Welcome to the last one of these for April crazy right. This month flew by. Weird this year. First few months felt slow now they are flying by. We are heading towards May. I cant believe we are almost done with April!!
1. I have become lazy. I can blame constant tiredness or going online too much or being sick or whatever working too much. But I have literally stopped doing stuff I did all the time before. In the last few months possibly last year since I lost my job. I don't tweet as much I used to tweet twice a day at night 2 tweets at least. Now I barely do those if I think of them. I also used to count down at work with tweets I don't do those yet here I have tried but failed after the first one of the day. Doing 4 Idk how I can do that. I can try again today shall see no promises!! I don't read books for fun this stopped years ago has gotten worse. I am trying to bring my time of Quiet with God back again since it was falling apart. Yet I still fall asleep during quiet times and sometimes during prayers. I hate this. I am not talking laying in bed this happens when I am up and sitting in a chair in the light or dark. It doesn't matter how tired I am or not I still fall asleep 9 out of 10 times WHICH SUCKS! I just don't know who I am anymore and I don't like it. Speeding now 8 months till 40 I need to revamp myself quickly. Starting with a new job which I need to look for. I have begun processes to change my schedule and the patience to get to that point is gonna be tough cookie. Ugh. I didnt think my mid life would look like this. I didnt. Plus I have gotten to where I don't stop at a few pieces of chocolate a day lately I allow too much again. I pretend while knowing its bad. I don't want to lose my eyesight or my body part to this disease. I need to recall that. I know my fasting blood sugar is still in control but I don't test more than once a day. Unless I wanna force that more than once like others do. I can then see how I am recking myself. I need to balance this out. Beginning in May if not sooner if I do not get back on track I will force myself to test more than once a day AND IT WILL NOT BE PRETTY! I hate you diabetes so much all the time :(
2. GYM did it once again this week. Ugh. I want to find time to be able to go more often. But we are now back to the fact I don't drive and its not easy. Last week my sister came not this week. My dad took me my sister had to work. So I miss the GYM and hope to begin to go back. Maybe with a new schedule I can start going more often. Fingers crossed oh yes please.
3. Work this week. I hated working on Easter last week it wasn't fun. I guess I should have asked for it off. Last year I was spoiled I got to do church twice on Good Friday and then on Easter. This time I worked of course. Yuck. Work is stressful. Even with a new schedule I am NOT promising I won't try to transfer to another store or another position in the store or heck get another job. I am promising this new schedule will help my better well being which began to falter the moment I got stuck only closing almost 2 months ago. 2 more weeks I am counting on it!!
4. School is going okay. I am sad we are almost done. 4 more shows. And one of my two news guys wants to take over my last hour. I am hopeful he might just do it after I am done. If not I will have to plan one less hour next time (not this coming week next one). I will not do it my last week that is a rule set by my manager. NO doing that!! But yeah unsure about summer shall see how things work out. I want to do it because I want a full set of 2 years experience so I can put that on job apps in the future if not sooner. Shall see stay tuned.
5. Thursday was a busy day. I went with my mom to the bird thing a week early on a week day. We are going this coming week too I got the day off. But this time we just went for fun in the morning. For like 1.5hours ironic to find wood ducks we saw none. Haha. But had some fun. Except 2 bug bites on my hands that is not fun no thank you stupid bugs!! :( But yeah that was fun. Then after we came home later me and my sister went to zoo again. She is sick. So it was like 2.5hours again. WE said good bye to the pandas. I cant believe they are leaving us on the 29th for good. We hope for new ones to come again soon. I will miss them. They began here in 1996 I was just a teenager I am sure we saw them sometime we went there for our vacation. I will miss you pandas. Also only saw penguins mostly. Then were done. Got food and dunkin' donuts then came home to chill.
Well see you all in May. Things this month include new job schedule, finishing up school, mothers day, anniversary of grandmas departure, and our concert (which I cant wait for) and hopefully another trip to Universal and would love to go to the safari park haven't done that yet with our passes and only been to the zoo 3x so far. Heres to hoping and planning. God bless you all. See you all next week. :)
Saturday, April 27, 2019
Sunday, April 21, 2019
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 21st 2019)
Welcome on this fine Easter morning. I pray you know the real reason for Easter. It is actually resurrection day and it is the day we celebrate that Jesus Christ is out of the of the tomb as He promised on the 3rd day. Today. I love Easter! While Christmas is my favorite holiday this is my 2nd favorite.
1. GYM this week only once almost again twice. Oh well we tried. My sister actually came with me to the GYM first time in months. It was wonderful. But sadly very short. Only a 20min workout. Barely made the Sprinter. But hey we tried
2. School is fine. Show 11 was great. I had fun. I love my show. I am sad that we are now speeding towards the end of semester. And no idea if I am doing this for the Summer. It would be an internship under a different department. So we shall see. And have to be on one of the two days I already do not work.
3. I so need a new job. I am over this one. But on I go. Busy week of course. But they threw in a random rare and I am sure not on purpose day when I came in at 8am and left at 5pm. On a Wednesday. I always always always close on Wednesday never have not since began. So it was great. Sure they had no one to cover door. But you know what we need more people. I need more shifts where I do not close I need mids or openings. I am going crazy. It was peaceful. I felt less stress then I usually do. It was great. I will miss it since I won't have it again for a while till I get my schedule fixed I hope this week oh please yes.
4. My parents are back home now. Yup. They came back on Wednesday night. Sadly we cleaned little and little has changed. Back to normal. While its great they are home mind you I missed them terribly my first few days. Same time its just not easy. Our realities are just how they are for now. Best we can we live
5. Went to the doctor for my 3 month check up on Thursday. They drew my blood first time since September for real not just checked my sugar levels. Unsure what they found out. But I have lost another 14 pounds. I am slowly but surely going towards my goal of where I was back in high school. Just 44 pounds more to go. I am happy I am losing weight. Not shocked. But yeah the price I paid to get here. Diabetes sucks. I won't sugar coat it or make it look great when it does suck. Sucks my life from me. Slowly kills me. Takes away so much joy I had. Anyways.
Well that is all for now. Slow week before us nothing happening except maybe Thursday. Maybe. Hope you have a great week. Happy Easter. God bless you all always. :)
1. GYM this week only once almost again twice. Oh well we tried. My sister actually came with me to the GYM first time in months. It was wonderful. But sadly very short. Only a 20min workout. Barely made the Sprinter. But hey we tried
2. School is fine. Show 11 was great. I had fun. I love my show. I am sad that we are now speeding towards the end of semester. And no idea if I am doing this for the Summer. It would be an internship under a different department. So we shall see. And have to be on one of the two days I already do not work.
3. I so need a new job. I am over this one. But on I go. Busy week of course. But they threw in a random rare and I am sure not on purpose day when I came in at 8am and left at 5pm. On a Wednesday. I always always always close on Wednesday never have not since began. So it was great. Sure they had no one to cover door. But you know what we need more people. I need more shifts where I do not close I need mids or openings. I am going crazy. It was peaceful. I felt less stress then I usually do. It was great. I will miss it since I won't have it again for a while till I get my schedule fixed I hope this week oh please yes.
4. My parents are back home now. Yup. They came back on Wednesday night. Sadly we cleaned little and little has changed. Back to normal. While its great they are home mind you I missed them terribly my first few days. Same time its just not easy. Our realities are just how they are for now. Best we can we live
5. Went to the doctor for my 3 month check up on Thursday. They drew my blood first time since September for real not just checked my sugar levels. Unsure what they found out. But I have lost another 14 pounds. I am slowly but surely going towards my goal of where I was back in high school. Just 44 pounds more to go. I am happy I am losing weight. Not shocked. But yeah the price I paid to get here. Diabetes sucks. I won't sugar coat it or make it look great when it does suck. Sucks my life from me. Slowly kills me. Takes away so much joy I had. Anyways.
Well that is all for now. Slow week before us nothing happening except maybe Thursday. Maybe. Hope you have a great week. Happy Easter. God bless you all always. :)
Sunday, April 14, 2019
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 14th 2019)
Welcome welcome. How was your week? Mine was rough and tough. I'm at Starbucks now watching a lady bring her dog inside. Wondering why I never bring my dog inside when I take her I didnt know it allowed... Well anyways. Its a beautiful Sunny day here in California. No complaints on the weather.
1. Work this week blah! My schedule was a mess but got fixed last weekend so I worked my usual. But it was stressful week. Most days so stressful. Wednesday was very long. And Saturday and Friday ugh. Today I hope is better. I am still trying to get my hours changed at work so I won't be closing on Saturdays & Mondays. I am also working on getting a new job asap. I just need to find time. Which is still hard to find. Energy isn't going to happen. I cant wait to do anything for that or more sleep yeah right. Even when I get it I am tired so there is that. But I might make it to 6 months then I can transfer to another store or another position. At this point anything is better then where I work. I am trying to not sound ungrateful but this job brings beyond the amounts of stress for me plus being on my feet so much. I am going to look for office jobs. A real job. I am unsure how that would affect going to school. Without school at least 6 units my student loan comes after me. And I DO NOT have $400 a month to pay them too! Catch 22 it is Catch 22 :(
2. The 10th marked 10 years since our Good Friday tornado hit Murfreesboro, TN. I will never forget that day. We had monster storms rolling in hours before early hours. It sounded like a dinosaur. My sister and me were up per usual late at night and it scared us all so bad that the animals were all afraid too. I had the weather radio in my room like I always did. I had woken up a few hours earlier and thought the storms had passed maybe up by Nashville. With my regular radio on I turned it off for a bit it always gave me weird dreams. I got up to get ready. My sister had to work at the mall and I was going with her as I did sometimes just to hang out. I would go online look at magazines work on celeb stuff and get food to eat. It was my fun day out I did it usually once a week. I had chosen that day. I turned the weather radio on as I getting dressed I wasn't even really wearing much just my pjs when I heard the tornado was not only in our area but on the ground. This went from a tornado warning to a tornado touch down. I had to run to my sisters room scream at her to wake up. The sirens going off. We had to throw ourselves in the bathroom. My cat got a carrier but we never got Maggie in one she was in her cubbie she loved so much but nothing protected. The cats were just kittens Rocky & Jackie not even 1 year yet. And Rainbow. I threw our computers in there with their backpacks and a blanket for protection. I was on the phone with my mom who was out to lunch with my dad. We were on the phone together. We had the door open a crack the kittens kept getting out so we would chase them. I recall going outside once for a second hail the size of dimes falling I held a few watched my neighbors stand outside looking at something behind us. My sister also came out once to get the kittens. Around noon the lights flickered I lost my connection with my mom and we heard a weird sound a weird sound never heard before. Had no idea what happening. We finally were safe after about 2 hours in there. My sister had to call out of work on a land line someone had there was no cell phone connections yet. Then we watched the news and saw how bad it was. How the tornado had rolled across all over our city. It had gone across our high way/free way they caught it on camera. The craziest was the person who had stood across the street from our apartments and filmed it. As it had rolled behind us by blocks you could see how close it was. had we looked outside we could have seen it. God kept us safe. We were unharmed but our city was damaged and a mother and baby girl lost their lives. 10 years seems like nothing. We left TN in 2010 and only there for the first year anniversary. I miss TN I miss the crazy weather and all. But that day wow just nuts!! See? I will never forget it!!
3. GYM did it once almost did it twice!! I went on Tuesday my sister dropped me off. Nice workout even if I very tired. I am glad to go once a week wish I could go more. Then I went to school. WE almost went on Thursday my sister and me we haven't worked out together in forever. But my sister too tired after work so that never happened...
4. School is okay. Show 10 was good. But sadly I dropped my online class because the homework was getting to be too much work. Now I will be in trouble again with my financial aid they will come after me they did last year. In the mean time I will try to do some online stuff over the summer maybe that will right my wrong shall see. I will try I really will!! Work is truly taking all I am and all my time. Aka need a real good new job. But love my radio show and I am sad we are coming closer to end of semester again :(
5. My parents and youngest sister left on a trip up NORTH on Monday afternoon. They are still gone. It is so weird not having them home. Its weird all over the place. I keep forgetting they aren't there. I am so used to it. I miss them truly I do. They never go for this long. They are gone 10 days. They will be back this week Wednesday evening. Some days we are gone all day some we are gone part. Tomorrow I have to ride the bus first time since they left before this relying on my sister. Wednesday I will get a ride. I am early today skipping church to sit in Starbucks do my show before work so I don't have to ride the bus two days in a row. Oh well. I am okay. I will be glad when they home and normal can sorta return.
Well that is all for now. Nothing special this week just norm. Plus a doctors appointment I hope on Thursday. I paid for my medicine last week $5 each it so painful doing this. I truly need a job that gives me 30 hours a week. Not necessarily one I am in now. And if I had that I could get my medical back and not have to pay for everything suffer cause I cant go to any kind of doctor and pay for them too. Till then I am doing my best but this is taking all my extra money and then some. I never thought I would miss my free medical till I actually needed then lost it :( till next week have a good one. Happy Palm Sunday. God bless you all. Blessed is Him who comes in the name of the Lord. Amen my Jesus :)
1. Work this week blah! My schedule was a mess but got fixed last weekend so I worked my usual. But it was stressful week. Most days so stressful. Wednesday was very long. And Saturday and Friday ugh. Today I hope is better. I am still trying to get my hours changed at work so I won't be closing on Saturdays & Mondays. I am also working on getting a new job asap. I just need to find time. Which is still hard to find. Energy isn't going to happen. I cant wait to do anything for that or more sleep yeah right. Even when I get it I am tired so there is that. But I might make it to 6 months then I can transfer to another store or another position. At this point anything is better then where I work. I am trying to not sound ungrateful but this job brings beyond the amounts of stress for me plus being on my feet so much. I am going to look for office jobs. A real job. I am unsure how that would affect going to school. Without school at least 6 units my student loan comes after me. And I DO NOT have $400 a month to pay them too! Catch 22 it is Catch 22 :(
2. The 10th marked 10 years since our Good Friday tornado hit Murfreesboro, TN. I will never forget that day. We had monster storms rolling in hours before early hours. It sounded like a dinosaur. My sister and me were up per usual late at night and it scared us all so bad that the animals were all afraid too. I had the weather radio in my room like I always did. I had woken up a few hours earlier and thought the storms had passed maybe up by Nashville. With my regular radio on I turned it off for a bit it always gave me weird dreams. I got up to get ready. My sister had to work at the mall and I was going with her as I did sometimes just to hang out. I would go online look at magazines work on celeb stuff and get food to eat. It was my fun day out I did it usually once a week. I had chosen that day. I turned the weather radio on as I getting dressed I wasn't even really wearing much just my pjs when I heard the tornado was not only in our area but on the ground. This went from a tornado warning to a tornado touch down. I had to run to my sisters room scream at her to wake up. The sirens going off. We had to throw ourselves in the bathroom. My cat got a carrier but we never got Maggie in one she was in her cubbie she loved so much but nothing protected. The cats were just kittens Rocky & Jackie not even 1 year yet. And Rainbow. I threw our computers in there with their backpacks and a blanket for protection. I was on the phone with my mom who was out to lunch with my dad. We were on the phone together. We had the door open a crack the kittens kept getting out so we would chase them. I recall going outside once for a second hail the size of dimes falling I held a few watched my neighbors stand outside looking at something behind us. My sister also came out once to get the kittens. Around noon the lights flickered I lost my connection with my mom and we heard a weird sound a weird sound never heard before. Had no idea what happening. We finally were safe after about 2 hours in there. My sister had to call out of work on a land line someone had there was no cell phone connections yet. Then we watched the news and saw how bad it was. How the tornado had rolled across all over our city. It had gone across our high way/free way they caught it on camera. The craziest was the person who had stood across the street from our apartments and filmed it. As it had rolled behind us by blocks you could see how close it was. had we looked outside we could have seen it. God kept us safe. We were unharmed but our city was damaged and a mother and baby girl lost their lives. 10 years seems like nothing. We left TN in 2010 and only there for the first year anniversary. I miss TN I miss the crazy weather and all. But that day wow just nuts!! See? I will never forget it!!
3. GYM did it once almost did it twice!! I went on Tuesday my sister dropped me off. Nice workout even if I very tired. I am glad to go once a week wish I could go more. Then I went to school. WE almost went on Thursday my sister and me we haven't worked out together in forever. But my sister too tired after work so that never happened...
4. School is okay. Show 10 was good. But sadly I dropped my online class because the homework was getting to be too much work. Now I will be in trouble again with my financial aid they will come after me they did last year. In the mean time I will try to do some online stuff over the summer maybe that will right my wrong shall see. I will try I really will!! Work is truly taking all I am and all my time. Aka need a real good new job. But love my radio show and I am sad we are coming closer to end of semester again :(
5. My parents and youngest sister left on a trip up NORTH on Monday afternoon. They are still gone. It is so weird not having them home. Its weird all over the place. I keep forgetting they aren't there. I am so used to it. I miss them truly I do. They never go for this long. They are gone 10 days. They will be back this week Wednesday evening. Some days we are gone all day some we are gone part. Tomorrow I have to ride the bus first time since they left before this relying on my sister. Wednesday I will get a ride. I am early today skipping church to sit in Starbucks do my show before work so I don't have to ride the bus two days in a row. Oh well. I am okay. I will be glad when they home and normal can sorta return.
Well that is all for now. Nothing special this week just norm. Plus a doctors appointment I hope on Thursday. I paid for my medicine last week $5 each it so painful doing this. I truly need a job that gives me 30 hours a week. Not necessarily one I am in now. And if I had that I could get my medical back and not have to pay for everything suffer cause I cant go to any kind of doctor and pay for them too. Till then I am doing my best but this is taking all my extra money and then some. I never thought I would miss my free medical till I actually needed then lost it :( till next week have a good one. Happy Palm Sunday. God bless you all. Blessed is Him who comes in the name of the Lord. Amen my Jesus :)
Saturday, April 6, 2019
The Weekend 5 (Sunday, April 7th 2019)
Welcome to April the 4th month of the year. While April showers might bring May flowers I love April!! It is my favorite month. I love Spring and I love April because it is the first full month of Spring & its the 4th month and I love even numbers (I'm weird I know lol). So welcome to my favorite month and my favorite season :) It's the little things...
1. Work is work. Somehow my schedule next week got a mess and my MGR was on a vacation so I couldn't get it fixed in time. So I had already asked for Saturday off and even though she came back yesterday I still said I could not work. However she fixed it so I can work now the other 4 days (I was only scheduled 1 day I need 5 but at least 4 days too many bills!!). Work is stressful. I truly want different hours and a different job. That is my only hope. I can get time to find a real job. Or make it till June to transfer either new position or new store. Sorry guys. This is not for me. I was originally gonna try to make it till a year. But with my bad feet problems form diabetes along with my otherwise bad knees. I am thinking I might try again or a sit down job. I am praying about this and will begin to look this week for a change. Please. I cant keep working for a job that I am letting define me and stresses me out beyond repair. Most times I work I am alone up front and struggle for any of my 3 given and I should get breaks. I SHOULD GET ALL 3 WITH NO ISSUES! There is no reason any of should have to suffer but we all do not just me. This is the worst I have ever seen at a job. Most jobs you get all your breaks with a chance here or there you might not. This one its like LUNCH is required but even that I struggle with. I usually get my first break but my 3rd one is a game unless I am working one of my two times of 5 total with someone else. We need more employees too. Stressful :(
2. The 1st I was reminded of 5 years ago and my God given day of my job. I got hired nearly on the spot same day for Babies R Us. They did background check and I was officially hired on the 3rd. Hard to believe its been that long since hired and now been over a year since we closed. I miss that job so much still. I feel like someone died. Its weird but I miss it. To think how much I used to hate it. Not always. I think it was more than just the job. It was everything with it. Friends, the gym, the fun. The end was sad too. I cant ever visit its gone for good. A dead tomb like B&N was for a bit till it got changed several time and now last I saw in that mall is like 2 different stores!!
3. Back to school show 9 was okay. I love my shows and I am sad we are now past the half way point. My online class is going okay. Falling behind already so working hard to catch up this weekend for my first homework. I am truly doing this one so I can keep up 6 units and not have to pay my student loans. I really wanted to if I couldn't do any other class just do my DJ thing which is tons of work but something I truly love. Its true. If you love something a job or a hobby or a class you can work hard and ENJOY IT that is what I do. I am looking for ways to make this job my reality someday soon. Please oh please.
4. Did the Zoo on Thursday only 2 hours sadly. I wanted to do it 3 or 4. WE did see the pandas possibly last time ever they go back to China on the 27th of this month. We are gonna try for one more trip. I would love to do the Safari Park we still haven't been back to there since we got our new passes. But its harsh our only real day is Thursdays for stuff unless I ask for time off. Cause Tuesdays is school and my show. But yeah we had fun and still got very tired.
5. Saturday we finally got back to our bird thing. I haven't been there since December. I have been working in the mornings at work January February and in March it rained that day so we couldn't. However trying to change my schedule so this might be my only time going unless they give it to me off. But we can go on a different day not just Saturday it is truly fun. Love the bird time with my mom. I love spending time with her too its a precious time :)
Life is short. Live to the fullest. Live each day like its your last. Say I love you. Don't hold grudges. Don't go to bed upset. Trust God always. Thanks for reading this. Have a great week. Nothing special this weeks sadly but who knows. Only God right. Till next weekend God Bless you all!!
1. Work is work. Somehow my schedule next week got a mess and my MGR was on a vacation so I couldn't get it fixed in time. So I had already asked for Saturday off and even though she came back yesterday I still said I could not work. However she fixed it so I can work now the other 4 days (I was only scheduled 1 day I need 5 but at least 4 days too many bills!!). Work is stressful. I truly want different hours and a different job. That is my only hope. I can get time to find a real job. Or make it till June to transfer either new position or new store. Sorry guys. This is not for me. I was originally gonna try to make it till a year. But with my bad feet problems form diabetes along with my otherwise bad knees. I am thinking I might try again or a sit down job. I am praying about this and will begin to look this week for a change. Please. I cant keep working for a job that I am letting define me and stresses me out beyond repair. Most times I work I am alone up front and struggle for any of my 3 given and I should get breaks. I SHOULD GET ALL 3 WITH NO ISSUES! There is no reason any of should have to suffer but we all do not just me. This is the worst I have ever seen at a job. Most jobs you get all your breaks with a chance here or there you might not. This one its like LUNCH is required but even that I struggle with. I usually get my first break but my 3rd one is a game unless I am working one of my two times of 5 total with someone else. We need more employees too. Stressful :(
2. The 1st I was reminded of 5 years ago and my God given day of my job. I got hired nearly on the spot same day for Babies R Us. They did background check and I was officially hired on the 3rd. Hard to believe its been that long since hired and now been over a year since we closed. I miss that job so much still. I feel like someone died. Its weird but I miss it. To think how much I used to hate it. Not always. I think it was more than just the job. It was everything with it. Friends, the gym, the fun. The end was sad too. I cant ever visit its gone for good. A dead tomb like B&N was for a bit till it got changed several time and now last I saw in that mall is like 2 different stores!!
3. Back to school show 9 was okay. I love my shows and I am sad we are now past the half way point. My online class is going okay. Falling behind already so working hard to catch up this weekend for my first homework. I am truly doing this one so I can keep up 6 units and not have to pay my student loans. I really wanted to if I couldn't do any other class just do my DJ thing which is tons of work but something I truly love. Its true. If you love something a job or a hobby or a class you can work hard and ENJOY IT that is what I do. I am looking for ways to make this job my reality someday soon. Please oh please.
4. Did the Zoo on Thursday only 2 hours sadly. I wanted to do it 3 or 4. WE did see the pandas possibly last time ever they go back to China on the 27th of this month. We are gonna try for one more trip. I would love to do the Safari Park we still haven't been back to there since we got our new passes. But its harsh our only real day is Thursdays for stuff unless I ask for time off. Cause Tuesdays is school and my show. But yeah we had fun and still got very tired.
5. Saturday we finally got back to our bird thing. I haven't been there since December. I have been working in the mornings at work January February and in March it rained that day so we couldn't. However trying to change my schedule so this might be my only time going unless they give it to me off. But we can go on a different day not just Saturday it is truly fun. Love the bird time with my mom. I love spending time with her too its a precious time :)
Life is short. Live to the fullest. Live each day like its your last. Say I love you. Don't hold grudges. Don't go to bed upset. Trust God always. Thanks for reading this. Have a great week. Nothing special this weeks sadly but who knows. Only God right. Till next weekend God Bless you all!!
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