Speeding right along through this month aren't we? One more of these for the month! And that includes a bonus day it is after all leap year!! How was your week? I had a lot going on so I will try to keep it in 5 total not 6 (no promises)
1. Work this week was less. I worked only 4 days total for this week and 4 for next week coming now too. All cause I took Friday (one week) and Saturday (this week) off. So I only worked twice this weekend not 4x total which is my norm. My next Saturday off unless they give it to me is in March for the Hot Chocolate 5K coming up on March 22nd so that will be March 21st and March 22nd. Work is weird. I mean its okay. I am trying to be okay at work but I know I am not supposed to be there. Why am I there still? Cause I refuse to apply for another job. ANYTHING at this point would do. I just want out. I am praying for this push while sitting down not trying on my end. While I know God can move me out it happened with BRU I dont want it to have to be that dramatic to get me to quit. Now they are changing rules again and I am unsure how much more I can handle. This on top of our regular stuff and I am just supposed to be okay. Still short handed still not enough people still stress more than I can handle. I am okay on days when there are all of us and horrible on days when there are less. I know my co workers feel the same. And creepy as crap is the two AP people and maybe our boss too (unsure) like to just watch us sometimes for no reason at all. I agree with my co worker "I do not feel safe" no I do not. Why? Watch the criminals not us watching for them and only doing so much cause we can only do so much :/ why me!
2. GYM did it twice this week. On Monday after my job. And that was nice at the other gym. Then quickly and not as much time at the regular GYM on Thursday. That was our GYM time this week yup yup. I love GYM wish we could go more than twice a week :(
3. School did show 3 not bad actually minus a few issues. After I done I headed over to my church to meet up for day 2 of my Pastor. He gave me some inside stuff I hadn't known and it both enlightened me and depressed me. I feel like its too much to handle. Here is the scoop: for 17 years almost 4 month I put everything into my dog everything. We all have baskets we balance them. Anything can be a basket you need balance. You can do it with anyone or anything. If you put it all in ONE thing and that thing is taken away say a dog. (it can be a person too, a hobby, etc) then it leave a big hole in your life. So what my mom says is true when she tells me that she thinks it looks like a hole is missing from my heart. IT REALLY IS! Now what to do? I need to find a filling for it. So I have been praying about this. So much. I also think I want to get married again and gulp I even want to have a baby. Not adopt not go into a relationship where they have a child or children. But I want a baby. Its too much. Not really. Instead of praying for this I am praying for Gods will and I pray for miracles. I am still learning to pray BIG prayers and stop trying to hold back. Its not easy. My Pastor now still knows even more about my family how I was raised and such. He gave me a lot to think about. I love my church they love me. Its the love that they are giving me that is truly getting me through my heartbreaking time.
4. Friday was my moms birthday. And Valentines Day. I had this thought: what if next year I have a valentine I HAVE NEVER HAD ONE BEFORE!! Not a guy at least. ;) Anyways. Went and babysat at the church as my monthly volunteer so I dont have to miss church this month!! :) They had fun we watched a movie and ate pizza. Not bad way to spend my Friday. Then yesterday we did the real present for my mom. Falcon and Hawk thing at La Jolla Torrey Pines. My mom held a falcon with a group. It was fun. A beautiful day. Then we had lunch at Islands. Not bad two days off work.
5. 2014 was an interesting year. It didnt begin so much. My unemployment ran out and I was living off saved extra money and then my tax return to get me till April. In April on the 1st cause God has a sense of humor :) I got hired at Babies R Us although it wasn't official till the 3rd. Thus began my almost 4 years with the company. Also in 2014 we began going to school with the BOG waver. I began working towards my dread of tv or radio. I was doing very well my first semester I did online stuff at Mira Costa and Palomar and one in person at Palomar. I was on my way and it was nearly free all the way cause I was poor and working less. Ah the good old days when I didnt have credit cards to bog down my money just a few bills...
Well that is all for this week. Next week wont be as exciting but not boring. Have a good week. See you next weekend. God bless you all!! And I'm sick now too a week of fighting it I just gave in and decided to let it run instead of playing games daily trying to keep it from coming on you stupid cold :(
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