out and still did what I was gonna. I dont ask for time off too often and I think its kinda sad when I dont get to some time off sometimes :( I work hard after all and I rarely call out unless I'm sick which is rare too. Anyways

3. Workouts this week not really much. No gym at all due to my sisters birthday. But I did just one walk on Tuesday. It rained but was gone by time I went in the evening. Thursday was raining and Saturday I was so exhausted idk why so I just didnt feel like getting up early to go on a walk so that is why that wen that way...

4. Monday was my sisters birthday. We celebrated by trying out our new Sea World passes for a few hours. Then we joined our parents in La Jolla we watched the seals till sunset then had dinner at Red Robin. No idea what I'm doing for my birthday this year oh boy. On Thursday we continued the fun by seeing the newest Ghost Busters movie. It was super great and I loved it. Do see it especially if you saw the original ones. Not that re make whatever few years ago blah.

5. Saturday I went to the baby shower for our worship leaders wife baby. She also is in the worship band we have a truly blessed worship team a family. Husband, wife and daughter. So yeah it was so fun. Worth calling out for sure glad I went. My mom and me went so that was a first. She usually doesn't come to these things so it was nice for her to get out too. Great time

BONUS

6. I talked to my therapist on Friday before work. I am not putting a lot on this page about it but she is concerned about me and something I almost did...and also wants to check up on my medicine since I been taking it now for just over a week. And I wont talk to the psychiatrist till January. So despite it being practically when I leave for work I'm talking to her quickly next Friday. FYI medicine not working yet. I am still emotional daily crying and having bad lows weekly sometimes several times. So yeah not there yet...

Have a blessed week. This one not as busy as last week. But for sure next week will be. We two weeks from Christmas how crazy is that!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, December 5th 2021)

Last week was busy this week is busy too. Welcome to the holiday season LOL.  Plus the fact both my sister and me have birthdays this month...yeah busy

1. Church beautiful this week wonderful. I missed a few people :( but had fun with those there :) I love my church. Even though I dont get to do all the things we doing this holiday season I am doing some... So yeah I love my church. Tuesday I also had a phone appointment. I talked to my pastor about a sheet I filled out. All dealing with my mental health. I kinda miss doing this in person doing it by phone was not easy but I did it because the was how he wanted it done plus he doesn't have a current office so no way for us to meet... I am grateful he did this and I have a new sheet to work on too...

2. Workouts. We finally came back to the gym after like three weeks of not coming. Not a long workout but something. Also did only one walk this week sadly not two. I'm sad. Oh well. Love my walks.

3. Work busy this week as always. We speeding towards the holiday season. But yes busy work and short handed too. We doing the best we can! Its how we are! Its my job! Yeah about that. I had a guy who I think was a christen tell me how he gets my job isn't the easiest job in the store its the hardest. He compared me to a construction worker who has a stop sign directing traffic. This is NOT an easy job he says. Its the hardest. He like me cant leave his spot unless replaced, to use restroom to eat or take a break. My job isn't easy its actually hard. And its far more than just checking receipts. I am heading this week towards my 3rd year anniversary. I have ABSOLUTELY not intentions of being here for 2 more years to get my 5 year badge. No thank you! Lord willing gone by next year is my true goal.

4. Tuesday I went to the doctor to check my diabetes but mostly to get medicine for my diabetic neuropathy. Which I did get! PTL. I also went to get more therapy this week for my shoulder my first time in like 4 months. I am so happy to be back! I got new exercises so my arm is still sore but truly I need to get more of this I need to keep going. 

5. Thursday I had my first psychiatrist appointment by phone. I am so glad to say I am going to be on Prozac. I am praying it will help me ASAP. I just am so tired of this so tired of my anxiety my depression the things driving me mad. Gods getting me through this slow process of getting help.

Have a good week. Mine is gonna be busy. God bless you :)  

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 28th 2021)

Welcome to the last one of these for the month of November. Sorry in advance I took too long to put it up. I got busy and tired oops. My bad!

1. Church was beautiful. I love my church. I love talking to people, hugging people, praying with people. I love how beautiful it is to go there. I might regret the fact I took so long to talk to people at church. But sometimes I think its well worth the wait. Like all good things are worth the wait. I love love love my church :) 

2. Workouts not much. We skipped the gym again for like the third week in a row gulp. With good reason for later in the week... But I did two walks this week Tuesday & Wednesday. Fun times. I love my walks around the neighborhood. Woohoo

3. Wednesday wasn't the best day. I went to the doctor and I was told what I dreaded to hear. What I haven't even accepted almost a week later at writing this. My neck is permanent and stationary. It wont get better! My knee is that since 1999. Now my neck. But God But God can still heal me. He can! He can still heal me. So I know God may heal me. I am unsure if he will fully. But I trust him. And I need to recall this and trust him for what comes next. Either settlement praying for this. And it being a GOOD amount that I can save and put towards the chiropractor in the future. If its open then I must need more care or something else. My co worker said I need to get it writing for lifetime care. They will care for me all my life. Idk why I got this injury Idk why this is what happened. I just know that at almost 42 I now have a forever neck injury :( God help me please and thanks!

4. Work busy but less with no Wednesday. My check wont be so fun next time. But necessary day off. But yeah I survived Black Friday. I survived working. I had some anxiety again but not as bad as it could be. 

5. Thanksgiving began much more fun then usual. With my bonus from work I got me and my sister to do the turkey trot in downtown. What fun! We walked up and down the streets of oceanside including right by the water. And got metals and shirts. Fun stuff. Then came home and cleaned and made food and ate. Wonderful time. A bit tiring but glad we did it. Sure it took me days to recover. But yeah fun time.

Have a good week. See you all next weekend. I vow to actually do this on time from now on but shall see. God bless you :) see you in December!! 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 21st 2021)

Welcome. Almost done with these. Now we in the week leading up to Thanksgiving. The holidays are very much upon us. How was your week. Mine was sad...

1. It happened a week ago well after I had put up my post we had put Rocky to rest. I didnt think it was gonna happen like it did so quickly. But it was time and it was sad. Saturday last week we said good bye to our beautiful cat Rocky. Life is just sad without him now. Jackie roams the house howling in her cat voice daily several times a day. I spend most days denial about him being gone it doesn't seem real. Now his ashes are ready and soon they will be with us. He will be home. Watching him go to sleep broke my heart. I just want him back. I miss Rainbow and now I miss Rocky. Not the same pain as 2 years ago I was in but not a fun one either :( oh Rocky we love you and miss you SO MUCH!

2. Church was extra beautiful because of the pain. I just wanted hugs so many. Most just said sorry and gave me hugs as much as I needed. I filled up on hugs and prayers and love so much love. Its hard but so much. Thursday we had our last study for 6 weeks although our group joked about meeting up once maybe during the break I think it would be fun to do an exchange of gifts. Unsure. But last time otherwise for 6 weeks :( hugs love and fun.

3. No gym last week. Too drained and sad Monday and not able to on Friday. I did do two walks Tuesday and Thursday both in the morning. I love my walks. I always do. I'm tempted this week to do THREE walks maybe just maybe.

4. Tuesday I went and got my feet looked at first time ever as a diabetic its important. My feet are just fine :) but the pain is not fine :( so I am seeing a regular doctor on the 30th hopefully get some medicine to helped out my neuropathy pains cause they are zero fun ugh. 

5. Friday between my getting ready for work I had my second therapy session by phone of course. I talked about my 3 sets of anxiety which was the prime issue I had since we last spoke. I'm unsure how helpful the session was. It left me kinda disappointed as its only 30min and left no time for my depression. Like how I wanted to kill myself and considered it on Wednesday. I am grieving I am in pain and I am depressed too. I'm looking into some stuff for me on the side past all this. I dont speak to her for 3 weeks. And I still have my appointment in two week for my psychiatrist hopeful for medicines I am sure I will get some. 99% sure yup.

Have a happy thanksgiving. See you on the other side one more of these for this month. Then onto Christmas season and birthdays we go. 1 month till I turn 42 yahoo! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 14th 2021)

Welcome to this week. Kinda like last week busy full of stuff. I just can't believe how close we are to the holidays. Thanksgiving is less then 2 weeks away. Then Christmas will be here just.like.that. How crazy!! Stay positive love Jesus and know each day is a brand new start is how we should be.

1. Oh Rocky. I start with our beautiful cat who is dying. I dont know when. We originally planned to put him to sleep on this past Wednesday. But then my sister had bad car issues on Saturday and we canceled on Monday. By Wednesday this week he looks so bad. I dont want him to suffer! But I dont want him gone! And losing him is breaking my heart all over again! So theres a good chance by time I write this next week he wont be with us anymore. He will be with God. And I will be in deep grief again. Not like Rainbow but still grieving. I am so sad :(

2. Church beautiful on Sunday. We at our new place. And friends that I haven't seen in months came back that day. I love my church. Pictures afterwards. Forgetting all things when I walk in church just happiness in Gods house happiness with my family just plain happy. Sadly we didnt get to do our weekly study. I worked hard to get a ride there and last minute they canceled our whole group meeting :( 

3. Work busy. I do not like this extra black friday sales crap. I also dont like that we are so shorthanded and yet we still suffer. My anxiety isn't happy at all ugh. 

4. Gym did it twice. Monday and again on Friday. Fun times. I also got in two walks barely but I did get in two walks. Thursday after finding out about no study I walked really far away for 45min and regrets cause of the pain after that was a lot of walking. Lol. Oh well. 

5. Did chiropractor this week haven't been back in months. She helps me. I just need to go more often I guess. I go best I can. I am glad to get help for my neck. Idk what is gonna happen at the doctor in two weeks. He has nothing left for me. I wonder if he would let me do more acupuncture I might ask him. Otherwise what else is there. Just give up and live with this pain this injury rest of my life? Sigh

Have a good week. See you next weekend. God bless you. Be safe stay positive it will be okay :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, November 7th 2021)

Welcome to November. Hello! 2 months to go before we done with this year crazy huh.

1. Church beautiful. My good friend surprised me just showed up not telling me she visiting so I was SUPER Happy to see her. Last time at seabird we move on to a new location next week. I also got to go this week to our small groups which was nice. Sure it wasnt the way I thought I would but we did get to go. Yeah. Love my church. 

2. Gym did it just once this week. Sadness. Oh well. But we did go. Also only one walk this week. Double sadness. But had to happen. So yeah about that....

3. Work busy busy. I worked all my shifts this week yes I did. So busy time. Work is busy. Especially on Friday for Black Friday. Will be glad when we past all this extra stuff. Being short handed not cool at all :(

4. Tuesday we went to hang out with my cousin and her son. So we got to go to the zoo in Orange County. We rode the train. He rode a pony. It was a fun little time yes it was. Love hanging out with them.

5. Its been 14 years since we moved from California to Tennessee. How we have changed since we moved away from home to live in another state. It was an adventure getting there for sure. I miss TN it was a great idea to do that move never regret it.

Have a good week. This one wont be as fun as last week. But it will be a good one. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 31st 2021)

Welcome to the last one of these for the last day of the month this year. Wow!! I just realized that this year is now lining up with the same calendar days and dates as 2010. It took me all year to realize it. But in 2010 Halloween was on a Sunday just like this year. Crazy!! I haven't been paying attention at all to this... hope you had a good week mine was stressful TBH.

1. Gym time zero this week (see #5) sadly. I am glad we took our chance for the maze last week as it would have NOT happened this week! I did do two walks this week in the evening on Tuesday and in the morning on Thursday. So I love my walks. But that is all I got done this week...no gym yes I miss it. We will be back I HOPE on Monday!

2. Church beautiful on Sunday. Love and hugs. And more love and hugs. One more time at this place this week today. Then a new place and a new time (old time actually for real) next week. I love my church. The more hugs and love the better :) Sadly thanks to my ride not able to go to Thursday night I didnt get to go to my study group :( and I missed out on our pastors wife visiting our group double :( :( Thursday was not a good day for me at all!

3. Work not as busy. I felt like crap on Sunday stomach issues not gonna go TMI on you but I have some stomach issues that runs in my family and that was all it was. So I felt gross and stayed home on Sunday. Then Friday (see #5) I called out again so I only worked 3 days this week. Now my PPTO is down to 9 hours and my PTO is down to 18 hours. So I truly cant call out anymore but 3 more times to be paid. So I gotta behave or not get paid unless I take a point instead... fingers crossed we good for a while!

4. I did my last two neck therapies this week. I dont actually care for real. I dont feel like therapy was helping me. So that is why I dont care. I just did them cause I had to. I am now a few weeks away from my last doctors appointment I really dont want to think about it. I really dont. Cause at this point I have no idea what will happen and I really wanna start working on one day at a time not all of them. God gives us strength for each day not all of them. So worrying about something a month away really is not good. I shouldn't even worry about it if it was tomorrow! Also this week I made 2 more appointments. I will be doing a phone appointment on Wednesday next week before I get ready for work for more shoulder therapy. And then on the 16th getting my feet looked at first time ever. For my diabetes and also my neuropathy that is really bad especially my left foot. So fun stuff coming up. Next week will be a busy week I have two phone appointments plus a hang out on Tuesday with my cousin and her son. 

5. Rocky my love Rocky my love I will always love you. Spent all week thinking he dying. And he is actually dying. On Monday my sister thought he was dying so we skipped the gym. Then on Friday she had an appointment for him in San Marcos and so I called out to be with her cause I was worried  he could die that night and I thought I couldn't handle work not knowing. It was a good call as he was at the vet for 4.5 hours. Wont know results till next week. But he's back home and we dont know how long we have with him. Time is precious. My heart is too fragile so him dying maybe this will kill me. I thought I was gonna die of a broken heart two years ago. It was the grace of God and not being my time that kept me here. I am not over Rainbows death. And now this. So yes he here but unsure how long. Please keep our little man in prayers. I love him!!

Okay see you in November. Have a nice holiday today. I will be at work. More about that next week. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 24th 2021)

 Welcome to this weeks and wow we almost through this month. We a week from Halloween which means one more of these for this month crazy.

1. Work is busy. I worked all my shifts like a good girl this time. Haha. One day soon I will be leaving but till then I need to keep on going in the place God has me and working my job even if at times I feel like I'm losing my mind.

2. Gym did it once yup once. Only on Monday. We made plans for Friday so we only did it on Monday. Oh well. I did two walks Tuesday and Thursday not counting my walk to the bus and then to work on Wednesday. Exciting. Not really whatever lol.

3. Church was beautiful on Sunday cause we back together. Love and hugs and more hugs and more love. I love my church. I had fun at my church group on Thursday. And that was good too. Love my church and all that jazz.

4. My parents went on vacation last week so it was very quiet at home. Our cat isn't doing so well so I am grateful he is still with us. And that they are back home safely again at last. Glad they had fun and glad they back.

5. Friday night my sister and me went to the haunted corn maze in CB. For $25 we got so scared of monsters and stuff. And then we shot apples for the apple cannon. We each did 6 so a set of 12 was another $20. Fun night after work. Yes it was.

Whelp this week is busy for me. My last 2 neck therapies ever. And other stuff too. Have a good week. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 17th 2021)

 Hello welcome. How are you? My week was kinda blah. But that was that. Okay then

1. No church on Sunday but online. I'm sorry but that is not church. So I skipped. I was also not working so I slept in because my sisters uti I called out. So I did meet with my group Thursday at Starbucks. Fun time. I love my little group. But I will forever miss meeting with all the ladies and hope next year we will be back to norm :(

2. GYM did it twice. On Monday was great. And then on Saturday fun times. I love the gym. I also did a walk this week on Sunday, Tuesday & Thursday. For real was a lot of walks this week. Not counting my walk to the bus and to work on Friday....

3. Work busy. But I did call out on Sunday. So I again only worked 4 days. Not planned but still. Busy busy. I was grateful for breaks of last week not this week. Like garden time. And not being on the exit is a blessing too. Yup. 

4. Tuesday I had my appointment with a therapist on the phone. My poor phone fried it closed on me like 5x from over heating never done a phone video call before but I did this time. I now have another one to meet with on the 4th of November. Now I'm wondering if I am willing to do this for VCC why not check back into Carlsbad and maybe see what they do. I'm not saying I am gonna go there too but I can look into it maybe next week...

5. Tuesday was also a sad day. It marked 2 years since my Rainbow died. I miss her still so much. I love her and miss her. This year not as bad last year. But still so very hard. My sister found this great little memorial for dogs by the dog beach in Del Mar. I painted her a rock and took it there and dropped it off. I love you baby I cant wait to see you again someday

My family minus my other sister and our cats are not back till Tuesday. It got delayed by a few days but they gone. I miss them but they coming home soon. And that will be okay too. Have a good week. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 10th 2021)

Welcome. How was your week? Mine was okay...

1. Church was beautiful. We got to meet in our new building for the next three years as necessary. The old Sears building in CB. Sadly we found out on Thursday we are not meeting there anymore. And we now online Sunday and back to Seabird next week. Ugh not good. Thursday had a beautiful fun time at my small group. We had food to eat. And talked for a bit. Nachos and dessert. Yum. Back to norm next week.

2. Harvest Crusade was AWESOME on Sunday. I got a ride with two ladies from church. It did take us almost 2 hours to get to Anaheim. But it was worth it. Got to hang out with several people from my church. Gave out bibles after. Hung out during pictures fun blessed. Much better then two years ago I had way more fun. So glad my job let me off to go do this!

3. Therapy continues for my neck. 3 down 3 to go. Did 2 this week. My emotions are all over the place. Thursdays bad news sent me into a day of depression. I been feeling empty inside when I at church at least the last two Sundays. idk what is going on. I think its my depression. My appointment on the phone is next week and good thing. Just praying for answers and I get the help so desperately need.

4. Gym only did it once whoopsie. Wanted to do them on Friday too but too tired done this for the past few weeks. I did two walks this week too. Tuesday and Thursday. Yup.

5. Work busy but less of course. I only worked 4 days. Not Sunday. And it exhaust me so much when I am alone up front when no one cares I am alone. I mean I was alone for so long working this job but when I have others and we should have at least one more about front its frustrating. 

Had some weather this week too. Monday we had a bad lightning and thunder storm. The gym was yikes. It went on for hours. We also had rain on Friday but it was just regular rain not thunder and lightning. Well this week back to norm for weather. Have a great week God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, October 3rd 2021)

Welcome to October. How on earth are we now just 3 months left of this year? Crazy talk! Well hope you had a good week! Mine was okay...

1. Work busy this week but I didnt work 5 days I only worked 4 :) SO there is that. Nothing changed much since our meeting. Idk even why we had one. They still leave us alone they still take us they still do what they gotta do. I need to get a new job idk when but soon. I do not want to be past there past this holiday season this will be my last I vow for that one.

2. Gym did it twice. We did it on Monday & on Friday. Fun. Love my gym time. Also did two walks this week. I wanted to do another couple like Tuesday and Friday but did not happen. Oh well I tried in my heart I tried. 

3. Church was fun one last time at the seabird. It was beautiful. If it wasn't so hard to find parking I would keep going there. But we are on to our new place next Sunday woohoo. And we get to be there for up to 3 years. So I am hopeful that we will be out of there in our own new building way before that. Yup. I love my church. Friends I missed came back. So happy :) Thursday got to go to my little study group. I will never stop wishing we could just all meet together. Why oh why. But I also love the ones I am with and I am thankful that God provided a way for me and my ride to attend again and again and again. Next week our first food meeting not Word of God meeting so that will be fun. I haven't ever done one. I will forever be sad I didnt try to do this when I had the BIG group in 2019 and 2020. I was gonna do it once and then covid hit we went online and it never happened :( 

4. Grandmas birthday was Wednesday. Grateful my job gave it to me off. So we blew bubbles to heaven. I still miss doing our balloons. But yeah we do this instead. We also went to Dunkin Donuts before we did that for no reason at all. 16 years since she last celebrated and been gone for 15 years. I still miss her so much and I cant wait to see her in heaven one day soon. 

5. Tuesday I had my deep cleaning for my dental appointment fun stuff. Not really. I am grateful not as bad as I thought and I didnt lose a crown or filling for real yo so glad. I come back in 3 months to keep this up and I better keep it up and not need more than a cheaper visit. Yes. Hopeful I can pay for it on my own not have to use my credit card. I got my first of 6 neck therapies on Thursday. It was then that I noticed my neck moves better and less pain. I think the injections are working thank you God just slowly and taking their time. Which means come November I can kiss my workmenscomp good bye with a good mind and know it will be okay. I cant get my shoulder therapy till sometime in November I made it so dang complicated by switching to True Care for no reason. So I can make an appointment but till I am officially back with them at my other place I cant get it approved. And then my insurance has to run it and well I think it could be end of November before I see them for real again :( 

Well that was a busy week. This week not so much. But hey thats fun for next time. Have a blessed week. God bless you. See you next weekend!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 26th 2021)

 Last week in September for real. Sorry this is late kids I got busy last weekend and that is how it goes sometimes...on time next time fingers crossed!

1. Work this past week busy busy. Yes I worked my full 5 days total. Friday was the busiest. I had to go to a meeting that I didnt technically get paid for. Fun. I had to be at work at 8am when I didnt work till 11am. So 3 hours early. Then our meeting an hour long so she told me dont clock in till 12pm. She fixed it so I still got paid for the meeting but then I worked less therefore I didn't get paid for the meeting. Not a lot was said and I knew not a lot was going to change and not shocking nothing did. Ugh. I'm still tired from that. I was at work and in the area for 12 hours. I killed time 9 to 12 walked got food and just shopped in my store for stuff not much. So yeah work busy same old same old. Heard we getting a raise again cause they killing our bonus checks after December but not seen that yet. Hopeful for next check fingers crossed

2. Church beautiful we at the park this time last week that is. Our place was too busy to park by. Never did church in the park. Whenever they did it I avoided it before covid I had no family and no one but me so I would skip church that Sunday. So we all went. My dear friend is moving to Texas for good and I wont see her till November she is coming for a short visit. So I said good bye cried a bit and took pictures with her. :( did my little small group again on Thursday but its unsure how much longer I can go. My ride doesn't have a baby sitter and so she cant go for 2 months starting this coming week. So if she cant go I cant go. We praying about this. Also need a new place soon to meet as our place to meet is gonna go away. Unsure what going to happen. Giving it to God is all we can do!

3. Workouts did the gym once. Was gonna go on Friday but after me being at work that long and feeling like I dying we skipped ugh. Oh well. I did two walks too Tuesday and Thursday fun times.

4. I did the chiropractor for the 3rd time and had enough money for two more times. Unsure when I coming back. But that happened. My neck is still a mess I am unsure if that injection doing what I wanted and heard it would do again. God has me I just dont get why they dont work like they should with me maybe my diabetes. Ugh. After the chiropractor I got some pains back at the injection site again. After we did the peacocks and it was sad. Sure we saw two babies but one of the twins we saw two weeks ago is gone guess it died or something sadness :( unsure when we going back not this week for sure.

5. My mental health is just a mess I cant get anywhere with my list. Tuesday I had a bad hyperventilating moment when they said at TC they wont let me pay out of pocket. I then tried a list I found online and its all I had left and no one worked out on Thursday. So both days were VERY VERY BAD for me. Thursday last minute I called back VCC and now I have an evaluation on October 12th and then I realized after I made it thats the 2 year anniversary of Rainbows death. I will prepare for it best I can make a list and stuff. But its on the phone or computer and that wont be fun I wish it was in person. I hate COVID so much sometimes. I really do. 

Okay we in October this week crazy. See you all next weekend. Have a blessed week!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 19th 2021)

 Welcome welcome. How was your week. Mine was okay but not so okay too anyways...

1. Worked only 3 days this past week. Yup it was a nice not really little vacation but still not a bad time off too. Ha. Work busy. And I came back after 4 days I was like um yeah. So we have new people two new people!! And some days we have enough people other days we dont have enough. But yeah I had a nice time off work :)

2. Gym did it just ONCE wah. Oh well. We went on Monday. I did a lot of walks this week though. 3 total. One on Tuesday Wednesday and Thursday. Yes I did that was nice. So I miss the gym. Back to twice a week this coming week...

3. Church was beautiful on Sunday. Lots of hugs and love. Sure a few people I love were not there :( but they will be back soon I hope! So yeah I love my church. Thought we done at seabird but we get to come back in two weeks so that is one last time. Thursday began small groups. I'm kinda sad and miss all the other ladies. We got a nice group of 5 total maybe 6 if the other gal comes next week. But I do miss everyone else. So this will be an odd thing all the way till next May ...

4. Friday celebrated my sisters 35th birthday my youngest. I was off work. First me and my other sister did the beach one last time for the Summer. Got a wee bit sunburnt. Then had fun with my sister ate fish and fries bubbles and ice cream.  Happy Birthday little sister.

5. Wednesday was not my funnest day. I went to the doctor haven't seen since my injection two weeks ago. My neck is not better yet. I am not saying its not a bit better. I think its some sorta slow process with burning my nerves. Well we arent there yet. And now wont see him again for 10 more weeks! He wants more therapy so unsure when that will start up. 

ALSO THIS WEEK...

Two things both bad. Tuesday I found out that Palomar will now require ALL students to be vaccinated to come back on campus. Which means I just kissed good bye my radio show for good :( Also Friday the lady that was helping me but not really helping me at True Care pretty much said screw you. So now I gotta start over for my mental health issues at the place in Carlsbad I was avoiding. Its stressing me out so much having to start over after nearly 2 months of trying to get this going. I have forgiven the lady I will forgive her again. She IMO could have helped me more. And she just didnt want to. So she gave up on me and now I am back to ground zero. I want to give up but several things keeping me going: I promised my good friend I would get help, I promised myself I would get help no matter how hard it is is, I know God wants me to get help still AND I have several supportive friends and more because I didnt tell them all yet that are rooting for me and praying for me. So I really just cant just give up. I want to to but I am not going to. Just so hard and so exhausting doing this back to zero again :(

Well have a nice week. This one I work all my days next week and the following time off will get me down to 4 each week. But we have a raise coming I think for work so that should help maybe. God bless you till next time see you then :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 12th 2021)

Good morning. What a weird long week its been so much happened. I might give this another few points this time as a bonus beware. We had a weird thunder and lightning storm on Thursday night. Pretty crazy and cool! I loved it! Glad for no rain. But yeah it was pretty awesome God is so awesome. I stand in awe of God and storms like this remind me of who I serve and love forever. :) 

1. Work is busy busy. I worked 40hrs this past week I haven't done that in a while. Which was super nice and great no complaining. Well I can complain. Last weekend was painful. Labor Day painful. It was busy as crap the whole weekend 4 days ugh. Only suck of the week came Monday our usual Chickfla trip ruined when they closed 2 hours before we got there :( well 2 hours early but an hour before we got there  :( :( drive for nothing. 

2. Church was great of course. I am grateful a few came. Was sad though cause most everyone was down an hour from here camping or doing a day trip. I could not travel down there for just that. I mean if I wasn't working. Maybe I should have worked harder to not work. But then talking my sister into going down there would have been painful too. Some days I wish I drove so much and then I remind myself all the work to get into driving and go back to living like I am... so will be glad this week back to regular church again :)

3. GYM did it twice Monday & Friday. Monday I felt like death and we got there late so we barely there. Friday I felt funky too but not same reason. Not much of a workout each time. But there you go. Walks I did them both on Tuesday & Thursday there you go. I love me walks. Both in the morning not in the evening. 

4. Tuesday was my dads birthday. Yes we did go out to eat with him. Not to some fancy place but this little restaurant I went to once before with my good friend months ago. So that was that. It was a fun time. Then I discovered someone had got my debit card info and had to report card fraud. Zero fun btw zero. Thank God I got it resolved and taken care of yesterday I got both my new card and my money back. But sometimes evil people suck and people who steal really do suck ugh.  Thursday went to the peacock place had fun saw 3 babies total which was a big blessing. Yes it was. So there you go!

5. Its been 10 years since my sister and me moved back to California. I think I spent a good several months without saying it upset with God. Because God did bring us back for reasons at the time I didnt get. I was never allowed to get a job there and if I had maybe we would still be there. I am unsure hard to say. I have a blessed life in oceanside so much good has come from our move back. But at the time forced to live back here with our parents was not an easy pill to swallow. We had been free for 4 years and the only way I wanted to maybe move back was on my own or married not back with our parents. 10 years later I dont think I will ever move back out again unless I get married. California is way too expensive and I dont see me ever leaving the state again. But there you go. Reflections 10 years later.

BONUS

6. Yesterday marked 20 years since 9/11. I cant help but recall so much. I will never forget that day. How I found out first from my mom from the bus driver for my sister. How we watched the tower fall while I in government class at school. Then we had chapel where we cried and prayed and worshipped. And cancelled classes. I went home and watched tv a lot. I watched the news a lot those days on repeat all the time. So much pain but so much togetherness as a nation. We came together. I thought the rapture would happen very soon and for a while was really into those groups that try to predict it. But you cant btw. I went on a mission trip in May 2002 and got to see ground zero, so much pain and loss and spread Gods love. I will never ever forget 9/11. You can be I wont ever stop recalling. But a good half my life time now its hard to believe its been that long. Wow

This week will be a bit more busy and a bit not. I am not working much actually more about that next week. Another birthday, doctors appointment and we begin our fall bible study. Well have a blessed week everyone!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, September 5th 2021)

Welcome to September!! This month has so much going on birthday wise I mean haha. My dad, my sister and my grandma (in heaven). Fall is coming wow crazy is that. Other things too. What are you excited about this month?

1. Church was beautiful Sunday. I prayed for lots of hugs I got lots of hugs. Some hugs several from same people NO COMPLAINING! These arms of mine were made for hugging. I am extra sad we are not gonna all be together next Sunday. Some are going camping including our pastor and his wife and my dear friend. Some other might go too. I am split. I mean if I was going I would miss everyone from church not there. But since I'm not going I am gonna miss everyone going to it. I gave more hugs then usual. I love my church. We are just about two weeks from beginning small groups I am unsure if I will do them but shall see. I'm gonna try them out once at least I think...

2. Work busy this week but not as much. Only worked 4 of my 5 shifts due to my procedure. And my co worker is sadly away for someone dying soon :( so yeah work is busy busy. I am glad to work more hours. I am hopeful after next week when I only work 3 times on purpose they keep giving me 40hrs a week!! Oh yes please please please. 

3. Gym did it ONCE this week ONCE sadness. Oh well. At least we went. Only on Wednesday before my shift at work. I did two walks Tuesday night and Thursday morning. I felt like crap Tuesday night I should not have gone I guess. But Thursday was a good walk :) 

4. Barely getting anywhere with my issue with my insurance. On Tuesday I had an appointment I cancelled because now I am with TC not VCC. So I am now moving my records over to TC as my permanent doctor. I had a good run with VCC since 2013 till now. Oh well. I am working with my insurance to hopefully get my paperwork sent over that my insurance will cover my appointment on October 5th. Ugh. 

5. Monday I had my latest injection. They burned my nerves in my neck to prevent pain. It will take up to two weeks so I should know by time I see doctor again that it did or didnt work. I am praying it does work oh please. So that was on Monday. I am still in pain and healing from it. Ugh. So just praying its worth it. 

Well there you go. This week is less stuff but our first of two birthdays. Labor Day. And life going on. God bless :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 29th 2021)

 Long week sorry this last one for the month is late. How is this the last one for the month? I was just talking to someone at work about it...how is it already almost September? This year is truly flying by. Its crazy year for sure not like last year but in so many ways much worse then last year and some ways the same...3 months to go...

1. Work is busy. Busy busy busy. I worked only 4 days. After church last week I came home and called out. I had gotten a BAD pain so bad in my neck and shoulders unsure if it was a pinched nerve or what but the pain was so bad it wouldn't go away after resting too. So I gave up and called out. I spent the day sleeping and resting it best I could. Lots of ice some heat. Monday it was still bad but not as bad. It was better by Tuesday by the grace of God I was okay. What was that? The joys of two injuries no idea which one was acting up :( so yeah worked 4 days. Thank you God they fixed my schedule. So next week starts today (Sunday) they got me back to full shifts and next week not this one due to my injection tomorrow (Monday) I work 40 hours. It only last a week as the following is the week I asked for two days off. So yeah work is busy. 

2. GYM did it twice again. I love twice or more! We did it on Monday per usual and then again on Friday after work cause my sister got her shift switched. They began to give her nights on Fridays & Saturdays therefore taking away our other gym day. Ugh. I did a walk just on Thursday but it was a nice one indeed.

3. Church was beautiful. Hugs and love. I'm talking more to two or three other people so getting hugs from them too. I love our church. The more I talk to the more I love. I still stick to really only talking to a few people but I do talk to them. And love hugs and love from them most of all. Yes church!

4. Tuesday and Thursday were my days off. Tuesday we went down and had fun. We went and met with my cousin and her son in Huntington Beach. We haven't been there to that beach since like 2006! Her son is a hoot. Love him. Cousin love. He will be 3 in October awe :) So beach there and then food after and back home. Fun day. Thursday I didnt plan much but we ended up going to the peacock neighborhood mostly. And unlike last week we saw the oldest of the babies there. She as we are pretty sure its a girl was out with mama we got lots of laughs and fun and pictures. Fun day. :)

5. Last week was stressful. I was dealing with the same issue for 4 days of it. Began my lunch on Monday at work. The lady who set up my mental health appointment last week tells me that my insurance doesn't cover behavioral health which makes no sense since I set it up with them after getting a list from my insurance. I got no where in with calls with my insurance and ended the day confused. I called a lot on Tuesday before our trip. On Wednesday too and Thursday. Even though they say a the call center I am fine I have to wait till the 2nd this week to get answers :( Ugh!! Wednesday I went back to the chiropractor of my friends. She's a nice lady. But I cant afford to come as much as she wants. Shall see I will try to find $$ to come back I will. I will!

Have a great week. See you next month. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 22nd 2021)

Welcome again here we are. Heading towards the end of the month. School beginning. Starting to see Fall and Halloween stuff coming out...yikes

1. Work busy sure yes. Sunday was insane day before back to school and crazy. Was so glad to be off work. Like near holiday busy on one day Yikes!! Did my first 40 hour week in a long long time. I wish I could say it will continue but its rare and gone again now. :(

2. Tuesday my good friend from church took me to her chiropractor I got adjusted for real for the first time ever. My neck is feeling okay but still hurts. I am going to go back next week for a follow up visit. My friend is so nice to do this. And I have to believe God is going to use this lady to help me get to my full healing. Also my injection is just a week away and work thankfully gave it to me off.  After that was done I went to my last shoulder therapy :( I have to fight for more again. Not happy about that.

3. Church was wonderful. Lots of love and hugs and such. I had a wonderful time. On Friday I was blessed to get to go to a church event I always miss them due to work. Well work let me off at 6 off I flew. We painted rocks and it was so fun. Hugs love and rocks. I am so thankful God allowed me to go to this. I love my church I love my sisters in Christ so much.

4. GYM did it twice on Monday and then on Friday after the rock painting. I love the gym. I also did walks twice Tuesday and again on Thursday. I love my walks. :)

5. October 5th I will be getting tested for my mental health. I have 6 weeks left to go. It will be a long time. My mental health is worse and worse every day. Idk why. I have emotional days 2 or 3 plus a week. I have depression days at least once a week. Neither of these were that bad not too long ago. I dont know why its getting worse its truly out of control. And its breaking me in so many ways. God please heal me help me get to that day help me to stay steady on you.

See you all next weekend last one this month. Wow! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 15th 2021)

 Mid way through this month. Two more Sundays after this one. This coming week will be a little extra fun and stuff. How was your week?

1. Work is busy. Yes busy. But its work and its what I do till I find something else to do. God willing by end of this year. I have to take a break from looking well I had taken a break and then I gave myself permission to very sure take a break. Ugh. This was my first week of working 5 days in a long long time. And I got almost 40hrs wish I could have had that last 3 to make it. Last week killed me this next check I will struggle one more time yuck. 

2. Gym twice did it on Monday and then on Friday. Not bad really. I managed not one not two but THREE walks this week. One on Tuesday morning, one on Wednesday morning (it was SO HOT major regret lol) and Thursday evening. Yup. Love my walks. Yes I do. 

3. Did therapy on Tuesday and then we saw peacock babies called "peachicks" a total of 4 it was so cool. The one from last week is getting bigger, a smaller one and our first ever set of two from one nest. There could be more hiding. Maybe will see next week when we come back for our once a week thingy. On Thursday I had my last neck therapy and my first shoulder therapy in a month. Sadly I am unsure how much more I get but I will fight for more cause this past month of NO therapy has been a nightmare. My shoulder complains every single day as does my neck. Ugh.

4. Church was really beautiful this past week. I loved it so much. Mainly cause my very good friend took out of her time to really talk to me about my anxiety and really just pep talk me and just make me feel better about what I am doing. It wont be easy I feel like I am gonna have to fight. But if I want to get better I gotta keep going.

5. Speaking of which. My appointment on phone was kinda harsh. I cant get my referral yet I have to wait for them to call me. However for once answering their questions really hit me how bad I am and how long I have been avoiding it. Sure I dont do drugs, alcohol, cut myself or actually try to kill myself. But I know I have depression and anxiety. I am questioning more than anything what else I have and where its coming from. So prayers for them to call me asap this coming week or I have to check back on Friday :( they didnt charge me for the appointment and for this one maybe I should have just done it in person...sigh.

Well thats all for now. Have a good week. Stay cool been so stinking hot lately ugh. God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 8th 2021)

Welcome to the second one of these for August. Yikes times flying. This week again nothing too special. This will be my first *gulp* back to 5 days of work in 1 week in weeks!! Been living on 4 days a week (my choice) the past 3 weeks before this. Yuck. But moving on...

1. Work is busy and such. We now back to suggesting people wear masks although that could change to having to wear mask. They ordered more mask and popped us into our black shirts as health ambassadors again. Just say there wont be counting. I hate telling people to wear mask but its worse counting. My poor neck. Anyways so I am okay with doing that just greeting people and offering a mask is easier then receipts. I like change I am almost ALWAYS checking receipts. Its so tiring my poor eyes lol. No one else wants to do it so it seems whenever I am there that is where I am at....moving on. I only worked 4 days this past week. I got Friday off because I thought my parents were gonna do an overnight thing for their anniversary on Thursday. But due to my dads pains they did canceled so I used it for therapy instead and enjoyed one more day of freedom. Lighten my load a bit for my 4 in a row turned into a 3 yup

2. Gym did it ONCE what the heck. Yeah haven't only done it once in beyond forever we been doing it at least twice a week. But things like work and such kinda took that. So that is what we did. I did manage a walk three times this week Tuesday, Thursday & Friday. Both Tuesday & Thursday were in the morning while Friday the evening. I love my walks with Jesus. But I do sometimes miss when my walks were with my baby Rainbow :( 

3. Church was beautiful on Sunday. Lots of hugs and love. And laughing as my pastor used me as an example as someone with anxiety. No he didnt say my name but those who knows my *story* and such surely knew it was me. He confirmed it after thanks a lot lol. I love him so its okay. I had social anxiety when I first began church here I spent over a year not talking to anyone and even after I met with my pastor and his wife for lunch I didnt talk to many till after the second meal 6 months later. So thats about 1.5 years of me not talking with much of anyone at church. I still have social anxiety and if you see me at church I dont talk to everyone I dont know everyone. I am willing to meet new people but I dont just go out and meet them. I am still horrible at making friends and keeping friends. So the ones God has graced me with are a huge blessing in the fact they are sticking by me even when I am a bit off sometimes. Love you church and all! I miss my mid week bible studies but hopefully fall ones begin again soon :) 

4. I did neck therapy twice this week. I have just two more times left. Yup. I do get back to shoulder therapy next week PTL I have not done it in a month and its been so bad some days that I realize I will probably be in shoulder therapy a lot longer then I thought. Yikes. Ugh. I also got approved shocking for another injections for my neck. I am unsure the date on that will work that out when they call me back or I check back next week. I also managed to take my new hobby and a kinda therapy of another time to my friends house. I love her so much. I paint rocks for her neighborhood and I wanted to give these to her last week. We took a chance on Tuesday she would be home as she said she might not be cause we came a bit later. And she was. Hugs love and gave her the rocks I had worked so hard on. I some days feel like I have no purpose in this world but to encourage people and these rocks with my creative gift from God for art really do make me feel like theres a reason I am on this earth. 

5. My mental health has always be a forerunner for me. Its there when I dont want it to be and always. In the past two years I can only guess why my mental health has become out of control. I can only guess what is wrong with me. But grief in losing Rainbow almost 2 years ago, followed by covid19 last year and all that went with it and then my 2 injuries. I think its all a big mush pile of problems. Its come crashing down on me with my relationships at church especially with my friend I just talked about 3 times with her. I get emotional constantly I cant control my emotions, I am crying now every single day sometimes good sometimes bad, I have bad thoughts, I have self doubt and for sure self hate, overwhelmed by absolutely everything, anxiety, depression, OCD and ADD, and so much more. So I am with the encouragement of my friends love and support and prayers seeking professional help. This coming week on Friday on the phone I will be talking to a doctor to get a referral to see a psychologist. I want to find out whats wrong with me because I am sure its way more than just depression and anxiety. I have my thoughts on this and I know we arent supposed to self diagnose especially on something else bad enough I did it for ADD which isn't as serious but yes I know I have it without being told so. So I will update you all when I have my date for my actual appointment. God willing it will be soon and this month. I get to fit that around everything else. If you pray I ask you do because I am scared to death to do this and I am not even telling my family yet what is going on just some close friends. 

God bless you all. Have a good week. Stay cool. :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, August 1st 2021)

 Welcome to August!! We are now heading to the middle of the Summer season and getting closer to fall. Wow thats just crazy stuff.

1. Work is okay but busy. I am still not looking for a job and this isn't good. If I'm gonna get out I gotta look out and I am not doing it enough. Work is a big ball of stress for me. This week was zero difference. I did only work again 4 days. But the extra day off wasn't for any reason at all but I was glad for it. Yup very glad. Next week I am at 4 again by choice then back to 5 after that for a few weeks at least...

2. Church beautiful on Sunday. I love my church. Even in a difference location I love my church so much. Talks and hugs and love so much. I do miss our mid week bible study. We begin the Fall one in September sometime unsure when. I will find a way to get to that one. Will be weird as we got no building so we will have no place to meet but at peoples houses again I guess kinda like Summer. Oh well I will still go!

3. Gym did it THREE times this week. Yes!! We went on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Woohoo. I did two walks as well almost did three. Walks on Tuesday and Wednesday. I also did my neck therapy for my 2nd time I have 4 more left. No therapy for shoulder for 2 more weeks bummer for my poor shoulder :( but oh well. 

4. Did the beach on Thursday with my sister and my mom. That was fun. Not a long trip just about 3 hours. But my mom came for an hour. She hasn't been to beach with us for 2 years now. So that was great change in what we normally do. Wont see the beach like this for a sadly few weeks after 3 weeks of going once a week... but the Summer is still young

5. The 29th marked 1 year since my bike accident. Talk about regrets. I have so much still for that day. I shouldn't have gone on the path we should have gotten a ride home. I shouldn't have rode so hard. I should have paid attention or walked it. I know my shoulder is healing ptl but its not better. And at this point I sadly think I could be doing this for at least another 6 months. God willing it wont be another year. I will never forget that day and while I regret it I cant change it. Its one of those things that will haunt me for the rest of my life. One of those things that changed everything and wish I could go back and not do it again. :(

Life goes on. Have a good week. Mine isn't that exciting. God bless you :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 25th 2021)

Welcome to the LAST one of these for this month. How crazy is that?? We are super flying through this month and its crazy stuff for real. How was your week?

1. Work busy. Busy always. I still need to get back to applying for jobs and stop complaining about them and not trying to change. That is not a good way to go. I did only work 4 days and my schedule remains the same so I worked less hours. My paychecks will reflect badly this but for now I am enjoying the extra time off and less work hours. God has got me. But I kinda hoped they would change my schedule a bit better. Oh well. 

2. Gym was fun. We did it THREE times wow! We did it on Monday and then on Wednesday. And again on Friday. Yes we did. Not gonna keep happening but enjoyed it for now. So there you go. Love gym time. I did two workouts as well. I did a walk on both Tuesday & Wednesday (unplanned my second day).

3. On my days off Wednesday we saw Black Widow before the gym and such. And Thursday we did a beach day. It was a nice day off. Sure I got sunburnt again and yes I wore sunblock in fact I wore it twice  :( part of the fun I guess of the beach for summer time.

4. Tuesday I got my first neck therapy in months. And I am going back next week. Taking a break for a few weeks for my shoulder. So just neck for a few. Wednesday saw the doctor and wont again for 8 weeks. Trying again for both my injection and my nerve test. And I think I could be heading towards the end of this because we are heading towards my final appointment where they will determine if I am for good disabled or not. And that would change everything. So that is whats happening there...

5. Church was beautiful on Sunday. Second week at Seabird. One more week there this coming Sunday. I love my church. And the topic was great! Depression so me! And Wednesday our last night of the book club thing for Summer. I am glad I got to go. Lots of hugs love and pictures. Beautiful fun. I am so gonna miss this. Now back to church only once a week for the next few months till Fall. See you all then!

Well that is all for now. See you all in August. Have a great last week of July. God bless you always :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 18th 2021)

 Welcome. Well today began with a BIG thunderstorm that woke me up when I barely awake and caused a bunch of thunder lightning and rain. We need the rain just wish I had an advance warning as it was not predicted at all by the coast...anyways.

1. Work was busy this week. But thats okay. I worked my 5 days but good days of hours so I could do my study which was very cool! I need to get back badly into looking for another job. Between panic attacks and then my still injuries nothing is helping at work. And my motivation for looking went away and I am unsure why as I am still just as uncomfortable as I was before....sigh.

2. Church beautiful last week. We have 2 more weeks at Seabird in downtown. No its not our building and its not a building we bought. Its a temporary location. God has this. I trust in Him who will provide a place for us in 2 weeks and a place for good. We are totally all waiting on Him to provide for us His church for His glory amen. Wednesday I got to go after my work to the study. Super glad as we only doing 1 more not 2 more and would have been sad to have found out this after I couldn't go but God let me go so off I went! Yes!

3. Workouts and gym. Only did the one walk on Tuesday sadly. But its okay. I did the gym twice as usual we did it on Monday and then again on Saturday. Fun love the gym time. Yes I do.

4. Thursday was our yearly Coronado day. We went to the island beach. Me and my sister been doing this for a few years now. Its our thing. We did the beach, then walked and got sandwiches at Which Wich. We walked around the hotel even got ice cream. But boy was I feeling all that when I got home and next day at work. Yikes lol. Tired

5. Its been 11 years since we moved to AZ we moved in and got cozy. We loved our little apartment. But boy the difference between AZ and TN was crazy. And AZ is nothing like CA. Yup. But loved our place even if it temporary. 

Thats all for now. Slower week this week but still got stuff to do. And less work. Have a blessed week. God bless you!!

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 11th 2021)

 Welcome. Busy week is done and done. I like busy weeks so NO complaints from me...not one bit!

1. Work busy busy. I didnt work as much though so that was super nice. And they changed my shifts. So I was off on Sunday the 4th. I worked Monday and then again on Friday earlier then I was gonna and Saturday. My only beef is why they keep changing our schedules less then 24hrs till they will go into affect. How is that even legal? It sure isn't right at all. If they gonna work on them do it all at once and stop messing with us. We make plans and when the schedules change might have to call out or cancel. Which isn't cool at all :( I'm also getting panic attacks at work every time I work now. Idk why they coming and its not fun for me. Idk what to do. I pray, take my mask down to breath, hold my prayer rock, pray some more and still they come. Sometimes more than one. Driving me crazy :( :(

2. GYM did it three times go us! Haven't done a 3 times in 1 week in forever. We went on Monday, then Wednesday even used the hydro machine haven't in forever and then on Friday. Fun times. I also did two walks this week Tuesday and Thursday. Yes yes. Love walks.

3. While Tuesday I did not have plans and ended up just doing stuff around the house like painting rocks, re potting some succulents, etc. On Wednesday my friend that I love so much and me went on a walk around the harbor beach. We had lunch after then I went back home to get ready for the study. But fun time. I didnt think we were gonna do it she kinda asked last week then sprung it on me for sure gonna do it last minute like day before. But blessed time of fellowshipping and stuff. I even got sunburnt my first for this summer. Not fun but hey I thought I sprayed my sunblock I realized on Thursday it was almost gone and probably didnt spray any at all which explains the burn :/ 

4. No church on Sunday was 100% depressing. ONLINE CHURCH IS NOT THE SAME THING! So I was gonna skip it anyways cause we leaving and I did. However Wednesday I got to go to the book club. Kinda bummed so many didnt come. Why when I cant come they probably all come. Sadness!! I got a ride and all so that was great but still sad for so many not there. I might be back next week we have 3 left I will be there for the last 2 and maybe one more next week. FINGER CROSSED!!

5. 4th of July we had a lot of fun. Me and my sister were gonna go to a beach and then go to San Clemente later on for the fireworks. But we couldn't find the beach. So we ended up in SC earlier then planned. We got some good ice cream at a place never been to. Then spent about 5 hours down there. Fireworks at 930. Awesome. Got some rocks, put my feet in the water, fell and hurt my butt, typical me. But fun time. Wasn't fun after not finding dominos pizza who thought up the location like that we spent almost an hour finding them and got home super late ugh

Not as busy this week but hey. I gotta get back to looking for a job my current is killing me. Still dealing with my injuries, no word on if I getting more help and now all this anxiety. Zero fun. Gods got this. Peace out. Till next week!! God bless you :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, July 4th 2021)

 Happy 4th of July everyone!! Welcome to July and we are now speeding through the year I see half way there is done and on we go...

1. Church was sadly bittersweet last week. It was our last Sunday in our building we have been renting a place out there for 3 years 8 months. We got kicked out when the building got sold and now will be in a new place we pray soon. But temporary locations coming soon. The 4th today we did not meet at all. More about that next week. So yes last day was sad. I tried to not cry. God has this. But boy I do miss our building already...

2. Work busy. Yup. Worked it all. Got 40hrs this week. But I also missed the study on Wednesday :( so good for hours but yeah work busy busy. Especially the weekend of 4th of July. Ugh. Busy too much.

3. My anxiety is bad this week. I know this is a good reminder again that I need out of work. My injury of my neck still bad. And having panic attacks at work isn't good either and I'm back to having them with zero idea why. I hate this so much. Need to try harder to get a new job!!

4. Gym twice Monday and then again on Friday BEFORE work. Yup. Made me tired but hey it was the only way we could do it twice this week. So we tried so hard. I did one walk this week oh well I tried to do more but got so tired...

5. Tuesday went to dentist pretty pointless. I do not have money for a deep cleaning. However I do need it so now I need to start looking into it and see if I can get the money for a deep cleaning maybe by end of the year. I will try to save up for it but wont be easy. Shall see I will try.

Well see you next weekend. Busier week this week in some ways. God bless always and forever. 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 29th 2021)

Last one of these for June crazy stuff! Today is bittersweet as I say good bye to our church building. We will no longer meet at the place we have been since November 2017. God brought us here now he is bringing us to a new place. And a temporary place. I know God has this. I am just praying for miracles in Him that we wont be meeting online for more than a week... 

1. Church was beautiful on Sunday. Hugs and love but a lot of people missed it :( It was Fathers Day. But my dad couldn't make it cause he's not feeling good still. Its personal no detail here. But we did eat dinner with him at home on Friday. I had to work Sunday and he didnt come. But Happy Fathers Day dad. On Wednesday I got to go to the study again which was a HUGE blessing. I hate missing them I will miss 2 more total but that means I will have gone to 6 of 9 when this is over! Hurray! I love my church and studies. I love them. Its weird to think two years ago I was forced into doing these by my own Pastor because he wanted me to start making friends and talking to people. And now I cant get enough of them. I am a whole new person then I was 2 years ago. God works and changes me all the time and I am happy about that. I am glad I am no longer the girl who ignored everyone and tried to not talk to a single soul at church and dodged them all for a year. Loving real people scared the crap out to me and I came to church for God not them. Now I come for God and then them. Every single week! Love you all!! Miss the ones that dont come or have moved out of the state :( 

2. My dear Rainbow should have turned 19 on Wednesday the 23rd. Happy Birthday my love. I miss you so much. I think my broken heart is still not healed. I think its healing but not healed. I still cry every time I think about her. I had several break downs early on Wednesday before I went out and took my mind off thing. I just want her back with me. Life made sense I had a purpose I felt loved. Now I seek that love in people at church that I once only felt from her. My baby. I will be your mommy forever and I am pretty sure I will always miss you. But this year was a bit easier then last year. 

3. Had some adventures this week. Tuesday being my favorite. I got to hang out with my very dear good friend that I love so much. Last year during the pandemic when so much was closed and she and me couldn't see many other people we did 5 total walks. This was my first walk with her this year. I've been trying to get together since March but she's busy. Finally we found a day for a walk! I pray for one more hang out this year at least 1 more. I will take whatever she wants to do. To talk to her about all kinds of things and just enjoy her company. Something I missed so badly. I was feeling so long the I had screwed up our friendship 3 times this year. Issues I had. But she forgave me and loves me and still prays for me. She knows so much about me still loves me. I've never met a single person that know so much and I put through so much that didnt run out of the door. All I've known leave me the first time I have an issue and not work the details out. She is a blessing unique and I am so thankful for her in my life. God brought us together to be friends cause I needed her so much! I love you friend!!! Wednesday being Rainbows birthday we were going to do the beach but it was all rainy weird. So we went to Victoria Beach in Laguna Beach for the Pirate Tower. It was a fun thing to do but boy getting there was painful. The weather misbehaving. But we had fun. Then I did the study later on. 

4. Gym twice this week only we did it on Monday and again on Friday. Fun times I love the gym. I love we are no longer fitness distancing which means all the machines open no spaces between so much better then when we had to be spaced apart. I did only one walk on my own on Thursday as Tuesday I said was with my friend. Love my walks. 

5. Work busy. Losing people. Co worker quitting last day is July 1st. Gods keeping me uncomfortable because if I get comfortable I wont want to leave and I know its time I leave too. Another sick and one on vacation less people more stress. Sure we dont count anymore but we still check receipts and that is how I got my pinched nerve. Or what I believe is one. Ugh. But didnt work on Wednesday so that was good :) 

See you all in July. Have a blessed week. Mine is less busy this time and for sure less fun. But oh well. God bless you!! :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 20th 2021)

 Happy Fathers Day to all the dads out there. Blessings to you all!! Almost through this month crazy. This coming week will be way busy. This past week not so much...

1. Work is busy and such. We need more people. But the 15th came and went and now we dont ask people for mask anymore and we dont count them. I'm unsure what we do when there is 2 of us up there. Greet people? We still dont scan stuff, hand out stickers and the doors arent all open. Idk if we know what to do. But people come in and we say squat. I have made progress in applying for jobs. Now I wait. I am applying and putting myself out there. And praying for a new job by Fall is still my new *goal*.

2. Tuesday I did absolutely nothing like leave the house. But for my walk. But I did. begin to paint rocks for my friend. I am going to give them to her next week. We get to hang out twice. They are for garden for her neighbors. I am planning 4 to 8 new rocks each week depending on how busy I am. Along with all else. That is how I spent my free day doing nothing.

3. Therapy is good. My shoulder is doing better "less crunchy" was the description. 11 more sessions to go before Idk. I should be good for neck therapy but nothing else from them. So next week I will check back and see where we are at. Haven't heard back about the nerve test or other injection. Praying Gods will and Gods continued healing yes please.

4. Gym did it twice Monday and again on Friday. Good time. Love my gym time never complaining. Also did two walks this week. I almost did three but lost my energy and did rocks not walks on Wednesday. Oh well. Yup.

5. Church beautiful hugs and love and prayers. Sad a friend is leaving with her husband almost to Texas by now. :( I will miss her SO MUCH! Also didnt get to go to the study on Wednesday. I will be missing 2 more of them. I hate missing any of them. I truly do. Why oh why are they on Wednesdays. But I get to go to most of them so there is that 6 out of 9 isn't bad at all.

Well have a blessed week. See you all next weekend. Last one of these for the month of June. God bless you all :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 13th 2021)

 Welcome to another fun filled week for me. Was busy busy for sure yes yes it was

1. Work this week busy. I worked full shifts but less shifts. I had to call out AGAIN on Wednesday but thank God when they changed my shifts they left my little 6 hour alone so I only had to use 5 hours of PTO not 8 hours big difference! Anyways work is busy and such. Doing my best to get out of there ASAP. Applying and searching jobs and putting myself out there. I cant give up my new goal since Summer is clearly not gonna happen is to be gone by September! I can do this yes I can! God willing I can do this :)

2. Church is beautiful. I love my church. Hugs and love and prayers. Praying for us as we are almost out of our current building and I am kinda sad TBH. :( We will be gone by the 27th. That means just 3 more Sundays in our church building we have called home for 3.5 years. UGH. But God has big plans I will get used to the new place. And the temporary place too. Wednesday went to the book study again. It was fun. But sadly next week cant go :( I wish they still doing it Thursdays I wish they had kept this up and then I could have gone every week. Now its pick and chose. I got first two weeks and then not this coming week but next week here and there. Oh well. Some better then none...

3. Did my doctor on Wednesday he wants to order a nerve test to see if I got a pinched nerve at work of course. And he also wants me to get another injection different kind. Also why didnt I get therapy nothing ever happened with that? That was pretty much my whole appointment. And talking about the surgeon I saw last month which told me I dont need surgery I had forgotten all about that being after my last visit. Its been a long month! Its a month now since my injections. Whether they helped me or not it was not like I thought or hoped. They might have helped me some but not enough for me to notice like I thought I would...Gods got me! Yes He does!

4. Gym did it just twice. We exhausted so only twice. Monday and again on Friday. Due to conflicting work schedules. But I love the gym. I did two walks as well one on Wednesday and one on Thursday. Love my walks. 

5. Tuesday was super busy day but fun. We first went to the zoo for like 2 hours to look at the new hummingbird place it was fun. Then we saw the Koalas. And got snacks and left. I got some hummingbird stuff finally spending some of my birthday money been dragging along with me all year long still have some left lol. 

Well less busy this week. No study but work and stuff. Unsure about therapy for my shoulder. And maybe a hang out or nothing on Tuesday. If nothing else I will chill and do stuff at home. Have a great week everyone. God bless you!! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, June 6th 2021)

Welcome to June. June is not an easy month for me. But hard to believe we are going towards Summer!! Wow!! Crazy. How was your week? Mine was busy but not busy all at once. 

1. Its been 10 years since we visited from Arizona. Its just weird thinking about how it has been that long. That trip was so fun. But we had NO idea we would be forced to move back home after our trip just 3 months later. I don't regret the trip fully but knowing what I know now maybe we shouldn't have done it... you just never know how much things can change in such a short period of time.

2. Therapy was not bad on Thursday. I however only have 1 left and then they are going to order more. This week on Monday I felt like I had a pinched nerve and I am still unsure where it was. So my shoulder has been very sore all week. I was glad for extra work on Thursday. I also managed 3 walks this week all earlier in the day then I usually go. We did the gym 3 times as well wow! I mean wow cause we haven't been going 3 times a week for the past two weeks. We went Monday, Thursday and Saturday. Fun times. No complaints love the gym.

3. Tuesday we had a fun time going to the movies. We saw Cruella. It was a funny movie we really enjoyed it. And I was glad to go to the movies haven't done it since last year. We had dinner at the habit. It was a nice night out for sure.

4. Work is busy was so busy last weekend for the holiday weekend. Ugh. I worked Sunday and Monday. I did call out on Wednesday took a personal day used PTO because they changed my schedule on me and I didnt want to not do the plans I had done. I truly want them to give me 40hrs a week but only on a schedule not yet posted. Don't change the schedule on me days before it begins or a day before. :/ I am working harder now to try for a new job. I am going to be applying, updating and working hard. I truly want to be out of there by end of Summer. I will miss my co worker friends. But I have to believe God wants to get out there. He has got me super uncomfortable this week two time talked to one time written up. God willing end of Summer here we come

5. Church was beautiful Sunday. Love and hugs and prayers. I always love my church. And then on Wednesday night we made the book club. I was so happy. I got to go with my dear friend that I love so much. She took me and brought me home. The book is excellent but sadly we only did the intro adding another week to the study would be fine but since I cant come most of them its like another one I will miss. But I get to come to 4 total at least so there is that!

Well have a great week. This will be a busy one for me. God bless you all. Stay safe! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, May 30th 2021)

 Welcome. Last one of these for the month of May. Crazy. Hard to believe we are now heading to the middle of the year. Yikes!!

1. Been thinking about my therapy and injuries a lot more than I should I guess. Yesterday marked 10 months since I hurt myself on the bike and also 11 months since I filed my workmenscomp injury case for work. I've been dealing with my neck pains and injury for over a year and going on towards nearly a year of my shoulder. I praise God for healing me. Its just a slow process. And some days I feel more pains and I am tired and I just let the pain get to me. 

2. Did my shoulder therapy this week. And thank God slowly but sure I am getting more approved. Which is a great thing. Thank God for that! I also got paid for taking that Monday off for my injections. Little things to be thankful about. After therapy we went and saw peacocks again. It was fun time again so yeah

3. Church beautiful last week. We are super close to getting our building. God willing we will have it sooner then later in time to get it fixed up before we kicked out on July 10th. Yes church love :)

4. Gym did it twice again. I kinda miss doing it three times a week this is the second week we only did it twice sad sigh :( Only did one walks as well on Tuesday. But it was a nice walk at that. So there you go.

5. Work is kinda crappy this week. They changed my schedule (again) yes I need 40hrs a week but they did it on a day I was planning stuff on next Wednesday I had it all planned out to go the book study for church and then they go and give me a full shift mid. So now I am gonna call out and use my paid time off for that. I got talked to by my manger on Monday for some issues half of her blame actually all was not for me like things she blamed me for. And then Wednesday I screwed up by accident and Saturday got my first coach. Which means goes on my record for a year a write up for my job kind. I get 2 more and I get fired. I have been there 2.5 years on the 10th of June and this is my thanks. I think God is trying to make me uncomfortable so I start to actually look for work. Come on this is motivation it is. I spent half my Saturday in garden which made me glad for real :) 

Well I am exhausted and only half way through my 4 day holiday weekend crowd. Yuck. Have a blessed week. And see you all in June :) 

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, May 23rd 2021)

Welcome. Less busy week is done. Next week is even less busy yup yup

1. Work this week busy busy usual. I worked all my shift. Including the fact they gave me 40hrs this week and next week so I am working more. You know I wanted to work more. Its exhausting me but I need the money and hours. Sure its confusing. They didnt touch in two weeks just this week and next week. The following I am back to my less then 40hrs odd shifts. Oh boy.

2. Church beautiful. Love smiles and hugs. And all that good jazz. And we starting up the book club next month. Sadly on Wednesdays so it will be harder for me to go but I will try a few times! I am just excited its in person. Last Summer we did it on Zoom. I hated it so much! I love my church. Praying we find a building soon we running out of time...

3. Workouts. Gym only twice sadly :( this after WEEKS of doing it three times. Just didnt work. I worked a full closing and she worked a full opening so we couldn't do it more than twice. Monday and again on Friday. Ugh. But nice still we used to only go once a week I guess twice better then that. And anything better then no gym like it was a year ago. Did two walks too. Yes I did. Love them too!!

4. Tuesday was a busy day. I had an appointment in La Jolla with a specialist. Good news I got from that is: my neck will get better & I dont need surgery. Other then that it was pretty pointless. But we did go to the aquarium first time in almost 4 years! Fun. Food before and after. Yup. Busy day. Thursday back to my shoulder therapy. I have to fight for more I have 3 left. I also made an appointment for my dentist cleaning but a month in advance they so booked up people are so weird. They waited to get their shots before doing cleanings :/

5. Its been 7 years since we had those bad fires in our area very scary. They nearly got us and Legoland and a bunch of places. Most were set on fire. I will never get why people get a thrill from doing that so wrong. Glad we are not having them this year fingers crossed. 

Okay then one more of these till we almost in June. Times a flying. Have a good week. God bless you!! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, May 16th 2021)

 Welcome to another fun filled week! Or was it?

1. Work this week was short lived. I didnt work at all for 5 days total (2 I already get off). I had to call out and had time off too. So I only worked this past week on Friday & Saturday. Woohoo. Was like a mini vacation except I wasn't doing fun stuff on either day I called out on. Just on Sunday when I got off like I should have gotten Wednesday off but they didnt do that...

2. Church was beautiful on Sunday. It was mothers day so that was fun. Me and my sister both got off that was great. Church I had my very good friend and also my Pastor prayed for me for my procedure on Monday that was freaking me out. Love and hugs there too. Later on we went out to eat at Islands and took a drive tried to not do anything unless my mother being her day wanted to...yup

3. GYM did it three times this week. Monday we went early in the morning because of my procedure later on, then we did it Wednesday and then again on Friday. Yup. Only one walk this week on Thursday. I was not feeling like walking on Tuesday I wanted to do nothing at all and that is pretty much what I did. Oh well. 

4. Monday I had my procedure I had 2 injections in my neck for pain. I am still praying they begin to work it could take up to 2 weeks for them to settle down in there. Gods got this! It was a scary thing. I have had only one surgery ever in my life and that was for my knee injury in 1999. That was an actual surgery. This was not but it was sure darn close. They gave me an IV for the numb of the area but it kinda knocked me out. I recall getting on the table and face down and them washing my neck and then next thing I know it they saying I needed to roll onto the bed they rolled me out on. After I sat for a few minutes they knew I was okay I was taken out in a wheelchair I could not walk on my own. I was so dizzy. At home I finally just relaxed the pain came later on. I began to ice it finally. I kept the bandaids on till Thursday skipping my actual shower. No I didnt have to they told me I could shower next day but I chose this I was just freaked out by all this. Wednesday we went and I saw my specialist that had done my shot on Monday. And he told me that there are other options too if this works and the pain comes back we can do radiology or something. He is also asking for more therapy and I have a specialist I am seeing next week too in La Jolla not close to home. It was a lot to take in tbh. I am just glad I can get paid for Monday which is good so I only get 1 point once this in and 1 day not paid. I'm kinda over this but oh well. 

5. Its been 11 years since we flew from TN to CA with my dog Rainbow whom yes I still miss so much. But that flight was interesting for sure doing all that with my dog. Of course we thought we should move back to be closer to home after that and months later we ended up moving to Arizona. All cause we came out for a week to California to visit. 

Another busy week ahead of me. I did skip my shoulder therapy cause I was unsure after my thing if I wanted to. But I did miss doing it for sure. Back to it this week. Have a good week. God bless you!! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, May 9th 2021)

Happy Mothers Day out there to all you moms! Whether you have human kids or furry children they are still children. Happy day one and all!

1. Church was beautiful last week. Great message. Great love afterwards. Hugs and love. Some sadness as one of my dear friends is moving across the country but promises to come back for a visit once a month. I will miss her so much. Still such a blessing having friends that love me and pray for me so when they leave sure it leaves a hole in my heart but I am glad I still know them and will see them again. If not on earth in heaven for sure. Blessings!!

2. Tuesday went on a walk with my dear friend wife of my Pastor. She's a wonderful lady. We been trying to find time for a walk together. So we walked by the beach. Beautiful day out btw. I sure felt that later on lol but it was still a fun time. It kinda wore me out and I came home and took a nap for a few hours I was so tired. Yawn. Oh well.

3. GYM this week another 3 times we doing so great!! Even small workouts mean we getting shape. So happiness. We went on Monday, Wednesday before work and again on Saturday after work. Love the gym. Also did a walk by the house on Thursday I skipped on Tuesday (see above) was just too tired from my beach walk. Oh well.

4. Work is busy and we so short handed. Ugh. I mean Sunday was okay we had plenty then Monday we had 1 closer. Wednesday I had to close alone :( but Friday and Saturday both mornings so it good. We usually covered during the day and morning usually its nights we have issues with on some days....sigh. But after Saturday I am off for 5 days total (including 2 I am always off and 3 more plus). Yup.

5. I had my last chiropractor on Thursday :( A piece of me is not prepared for this. 12 sessions of each thing and now we done. But I have my injection next week this coming one, another doctors and another specialist. I am just praying we nearing the end of what they can do and nearing the end of this issue so I can be done going to the doctors and just focus on my shoulder. Oh please.

Well busy week this one. I am not working much but sure am doing a lot. Have a blessed day. See you all next weekend. God bless you!! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, May 2nd 2021)

Welcome to May. May Day May Day. What is May Day anyways? Oh thats right its some holiday that people celebrate for Spring. I swear I thought it was something else ;) How was your week? Mine was busy busy

1. Work is busy as busy does. That is work for me. We got a new person which is great! I still didnt hear back from Hobby Lobby and thats my fault for not checking but TBH if I gotta check its probably not happening which is weird since last year they called me on their own and now they dont want me :( oh well. I will check back in a few days I promise just unsure when I have so much going on right now. Yeah work is busy as usual per usual. And our hours go back to more normal as of this weekend ugh. 

2. GYM did it THREE times this past week THREE TIMES! Thats crazy. Monday, Wednesday (before work) and Saturday. Wow. I love the gym and I am still so happy we can go to the gym whenever we want to. I am slowly getting in shape even if we do very little no weights just other stuff. Maybe someday weights too. Yup. I also did my 2 walks for the week. On Tuesday it began to rain right after I left and I was like what the? well it wasn't much but it was enough to annoy me and worry me that it would get worse and I had no way to just go back home. I toughed it out and the rain was gone mostly by time I got home. Weirdness for sure!

3. Church is great and beautiful. And love and friends and so much more. I love my church. I love praying for people and opening up to them. I know church is still gotta be about God as number 1 and then all else. But I look back at when I didnt talk to anyone at church and realize how a lonely life I lived was truly indeed. God is good and working in me still amen!

4. This weekend May 1st and 2nd marks 11 years since the Great Nashville Flood. I miss my southern state a lot. And I still will never forget that weekend where so much got ruined and some stuff never came back the same. It took the mall and so many stores didnt come back after it re opened 2 years later. I am grateful it didnt hit us but it got close. And it happened a week before we were going to go out to California for my cousins wedding so the timing really did suck. Miss and love you Nashville!!

5. Did my chiropractor only once this week thanks to a mess up I should have gone Tuesday and Thursday but they thought I said Wednesday so I had to reschedule till next week! I did Chiropractor and then my shoulder therapy. Good news is I am improving my shoulder is more flexible and they are giving me a new exercise to do when I am there. I know this is a slow process but I am healing I truly am God is healing me. I also got approved to get the shot in my neck finally lined up for May 10th. The date sucks (day my grandma died in 2006 sigh) but its gotta be done and I see the doctor the 12th. Now gotta square this with work so I can get paid and not get a point for calling out.... wish me luck. Ick.

Well its been a weird week for weather. Rain some and then hot and heat spells and back and fourth. But we heading towards Summer again. Here we come. Have a great week everyone. God bless!! :)

The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 25th 2021)

 Last one of these for this month crazy stuff. This week was busy but not as much as I thought...

1. Work is busy busy. Back to my 5 days again this week. My hours go up and down like a bouncy ball. I haven't applied for any other jobs yet and I have to still check back with Hobby Lobby its been nearly 3 weeks now since I applied. Last year when they called me I never had to call them first so I believe that is not a good sign. Which is weird as he thought they hiring AND my availability is exactly the same :( So there is that...and then some!

2. GYM did it twice but not our usual. We usually do it Mondays and then either Friday or Saturday. But thanks to me closing Friday and my sister Saturday we went Monday and Wednesday. Next week we MIGHT go three times shall see. Either way love the gym of course always. Even before work was tiring it was fun. Workouts at home just my usual two walks but it awesome for sure.

3. Chiropractor twice last week. I have two more left then?? I am trying to get a shot in my neck and this is week two of me not getting said shot. She claimed she will send the paperwork on Monday cause thats her easiest day my question is: why didnt she send it LAST Monday without me having to check on Tuesday? How would I even know this? I wish this simple thing that should be simple was not so dang complicated. Ugh. I got back to the shoulder therapy and at least for two days my shoulder wasn't hurting like he had been. Thankful for this. Just praying I can get more after my 6 are done after all I fought hard for another 12 and only got 6 cause it makes no sense at all :((

4. Church was beautiful last week per usual. Love and hugs. And making up with people again. I really got issues man but I am forgiven and I am thankful. And tonight as I write this I again forgave myself. Incase you didnt know this at least me personally I sometimes need to actually forgive myself. And then ask Jesus please take away that guilt cause its not from Him for sure.

5. I have lots of mental issues that I dont even understand. So I am working on me. On top of my health issues I want to work on in the next couple of months I want to work on my mental health too. Maybe get finally diagnosed with ADHD like I should have long ago. I think I have other issues too. I am unsure what or how much. I cant afford to spend much so I will look into this more after I finish with my neck stuff, teeth stuff and personally stuff. So maybe this Summer is my goal to take care of my mental health. Stay tuned if I feel like talking I will...

thats all for now. May is coming. And April is done. I am a bit sad I love April. Oh well! Have a blessed week. God bless you. :)